I Love You, Trevor Options

[Bobbie]

Hi Trevor!

What an incredible boy you are. I can hardly stand it, the love I have for you. Everytime I see, in my memories, your little tail wagging ever so tentatively, I just smile and smile. That was one of the greatest gifts you ever gave me, along with all the others. You are my best buddy in the whole universe. BTW - Gradmom and Grandpop say hello. And, of course so do Auntie Jeanne and Auntie Moon_Beam. Oh! To have you so loved does my heart good and I hope it makes up for the lack of love you experienced here on earth.

Dreamer is not feeling so well these days and is kind of quiet for him. Would you give a little peek in and check on him?

Trevor, I will love you until the day I die and then will love you even more when we are reunited. What a grand day that will be! Have good night, my sweetness.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello to you, your precious Dreamer and your beloved Trevor. Thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I'm so sorry that Dreamer is not feeling good. I know you're beloved Trevor and boys are looking over him and telling him that he has THE BEST MOM looking after him.

I hope today is treating you and your precious Dreamer okay. Thank you so much for sharing with us your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love journey. Please know you and your Dreamer are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to sharing your news and your and your beloved Trevor's love letters. Sending auntie moon_beam hugs to everyone.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

My dearest, darling Trevor,

Today marks yet another anniversary. It's been 17 weeks since we had to part physical company so that you could get the peaceful and pain-free life that you deserved. The only place that was going to happen was Heaven. Oh, such an easy and yet incredibly painful decision to make. Everything in my mind, and your actions, told me that sending you to that Wonderful World called Heaven was the most loving and important thing I could do for you. And yet my heart and soul cried out for another alternative that would also leave you with no pain and all gain. It wasn't to be, was it? I hope I didn't make you suffer more than I should have, my love. But I wanted to have some time to really tell you and show you how much I loved you and how much you truly meant to me. I hope I did OK.

Trevor, I wish there were more words in my vocabulary to describe what a wonderful companion and friend you were to me and how much joy you brought to my life every day. Not to mention the love you gave me all along our journey. We lived, learned and loved together and that is something I treasure every minute of every day. I feel so much better having you right next to my heart, day & night, in your locket and having your picture next to my heart at night. You are simply th best and bravest little dog that ever lived on this earth and are now up in Heaven waiting for me. I'll be there. I assure you, no, I promise you that.

So my little munchkin, have a restfull night and a HAPPY tomorrow.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Hi Trevor!

I hope you had a wonderfully happy day in Heaven today. Daddy and I were busy all day shopping. And everywhere we went, your locket and my cross jingled softly, reminding me that you and I were still, and will always be, together. That is such a comforting thought and sound.

You know, Trevor, I read a short article on pet death and dying. At the end, the author suggested that we also remember those pets that no one ever mourns, etc. What a thoughtful idea. So, each night, I would like you to find one pet in Heaven that has not been mourned and tell him/her that your loving Mommy is mourning their loss as well and cannt wait until she can meet them in Heaven, too. Would you mind doing that for me? I didn't think so. You are such a terrific, loving boy.

I'm going to go to bed now. All the walking, etc. made me pretty tired. I'm so happy you don't get that way any more! Enjoy your new friend tonight.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Dear Trevor,

Oh, how I miss you extra much today, my love. Dreamer is still having gut problems and is kind of miserable. The thoughts so remind me of you and all that you suffered every single day for that last year. Up until then, your pain was "manageable", but even then, how much pain did you really have that you were not showing us? I know I should not dwell on your pain and suffering so much, but that is part of what made you such a hero and the bravest little dog in the whole world. No matter how much you hurt or did not you always were filled with love for me and daddy. Although I am so glad (?) that you and I were together so much more, so that we could love each other that much more.

Trevor, YOU are my guardian angel and what a help that is! I still long to touch you, hug you and love you again, but I know that isn't physically possible any more. Just wait until we meet again - that will be the happiest day of my life! Thank you, sweetheart, for living in my life and teaching me the valuable lessons that I STILL need help with.

Have a good night's sleep and a Happy, Happy Monday!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Hello my sweet angel in Heaven!

