One Week, Missing my Lucy Options

[Caroline]

I can't believe it has been one week, almost to the hour that we had to put our beloved Lucy down. She was suffering so badly last Friday from the lymphoma. I miss her so much. The house has been so quiet. I still sometimes open the door to let her out, or look for her when I come home even though I know she is not there.

I went to a support loss meeting at the humane society last night but it didn't help all that much. What I really want is Lucy back, and nobody can give me that. We received so many condolence cards and even some flowers when Lucy passed. That really touched me. Everyone on our street loved her. She was always out on our front lawn with my husband and kids. She was friendly to everybody. I don't even want to be outside anymore, because outside was where Lucy loved to be. We walked her everywhere...to Starbucks, the park with the kids...all of those places seem sad to me now.

We told my 3 year old son that Lucy was up in heaven...in the sky. Now he is worried that she will "fall out of the sky." I keep telling him that won't happen. Our family still seems so off balance. It is hard to believe it has been just one week. It seems like it has been so much longer since I held her and talked to her. She was such a wonderful, sweet girl. I think about her all of the time.

Caroline

Lucy 4-9-99 to 2-4-05

[Muffins]

Dear Caroline:

I think of you and your family often, so I thought I would write and
let you know that..

The "anniversaries" are very, very hard to "believe"..... Sometimes, it
feels like forever, but it has only been "days"....

Please, just know that your darling Lucy is up at Rainbow's Bridge, in
Heaven, and she is running free, with all of our furbabies, and she is
(probably chasing after my Ernestine , and having fun), but I
know she's caught a butterfly or two, on her nose..

Cry all the tears that you have to..... I cried enough tears to make a
good-size lake, that's for sure........
And, they are "healing", the tears are, very much so....

God Bless You and Your Family, Caroline.....

Have you tried writing in a "journal"??? That has always helped me
in life..........
In the beginning, after our sweet Ernestine was put to sleep, I just
stayed here, on LS............
I couldn't do much else.....

But, things will "feel better", I assure you.....

Take Care....

Your friend,

Love, Denise xo

[CheriAnn]

Dear Caroline,

It's hard to believe it has now been a week since you helped sweet Lucy cross over that bridge. I know it's very difficult, but you've already made it throough the first week. That first week was the very roughest for me! You are now one week closer towards healing. That's the only way to look at it and stay sane.

I think it is wonderful that you got so many nice condolences!
It "validates" that your precious Lucy was a big part of your family and people understand how big of a loss it is for you and your family. When I lost my dear Rachael I was overwhelmed by the amount of support and sympathy I got. Like you, I received flower deliveries and cards. The most touching was when my co-workers (including my boss) made contributions for Rachael's grave stone. I must have cried for hours! It felt SO good that other people understood Rachael was my family!

I think Denise has a great idea about writing a journal. I never did do that, although I meant to. Instead I concentrated on making her a nice memorial, one that she deserved. I'm sure you will find an outlet for your pain in time that will help bring you closer to healing. Although we NEVER EVER forget our furbabies or stop loving and missing them, the pain does eventually become bearable.

Hugs,
Cheri

[wittley]

Dear Caroline,
Just to let you know I'm thinking of you during this one-week mark, as my Winston passed away a week ago also.
That's lovely that you got so many condolence cards & flowers - I got 2 cards which I was really touched by, but generally people acted as if it wasn't really a big deal (the "well, it's just a cat" thing) - which hurt me dreadfully. It's been a hard week for both of us, & even though you must have been in a dreadful amount of pain yourself, having only just lost your beloved Lucy, you took the time to respond to my first heartfelt plea, a week ago - & I really appreciate that. Your words - & everyone's - were so comforting & supportive.
I know it's painful when all we want is our babies back, & as you say, no-one can give us that.
Thinking of you during these first painful days without our babies..
Big hugs,
Elsie

[Kathleen032]

Dear Caroline,

I've thought of you so many times this week. I can relate to the Starbucks thing...I used to take Shiloh to a dog friendly cafe...she's been gone 5 1/2 months and I still can't go there without choking back tears.

You continue to be in my thoughts.
Kathleen

PS - How adorable that your son is worried that Lucy is going to fall out of the sky.

[IndysMom]

Caroline,
I can't believe it's been a week already. I lived with you through the nightmarish weekend you lost dear Lucy.
On my week anniversry of losing Indy, I think I was still in shock. It didn't seem real to me. I bet that is how you feel now.
You are constantly in my thoughts.
Wishing you well and hoping for your healing to begin.
Love, Fran