Poe Options

[moon_beam]

Hi, Suzanne, thank you so much for sharing with us how you and your precious James are doing. You, your precious James, and your beloved Poe ARE a family - - even though your beloved Poe is no longer physically with you, he is ALWAYS and FOREVER a part of you and your precious James.

I can very much relate to how you're feeling when you share with us: "It's really sad with just the two of us." My precious Noah is a sole survivor in a household that enjoyed the physical presence of 4 precious companions - - including my precious Noah. In his short 10 years of life my precious Noah and I have had to adjust to the physical loss of three of our housemate companions. It is not an easy adjustment to make by any stretch of the imagination - - it is a very painful adjustment both emotionally and physically.

The good news is that you and your precious James have each other to comfort one another - - and your beloved Poe's sweet Living Spirit is with you both as well.

I hope today is treating you and your precious James kindly, Suzanne, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Poe's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[snrein1016]

Tomorrow I have to drive the route I had to take to bring Poe to the vet. Needless to say, I'm dreading it. I'll just be reliving the whole thing all over again.

The trip there wasn't actually that bad because I thought I was bringing him home eventually. We were singing songs, and he being calm and relaxed. But that route has such painful memories. Merely a month ago I was driving back totally a wreck. I don't want to relive that.

And I have been trying so hard not to feel guilty, but I do. He trusted me, he trusted me to protect him, and I ended his life. I still can't believe this has happened. I'm still in shock.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Suzanne, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I can so relate to how you're feeling when you share with us: "Tomorrow I have to drive the route I had to take to bring Poe to the vet. Needless to say, I'm dreading it. I'll just be reliving the whole thing all over again. Merely a month ago I was driving back totally a wreck. I don't want to relive that."

For different reasons several years ago I, too, was faced with having to drive a route that was a constant reminder of a very tragic event that literally changed my life physically and emotionally. It isn't easy having to continuously be reminded of a very unhappy event. Perhaps there is another route you could take for awhile - - even if it does take you a few minutes longer to drive to your destination. It is important during the deep grief to try to find ways in our daily routines that will help ease the pain and sorrow - - however briefly that is.

One of the many things you need to remember is that you did everything that is in your human and humane power to give your beloved Poe a happy and healthy earthly journey. Your beloved Poe knows that you would do everything in your power to move heaven and earth to keep him safe, healthy, and happy. I hope and pray that as your travel your grief adjustment journey that your heart will be able to find peace and comfort.

I hope today is treating you and your precious James kindly, Suzanne, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Poe's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[snrein1016]

Moonbeam -- Thank you so much for your kind words. They are such a comfort.

What I'm struggling with the most now is kind of the lingering feelings of sadness and depression. I don't have any control of my anxiety or anger right now. Everything makes me mad and being out around people is torture. Driving is excruciating, I'm just so sensitive to everything around me. I don't really know what to do with this phase because there doesn't seem to be any thing TO DO. How do you deal with the depression/general sadness?

[snrein1016]

It's been nearly two months since I was here and for a while I thought I was doing a lot better. Then Ireland happened. Nearly two months after Poe died, I went on my dream trip to take grad classes in Ireland. I thought it had been long enough since Poe's death for me to be in good shape emotionally to handle the stresses of the trip. It ended up being an nightmare and I had to come home early.

I'm kind of a wreck not because I'm missing Poe horribly and now I'm dealing with the emotional aftermath of that awful trip. I still miss him like crazy. I seems like it hurts just as much as it did at the beginning. I just want him here with me. I feel like he took a little part of my heart with him.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Suzanne, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. First I want to tell you that I am so very sorry that your trip to Ireland turned out to be a horrible disaster for you. I believe the timing is the culprit with it happening so soon after your beloved Poe joined the angels. Please let me try to reassure you that what you are feeling is very normal deep grief when you share with us: "I seems like it hurts just as much as it did at the beginning. I just want him here with me. I feel like he took a little part of my heart with him."

Yes, your beloved Poe does hold a part of your heart with him in eternal joy - - so that he will have a part of you with him as he patiently waits for your appropriate time to join him in eternal joy. If you can think of it this way: I'm sure you have seen the "broken heart" necklaces - - one piece you keep for yourself and the other piece is held by your closest friend or loved one - - when you are together those pieces fit together as one heart. So it is with you and your beloved Poe. While each of you are temporarily physically separated from one another for awhile, each of you hold each other's heart in trust until you are reunited.

Suzanne, please let me try to reassure you that two months is just the beginning of your grief adjustment journey. It really is way too soon for you to expect yourself to have any kind of consistent control over your emotions. This grief journey is frequently referrred to as a horror roller coaster ride with all the ups and downs, twists and turns and turnarounds. It is important that you focus on taking one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time, and allow yourself the opportunities you need to openly grieve for your beloved Poe. I promise you, Suzanne, that one day you will find the pain in your heart begin to ease, and when this happens, you will be able to smile again when you think of your beloved Poe and all the wonderful treasured memories you share together. Until this day comes for you, please know we are here for you.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Suzanne, and that you will have a peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Poe's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam