Wanting A Sign...., ..becoming obsessed Options

[Punky's Mommy]

I've opened my mind sooooo much to the idea that pet's spirits can either remain here with us, or at least that they can visit us. This is going to the point that I lose sleep, trying to keep the channels open in my head to every sound, shadow, feeling. I look everywhere when walking across the house. Some might say I've already been visited by him. The second morning after Punky was laid to rest, I dreamed of him last thing before I woke. I was having an unrelated dream, or maybe I wasn't dreaming at all. When all of the sudden, his face filled my view. He looked so soft and smiling gently. I noticed something wierd, which is that he had one eye that was still white from blindness, but the other eye was deep and black with vision restored. He said something to me in the sweetest child's voice. "Hi Mommy!" It sounded like some combination of Mommy/Daddy/Buddy.... I don't know which he said. But then he came closer and kissed me like he used when he wanted me to wake up. I discounted this as just a dream because of the mismatched eyes. But last night I thought of an interpretation which might explain the blind eye and the sighted eye, if any interpretation exists. In life he was 100% blind in his last 8 months in life. Presumably, in the "afterlife" you are perfect. So maybe he is telling me that he is both here in the physical world, and also in the other realm - he visits both. Maybe I just wish he did.

In the two nights or so after he died, I heard him everywhere. At the time I didn't even think it was really him. Rather, just my memory of him, and being so accustomed to hearing his sounds.

My sister was over last night, and she told me as she was leaving that she thinks she saw him twice in the hall. I didn't see or feel anything after she left.

My mom was elated when she learned that he died at home. "Well honey! He might still be there then!" I told her that I wanted him to be wherever he is happiest, I want him to run and play and have friends, and that I can't imagine following me around as a spirit can be a fulfilling way to live when he cannot interact with me. She said "well what if being near you is exactly what makes him happiest?" I said "Then I am so happy for him, but I wish I could have a sign so I would know he is there"...

...and I've been searching for a sign ever since.

I'm going kinda loopy! LOL