Oh! How I miss you again today. I've had to back away from a friendship that was turning toxic and I sure could have used your accepting example. Not that Dreamer isn't a good example, but he's young and you have experinced so much more. You would listen and listen no matter how long I talked about something. And I know how I talk. Now what I'd like to say to you is the following:

Trevor, you ARE the bravest little dog ever! I love you more than all the words in all the languages in the world. And that is just the beginning. We had
a bond that was second to none. I wish we could still have time together on earth, but not with any pain. So until that glorious day comes, I will love
you with all my heart and soul. You are the BEST!!!!!

Have a peaceful night and look out for another animal soul that is not being remembered or mourned. Please cuddle up to him or her and tell him/her that your mommy is thinking of them, also.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Good Night, Trevor,

You and the memories I have of you permeate every cell in my body. I think about you all the time and even smile when the happy times come to mind. And we did have some happy times, didn't we?

I love you so very, very much, Trevor and I miss you more each day. How can that be? I don't know, but it's true. God blessed me when He sent you to me and I will never forget you or to thank Him.

Have a beautiful night, Trevor. Mommy is going to bed now. Find another little animal that has been forgotten and remind him/her that they are in my thoughts, too!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello to you and your precious Dreamer and your beloved Trevor and boys. Your letters to your beloved Trevor always bring tears to my eyes and fill my heart with warmth and joy - - for the love you and your beloved Trevor share is truly beyond all words in any language.

I can see your beloved Trevor and his brothers offering comfort to the precious sweet Living Spirits who join them in heaven's perfect garden who have not known the loving comfort of a human guardian during their earthly journey. I, too, think of them and know that they will finally find eternal love and peace when they enter the fellowship of our beloved companions in the company of the angels.

I hope life is treating you and your precious Dreamer kindly, my friend. Thank you for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's treasured love story with us. Please know you and your precious Dreamer are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your heart-filled love journal to your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Gretta's Mom]

What a precious thought - comforting the animals in the Perfect World who have no one on earth to comfort them (of course, in the Perfecct World they wouldn't need comforting - remembering is the much better word). Gretta, please do the same .... every day, please find one little being who has nobody on earth here to remember him or her. Then snuggle up to him or her, play with her or him all day and snuggle up beside him or her all night. Tomorrow, thee two of you go look for someone else, repeat the day, and with you and Trevor both doing this, pretty soon EVERYBODY will be remembered by somebody. Your Aunt Bobbie and Auntie Moonbeam and mom will be their earthly rememberers. OK?

I love you, my doggie. Did you see I took your picture with me to India? The one with you covered up by that blue and white blanket with just your head sticking out. I met a special dog there. His name is "Aloo" which means "potato" in the language the people speak in India. Someday soon, I'll write and tell you how important it is to have a name and how many animal here on earth don't, especially in poor countries where there isn't even enough for PEOPLE to eat. But "Aloo" has a name and so he's safe.

Have a good night, Gretski. I hope Aunt Bobbie doesn't mind me hijacking her site to write to you. (I know she doesn't.)

Someday I'll get to pet your velvet ears again, Babyface. Please watch over us until then. Night-night, doggie.

XOXO
Mom

[Bobbie]

Oh my Trevor,

Your Aunts are at it again.....helping your mommy by saying such nice, wonderful and true things about you and me. I am so blessed having them in my life (and your life, too). Aunt Jeanne's idea was even better: keep adding to the unremembered animals and soon everyone will be remembered, never to be forgotten again.

Would you mind looking for a (fat) cat named Samson up there? He was the companion of a friend of mine named Courtney. She had to put him to sleep today because they discovered cancer (he was an older cat) and she feels so badly. She was the lady tat came to your funeral service with the little girl. Oh! and you can look for Ditto her Dalmation and Simba her other cat. Thanks so much, my honey bun.

I wish everyone could have known you while you were still with me. Words just simply fail me when I try to describe not only you, but our relationship and how deep and good it (was) is. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving Day and I am so very thankful that you blessed 790 days of my life. My dearest Trevor, thank YOU for loving me despite your pain and what I had to do some times in the beginning before I knew how much you suffered every day. You are the best creature that has come into my life. And thank you for staying on after you left this earth.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Happy Thanksgiving Trevor!

