Hummingbirds

I lost Chestnut yesterday and have been in absolute anguish and grief since then. I am absolutely sick. I can't stop crying. I can't get motivated to do anything and I'm moving in a few days with a lot to do. I'm just moping. I was sitting on the couch today just mindlessly gazing out the window when a hummingbird flew up to the window and just looked in for several seconds. I kind of blew it off, but then it happened again and again. I still though, no way. Then I went to my office and was on the computer. I again started mindlessly gazing out the window (I am a bit of a day dreamer), when I saw a hummingbird fly by the window. This time the hummingbird stopped and sat on a branch and looked in for a few seconds before it flew away.

Could this have been a sign or am I just nuts? I've been in this house for over three years and have never had that many hummingbird encounters, especially in one afternoon.

Does this sound crazy?

Chestnut's mommy

My Beloved Chestnut

I lost my beloved cat Chestnut today. He had been diagnosed with cancer in March and we fought the good fight, but the cancer won. I had to have hime euthanized today. I cannot describe adequately the intensity of the pain I am feeling right now. As I write the tears are streaming down my face and I feel a hole in my heart. This loss is significant for me. Chestnut came to me through a co-worker in March 1995. He was a feral kitten found under a bush in the park. He was the best cat. He was funny, silly, affectionate, and sooo beautiful. He went from a tiny red and white fluff ball and grew into a gorgeous 17 pound boy. His eyes were Chestnut in color. I feel like I can never love a cat again the way I loved him. I have had many cats, but Chestnut was like no other and there will never be another one like him.