My Sweet Little Beary, Gone To Soon, My husky, my best friend Options

[Audrey Basar]

Capone is and always will be my majestic little bear husky. He was so goofy and handsome. He had the best personality ever. Two days ago I was just about to open my business for the first day ever !! I had brought both of my huskies to work with me, I put them inside behind the doggy gate and proceeded to go out to the car to grab my bag. I turned around once I got to my car & both of my huskies were taking off down the road....they had opened the gate and nudged the door open. I started chasing after them & not even two minutes into the chase I could see from the distance three people surrounding my little boy who laid in the middle of the road, lifeless. His beautiful blue eyes completely dilated and wide, almost to where they were black. His tongue was out and I started shaking him yelling Capone wake up wake up.. The moment I saw him I knew he had passed .. I was just trying to see if he would react even though I knew he wouldn't. I could not believe this nightmare was happening. I couldn't even cry at first because I was in such shock. He died on impact. My other husky came running to me before I got to his body. She had a large cut on her paw, but she was ok. We ran over to our little Beary and I couldn't believe what was happening. He was the best boy you could ask for. He would howl at you all the time , wipe his face on the carpet after eating , he was such a goof. Every time I was out without my pups I couldn't wait to get home to see them. My bf & I always would say I want my puppies when we were out and about. And as soon as we get home, Capone would give us the biggest sweetest howls. Even just going to do our Landry in the neighbor hood coming back 5 mins later he would hoot and holler in joy. He was so happy. Seeing his soulmate (my other husky), Luna be in agony with out him hurts even more than my pain alone. She loved him so much and they had a bond unlike no other. She doesn't want to eat or play. She only lays in the spots he lays. And she cries sometimes for him. It's only been two days, and I can tell you right now these are the most terrible days I have ever experienced. The image in my head of my beautiful boy keeps replaying over and over and over . And I keep mourning and wishing my Beary was still with us. He was the most beautiful dog I've ever seen and made so many people happy in his short two years . Everyone loved his unique self. Personality and looks, all around a 10+. Now I go on walks with my boyfriend and Luna and I have nothing to hold, no one to walk. And it hurts so bad, he was my little boy, my precious angel. He was my son. I spent so much time and care and took them everywhere together, the beach, dog parks, other parks, roller blading , monkey farm.. They were my number one. And he was mommys little boy. And Luna is daddy's little girl. My bf hurts so much too, but he was my little boy who would stare at me all the time , watching me go from room to room , howling for me, wanting his belly rubbed. Getting so excited Everytime we went for a walk or when we got home .. He was just so perfect and I still cannot believe this happened. I lost a different husky , Sky 7 years ago when I was out of town my mom was watching her and she ran out the house came home and was showing signs of distress so they took her to the vet and she died there. They believe internal bleeding from possibly a car. There was also a lot of rattlesnakes in the area so we aren't sure what it really was. That was heart breaking enough, I got her for my 8th birthday . She died at age 8. Another gone too soon. But my little Beary who I gave my entire heart to did not deserve this and I don't know why God had to take him so young. I'm just in so much pain. And everyone is so hurt and affected by this because he was a huge part of my family's & my bf family's life . He was the center of all our joy & lunas. And now Luna is going to miss her soulmate so so much. This kind of pain is one I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy . The feeling is unbearable, one minute your sobbing the next your ok, the next your wondering why or what or wishing you would have done things differently . I wish so bad to be with my little boy again. It hurts so much because it was so unexpected . It was supposed to be the best day of my life (opening a shop) and it turned into the worst day of my life. I still can't believe he's gone and I just wish the pain and awful image would get out of my head . I miss him more than anything . I hope he is in the spirit world playing with sky. The image of him was unbearable. There was no blood at first. Just the look of death, no response, open dilated eyes, the worst thing I will ever see .. I wish this was all just a nightmare and I could wake up and hear his howls again and pet his furry soft ears. He had such a long, fluffy copper coat. I miss you Beary,we all do. You were so amazing in every way possible and thank you so much for bringing the most awesome memories into mine, Luna and daddy's life . We love you deeper than any love there is .... Rip little bear . how will I ever get over this and drown out the last image I had of him?