I have so many things to be grateful/thankful for when it comes to you, little one. I am so grateful that Rudy and God steered me in your direction and that CSAC "embellished" your history as much as they did. I am grateful that you allowed me to love you and care for you every day of the life we spent together. I am grateful that you remembered how to wag your tail a few times when you were so happy to see us. Thank you for biting me at the Emergency Vet's when that stupid tech grabbed you from behind after I TOLD him NOT to touch you. I'm glad that my arm was there for you and not some stranger's. Thank you for sleeping beside me every morning after breakfast. That has become my daily ritual forever. Thank you for trusting me enough to share your pain-filled moments with me, so that I could load you up with medicine to make you feel better. Still I was quite slow in getting you up to the dosages you needed. Thank you, Trevor, for showing daddy and me when "it was time" by Cheyne-Stokes breathing for so long one night. Mommy would have held onto you for a lot longer if you didn't give her a sign. Thank you for being such a gentleman-dog when the vet came to our house for the final time. Thank you for giving me the gifts of your perfect memories, your more perfect love, in fact, everything you had and were you gave to me. I will never forget that or you.

See? I do have so many things to be thankful for on this special holiday. Enjoy meeting your new friend tonight, cuddle close and tell him/her I'm thinking about him/her!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Hello my Trevor,

Well, today marks yet another bump in the journey until we are together again. You died 18 weeks ago today. It seems like absolutely forever and yet I can feel the pain as if it were today. I am so sorry that I could no longer make you feel OK on this earth and had to pass you onto God. I know that sounds very selfish, but I would love to wallow in your love and physical (healthy) presence just one more time (down here). Just like Antie Jeanne loves Rufus, so I love Dreamer, but it's just not the same and never will be. You gave me back more love than I ever gave you, especially at a time when it was so necessary. Trevor, I will love you simply forever, through all eternity. You can count on that.

Tomorrow daddy and I plan on going to the cemetery and taking down the Turkey day decoratons and putting up some really neat Christmas stuff. Unfortunately, this year your stocking will lie on the ground you are in. That makes me sad, sad, sad. But everyone will know that I love my Trevor through everythng. And I also love my Rudy, Biney, Jasper, Kelly, Crocker, Spot & Squirt.

Have fun with your cousin, Ms. Gretta, finding the unremembered for tonight and please, please tell them we DO remember them and WILL remember them always!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Hi Trevor!

I have a job for you: Hermy the Bunny recently arrived in Heave. Would you mind finding her and showing her around your place? You can also tell her that I am thinking of her, too. I know you will have the perfect words and thoughts for her.

I'll send more tonight! Thanks, honey!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Hermy's Mommy]

Hi Bobbie,

Thank you so much for your kindness. I have been reading your letters to your beloved Trevor. They are beautiful and so full of love! They make my eyes "leaky" too. I would like to say a big "Thank You!" to your darling Trevor for helping my little Hermy in Heaven. She's such a warm and outgoing bunny. I'm sure she's already playing with Trevor and giving him bunny hugs!

You and Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

Hermy's Mommy

[Bobbie]

Dear Trevor,

Isn't Hermy's mommy nice? Just as nice as Hermy is, right? I hope you are taking good care of her. Tonight maybe the 3 of you (Cousin Gretta, you and Hermy) and find some bunnies that are not remembered and snuggle up to them. Tell them that your mom, your Aunt Jeanne and Hermy's mommy are thinking about them tonight and for always. You group must be getting kind of big by now and that's just what I wanted. Hermy and I know, but Hermy's mommy doesn't know, how incredibly soft your fur is, too. Yours is the longest, but I'll bet Hermy likes to rub up against you. I sure did and your fur was as soft as baby down.

Did you see the Christmas decoration on your headstone? Did you like all the other decorations for your brothers? I have to work on the stockings, but they will be out there soon. It was such a beautiful day to put them up for you. I forgot the camera, but will take some pictures when the stockings are ready. I am trying to think of some non-dorkey way to hang them this year, instead of laying them on the ground where they get covered withsnow for weeks at a time and then get all muddy. I think I need allyou boy's (and girls') help.

