2 Years Ago Today, Sir Thomas |
2 Years Ago Today, Sir Thomas |
Dec 8 2012, 09:08 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 4,059 Joined: 6-January 11 From: Louisville KY Member No.: 6,946 |
It's been 2 years to the day my Sir Thomas crossed over the Rainbow Bridge to be with the angles. I will forever remember that horrible night. Coming in the door from work, finding him on the cold bathroom floor. He appeared to be gasping for air about every 10-20 seconds. I would find out from the vet ER nurse that it was just involuntary; lungs shutting down. When I frantically called my cabbie friend to take us there, the vet confirmed he was gone
Most of you who read my posts already know this story, and how he battled diabetes for almost 4 years. To this day I cannot get over my anger at the so called substitute vet who put him under for a routine teeth cleaning when his BG was dangerously low! I truly feel in my heart and soul this was the beginning of his decline. It was so hard to watch him go down hill over the period of that last 9-10 months. Knowing that even if I had the money, Dr. Mills said it would probably only be a temporary solution at best to go through the expensive treatment of his thyroid (he was eating but losing a lot of weight over the last couple months) I wish I'd been there for him. I wish that I'd had the courage to help him pass over. But he fought so hard and clung to life like no other living being I have ever known. I didn't want to take that away from him. Sir Thomas, I'm so sorry I was not there for you that day. I should have stayed home from work. In hind sight, I think you knew your time was near. The way you tried to meow, but could barely croak. The way you tried to stand brave even though your hind legs were giving out. I miss you my little man. You live forever in my heart and soul. Also thank you for looking over your little sis Theresa and sending your little brother in spirit Tang my way. Until we meet again Tommy Boy, at the Bridge. This one's for you. I love you. Dad. http://youtu.be/JxPj3GAYYZ0 -------------------- Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay. |
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Dec 8 2012, 11:24 AM
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Forum Moderator Group: Moderators Posts: 8,088 Joined: 20-July 08 From: Virginia Member No.: 4,861 |
Hi, Tracy, thank you so much for sharing your and your beloved Sir Thomas' 2 year angel-versary with us, and your loving tribute to your beloved companion. I do so understand the heart-felt wants to change events - - to make the series of events better for our companions - - including when their earthly journey is coming to an end. As we continue to travel our earthly journey nothing in heaven or on earth will ever take these heart-felt wants away, for they are part of the "wisdom" we have learned from the hindsight of events as they unfolded. It is a reminder to us that we truly are not all-powerful and all-knowledgeable - - that we travel this earthly journey by faith and not by sight.
I know it is hard to console your heart when it is filled with sorrow. Still, Tracy, I hope somehow you be able to find comfort in my words that from everything you have shared with us it is quite obvious you did everything in your power with the information you had at the moment to provide for your beloved Sir Thomas according to his needs. Your beloved Sir Thomas knows this, too. But I do understand that there are experiences that happen in our lives that we will wish we could change - - and that this will be a part of us until it is our appropriate moment in time to leave the bonds of our earthly life and be reunited with our beloved companions in eternal joy. When it feels like doubt and failure are overtaking you, Tracy, look into the loving eyes of your precious Theresa and little Tang. Hopefully your heart will find comfort and hope and encouragement to just keep doing what you're doing to the best of your ability, for as it is written, "Love is enduring" - - and your precious Theresa, little Tang, and beloved Sir Thomas know how much you love them. Thank you again so much for sharing your and your beloved Sir Thomas' 2 year angel-versary with us. I hope today is treating you and your precious Theresa and little Tang kindly, my friend. Please know you and your precious companions are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to knowing how you and your precious Theresa and little Tang are doing, and to sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Sir Thomas. Peace and blessings, moon_beam -------------------- In heaven's perfect garden there is no grief or pain, and all of God's creation join the angels' sweet refrain.
The most blessed way I have of knowing God's comforting love and grace is to look into the eyes and heart of God's creatures' sweet angelic face. |
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Dec 8 2012, 05:13 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 4,059 Joined: 6-January 11 From: Louisville KY Member No.: 6,946 |
Thank you moon_beam
This post was really difficult to write. I had to fight back the tears when writing it and reading your response. I can't believe he's been gone for 2 years now. Sometimes I feel like his memory is slipping away from me, and it makes me sad. I sometimes wonder, is this what happens with the passage of time? Does he just fade away? I don't always "talk" to him out loud every day like I used to. I get so caught up with Tang's issues and trying not to forget that while fairly healthy, Theresa is approaching senior status. I don't even want to think about when it's her her time or Tang's. All I know is that Tom made me a better person for having known him. I hope I was able to give him a happy life in our all too brief 5 1/2 years....... -------------------- Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold. Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay. |
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Dec 8 2012, 06:16 PM
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Forum Administrator Group: Admin Posts: 1,073 Joined: 3-March 03 From: Midwest USA Member No.: 1 |
QUOTE I can't believe he's been gone for 2 years now. Sometimes I feel like his memory is slipping away from me, and it makes me sad. that was a quick 2 years. considering your undeniable love for Tom, rest assured your memories may soften over the years but will never be lost. after nearly 17 years, i remember and memorialize tribble's passing every New Year's Day. not so good memories of the days leading up to his death are still part of the process. but mostly good thoughts shine through. it comforts me that us and our departed pets (and human loved ones too) will meet at the bridge one day. -------------------- |