I Need Some Advice

I am having a bit of trouble here with my emotions......
i have been engaged for almost 13 months. the home i live in now is where my precious kitty was hurt at and she is buried in the back yard in a peaceful area. we put her in this huge sandy area where an above ground swimming pool used to sit. the kids like to play in the sand so that is where we put her.

my dad and I own the house, but i asked him to sell it because i am getting married in may and will be moving in with my fiance. i really don't want her resting place disturbed AT ALL. and my husband to be (the one who buried her) said that he would bring her out of the ground so i can get her cremated. it's been since may do they do that , that late? there is a place here in town called "furry loved ones" and they cremate your pet, but the ashes in a little black velvet bag and put the bag into her special teddy bears or heart pillows or pillow of choice.

some good friends of mine are looking at my home to buy it and i asked them that if they get the house that if they could please not disturb her and they told me that would leave her in peace. but what if they don't get the house? i don't know if i am over reacting or not but i just don't want my pretty girl's final resting place disturbed. a part of me want to take her with me to my fiance's house and let her rest there, and part of me wants to excavate her and cremate her and have her in a teddy bear forever so i don't have to worry about it. she was sooooo very special to us that is what makes me confused. i have left a lifetime of loved pets behind me in their final resting places and never thought 2 seconds about leaving them behind and moving forward. but with her it's hard because she was that once in a lifetime pet. the house might sell any day now and i need to decide what to do but i am very confused about it. can someone please give me your opinion so i can think really hard about this? please ??????

what should i do?

I Thought It Would Get Easier

i can't believe how unbelievably hard it is to get over the grief of your one and only special pet that grabs your heart and soul. Christmas was hard because i wanted to get her lil stocking out and fill it with kitty toys as i do every year and this year it didn't happen.
i was unpacking christmas tree bulbs and i looked over at her cat carrier, the last thing that i put her in after she was hit by a car and i rushed her to the animal ER.
God this hurts......... i took two bulbs and went out to her grave and put them on her grave and started crying. I MISS HER SOOOOOOOOO VERY MUCH !!!!

it's been since may 11th and i still to this day have this huge hole in my heart. i still can't drive down my street without knowing that some jerk took her away from me and i would give anything to have her back in my arms....... i miss you prettygirl mommy's having a really rough time without you. i want this grief to go away....... i want her back so bad. my god is anyone else feeling this grief as bad as i am? i still hurt so much............

Still Hurting

it's been 6 months~ and i still find myself hurting, grieving, crying at times and just missing my pretty girl!!! she was the best cat. i can't get over this pain and never had i ever thought i would love this much..... my heart feels like someone punched a big hole through it. it still hurts bad. everytime i pull up to my house she's not there and i drive down the street as slow as i can so i don't hit the million cats in my neighborhood, then i get bitter...... WHY MINE????? why don't any of these cats get hit? why did it have to be my pretty girl?? i don't understand it. i just want the pain to stop because i miss her soooo bad... my god is this normal?? does she have my heart with her? please tell me i am not the only one........

I've Been Adopted

hello everyone~
it's been 4 months since i have been around..... and 4 months since my pretty girl was senselessly taken from my girls and I. it's really hard, because everytime i turn onto my street i think of her and think, this is the street that she was taken from us on. i have slowed down my driving because she was killed on that street. anyway, my heart still hurts so very much i needed time to sort through my grief, but still very much grieving. i have not bought a new kitten or anything. i am still not ready to do that. my fiance mike wants to buy the girls a hemalayan (sp?) for like $250 a kitten..... (he still carries A LOT of guilt for leaving the door open) it's taken him until the end of august to be able to even return to my home. so for 3 months he did not come over UNTIL i boycotted his house ha-ha!
well, it seems we've been adopted! last week my daughter told me to come to the door, and out of the bushes running towards us was this male white cat with calico spots. he has a long body and is sweet as can be. we left him one night on our porch as i drove to spend the night at my fiance's house and when we returned at 6 am he was still there. he comes over now more than he leaves and sure enough we pulled up at 6 am this morning he was on our porch. i looked at the girls and said " i think we have been officially adopted". i think he belongs to someone because he is not all scroungy. BUT i think he likes us better i hope to get another cat, "someday" but my heart still is grieving for pretty girl. I call him "tom tom" and he likes it....... i think he just likes "US"
~lori~

One Week Today

hi everyone~
my beautiful Pretty Girl passed a week ago today at 10am! i am very sad today and to tell you the truth it has felt like a yr. ive lost over 8 lbs and i go everyday to her resting place and tell her i love her and miss her soooooo much!!! i have her picture up on my computer at home so i can "see" her everyday. the girls and i are coping well with it. i can have blocked the traumatic part that was shredding me to pieces last week. i can talk about her without crying uncontrollable(which is good) i do still very much cry for her because i want her back. last night was very hard because the vet sent us a sympathy card with the sweetest words in it. they loved pretty girl there and she was there favorite. i have never seen a staff act that way. they all commented on her sweet loving disposition while she was here on earth. the vet that helped her finally rest was the vet that signed the card. she knew how we loved her. i thought that was great and boy did i start crying all over again. i love her and miss her and hope that she's smiling over us.
~lori~