The Debate, pts Options

[SJ J & S]

Quote from Rest in Peace

‘Thursdays were hard for a while because thats the day I had Jude put to sleep and yet one Friday I realised that I hadn’t realised it was Thursday the day before – confused, so am I -.
So ……. How long before I wake up on the 7th or 8th and realise that id missed the 6th?????’

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Having suggest that Kiwi's mommy reads my last posting on rest in peace I decided to go back and read the whole thing again – BIG MISTAKE – I'm still crying.

But the above quote struck me and here I am 1yr 1 month/10 months on and it’s the 11th and I missed the 6th ------------- guess that’s how long it takes, for me anyway.

[Saki & Freyj...]

Sue: Take this the right way: I am glad you forgot a passing of the 6th....

Keandria:
If you couldn't be there, that is OK. Really. I promise. The last thing Kiwi wanted from you is to see you suffer. THINK about that. Would he want to have seen you all hysterical in the vet office??? NO. Of course not. That would've upset him. So you left. It was the right thing to do.

All three of my pets died in my arms. Frey and Lec we had to put to sleep. But Saki died in my arms while ***I*** was sleeping. I was, of all things -- napping. Ya'll can't understand this bc: I DO NOT NAP. PERIOD. I do not nap. But the day Saki died, we had a pts appt for the next day. And I sat down with her, I brushed her, I told her everything that was going on -- with her health, with my emotions.... I gave her permission to go. I asked that if it were time that she go voluntarily, bc I couldn't live with putting her to sleep. And then -- I fell asleep. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THIS? I fell asleep. Bc Saki wanted to go, and wanted to go voluntarily, but she knew that if I were AWAKE, I would've been doing cat CPR--even tho she had massive tumors on her liver, even tho we had a pts appt for her the next day. She didn't want me doing all that cpr and screaming and etc. So -- **I** was "put to sleep" (in the literal and not figurative sense) so she could pass on voluntarily.

Leandria -- it was the same for you. Kiwi did NOT WANT to see you crying and screaming in his face -- so he asked you to leave the room and you did. There is no guilt in that. Do not feel guilty about that. He wanted you to take him to the doctor, and you did. He wanted you to leave the room -- and you did. Be happy that you made your very beautiful Kiwi as comfortable as you could in his last moments.

Love,
Jennifer