Tragic Accident- Where Do I Go From Here? Options

[Critty900]

I am going through that now. I lost my English bulldog to an accidental drowning. I almost drowned trying to save her. A fisherman through me a rope and pulled me out but it was too late for my girl. I haven't been able to eat or sleep. I keep having flashbacks and reliving it. I went to the doctor and they gave medication to cope. It's different pain to lose a pet to an accident bc I would tell her everyday that momma will not let anything happen to her when she was scared of the vacuum etc. I would pet her and tell that I would always protect her. The pain is different than losing a pet to illness or old age. Sometimes the grief literally takes my breath away. I am in shock and can't believe this has happened to me. I live alone and she was my only companion.

[LittleGirl's...]

Oh Critty900, I am SO sorry about this !! I will write to you tomorrow or later tonight! How are you doing? Do you have supportive people nearby?
More sooooon.
Kathy

I am going through that now. I lost my English bulldog to an accidental drowning. I almost drowned trying to save her. A fisherman through me a rope and pulled me out but it was too late for my girl. I haven't been able to eat or sleep. I keep having flashbacks and reliving it. I went to the doctor and they gave medication to cope. It's different pain to lose a pet to an accident bc I would tell her everyday that momma will not let anything happen to her when she was scared of the vacuum etc. I would pet her and tell that I would always protect her. The pain is different than losing a pet to illness or old age. Sometimes the grief literally takes my breath away. I am in shock and can't believe this has happened to me. I live alone and she was my only companion.

[LittleGirl's...]

Critty900,

I am so very sorry about the physical loss of your precious dog! There is nothing like this kind of pain, and as you said, it's even worse through a tragic accident. I am imagining how horrifying this must have been. I am really glad you found this site. We are here to comfort and reassure you.

She is there with you. She just doesn't have her beautiful physical form. She's a free spirit and is with you---and anywhere else she wants to be, since there are no time/space restrictions in the blissful realm she's in. And she doesn't want you feeling guilt ! This was a tragic accident. It reminds me of the story of a cat who had jumped into a top-loading washing machine ... As you can imagine, when the owner discovered this (by then it was too late), she tortured herself with guilt. Please don't do that to yourself. A quote that moon_beam (one of the moderators on this page) has shared: "One of the many emotions we all experience is guilt / remorse which comes from looking back and trying to reconcile all the whys, what ifs, and if onlys that haunt and torture our hearts and minds during a time when we are emotionally vulnerable."

If the roles had been reversed and it was you who had passed before her--especially if in a tragic accident--you wouldn't want her to suffer for a second. Any moment of happiness in her is something that would do your heart good. That is how she feels about you. 

Would you be open to possibly being guided (by your sweet dog, and in honor of her) to some animal who needs you? Your baby would be so proud. But only if and when you feel that this would be the thing to do. I hate to think of you alone (even though, in her Spirit, your dog is right there!). Some sweet animal would be very lucky to be taken in by you and given such love.

I look forward to hearing how you are doing. In the meantime, I am sending you prayers for peace and healing.

Kathy