The First Day Without Zoey

Every time I do anything today I think of Zoey. I ate my breakfast and saved a bite like I always did and looked over and you weren't there. Just the morning before you were and you happily ate your treat. Every time I went outside I looked to see if you needed out, automatically, and you weren't there. In the middle of the night I got up and carefully walked to the bathroom so I would trip over you and started crying again when I remembered you weren't there. The house seems empty, you filled it with so much space and gentle love.

The cat wanders from room to room, crying this terrible cry and she can't find you. She sat on my lap, you know she doesn't do that. She only laid down with you. And she slept on Ricks stomach. We all miss you so much. I don't think we will run out of tears. Zoey, did I tell you thanks for sharing our lives for the last 13 and a half years? As I buried my face in your fur for the last time yesterday and smelled you sweet smell did you know my heart was breaking?

I miss you baby girl.

Zoey

My beautiful dog was just diagnosed with hemagiosarcoma, cancer of the spleen, last week. This is her 2nd bout with cancer but this one is probably her last battle. One day she was a happy old dog, 13 1/2, and then during a walk she couldn't keep her balance and kept falling. Rushing her to the vet they found a large abdominal mass. It hadn't been felt 4 months ago and now is the size of a grapefruit.

The vet would like to do an exploratory lap on her to see if the cancer has spread, on the xrays it looks like the liver may be involved and possible take out the spleen. It won't save her life and may not even buy her much time. We are leaning toward just keeping her home as long as she is happy and eating, still pain free and taking it from there. I just can't make up my mind. She is the world to us. It the spleen ruptures she could have a painful death which we don't want. This is just so sad.

As a pet owner we all know this time will come but how did the years fly by so fast? It seems like she was a puppy just yesterday.

Today the grandchildren wrote letters about what they liked about Zoey and what she did to make them happy. When the time comes we are going to release a nationality lantern with the letters in them and fly them to the Rainbow bridge to be their for Zoey.

We don't know how long we have and aren't sure yet what path we will take. For now..........lots of hugs and treats. She is happy she is finally off her diet. I hate to think what the next few weeks will bring.