Trevor, I still love you with a passion that only another animal-parent can know! I think I am going to have an eternal flame for you at our house, instead of just a few more days. Daddy fills out as many candles as I do, but he's scared to leave it lit when we are gone. I'm not, because I know you won't let anything happen to Dreamer or the house. Trevor you are the best littleboy doggie in the whole world! I hope you have a pleasant evening with all your family and friends, especially Hermy. I know you already have a girlfriend, but girl bunnies are nice, too.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Hello my sweetheart!

Today was a beautiful Sunday and, of course, I thought of you right away. You were so beautiful and your Spirit is even more beautiful. I know one is not supposed to call a male "beautiful", but that's exactly what you are - a beautiful, loving, precious, brave little man. I just cannot love you enough, Trevor. I try and every time I think I've done the best I can, there is more love to give you.

Tonight, please take Hermy along with you and Gretta to find some more non-remembered bunnies, doggies, kitties, ferrets, birdies, snakies or whomever needs the most hugs and snuggling and be sure to tell them about your mommies and how much they are remembering them, also. When we get together again, in heaven, we are going to take a lot of time meeting everyone aren't we? I will be sooooooooo glad.

Rest well, my love. I will think of you all during the night and day!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Hermy's Mommy]

Hi Bobbie,

I was thinking of you and Trevor today. I hope you had a good day with many happy thoughts of Trevor. I love that you call Trevor "beautiful" because he is, both inside and out! I think of Hermy throughout the day and night too. Sometimes with tears, sometimes with smiles, always with love!

Wishing you and Trevor and Hermy a peaceful night.

Hermy's Mommy

[Bobbie]

Hi Trevor,

Isn't Hermy's mommy just the nicest person? Today was her first day back to work and I know how that goes. She is a very brave person and I know that you and Hermy are sending all sorts of praise and good thoughts her way.

Today was the last of the nice days we're going to have here. I stopped by the cemetery and everythng still looks good. Did you see Dreamer with me? Every time I look at him I think of YOU and thank you from the bottom of my heart for sending him to me. He is showing me, every day, all the good things that you can do again and how good you are feeling once more. I wish that could have happened to you while you were still here on earth, but at least you are sooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy now. THAT is all that's important.

I'm very tired so am going to go off to bed now. Have fun with Gretta and Hermy finding non-remembered companions tonight and snuggling with them. You are so good at snuggling.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Dearest Trevor,

I see from the posts that there are a lot of newbies with you in Heaven. Their mommys and daddys and brothers and sisters are all so very sad right now. I know exactly how they feel and what they are going through.
When you passed on to Heaven and we had to physically part, I thought I might as well just die, too. The pain was incredible, shredding my heart and crushing my soul every second of every minute of every hour of every day. I didn't want to leave you at the cemetery, even though all your brothers were surrounding you on both sides and you were in the same gravesite with Jasper, another of our rescue doggies. I felt the pull to be as close to your body, and thus you, as I could possibly be. I visited you day and night, day after day after day. I didn't cry - I sobbed and sobbed until I was completely weak and worn out. Then I would rest and sob some more. I still have the bit of fur/hair that we took from your shaved arm and saved in a baggie. I know that is the closest I will be to your physical body while I am still alive. I've touched it so often that it looks pretty mangled and yet it is still so amazingly soft, just as YOU were. Remember when you would finally fall asleep at night and I would lie beside you and hold onto your paw? It was so very, very soft and I hope I was able to soothe some of your pain while you slept. You never seemed to mind if I held your paw and I never minded sleeping on the potty pads covering the floor.
We would cuddle on the living room floor, under that soft blue blanket that now envelopes your physical body forever. Sometimes you'd move to sleep in front of the powder room door. The pain medications helped you sleep all morning and most of the early afternoon. But I was never far from you while you slept.
I cannot believe that we have been physically apart for over 18 weeks already. It feels like you've been gone for so very long and yet it seems as if you just left a minute ago. I will tell you, and I know you already know this, that somehow, some way, time is helping me in ways I never thought anything could. Time has been a gentle healer for me. I've not done anything active, except cry and talk about you incessantly to everyone who will listen, but today the pain is not nearly as crushing as it was right after you passed. Somehow, I can tolerate the pain and it almost seems a bit comforting. I think, not only time, but a couple things I've heard or done have helped me, too. Auntie Jeanne wrote and sang a beautiful song for your funeral/burial and hearing it brings me right back to you. Dear, dear Cindy showed me how you sent Dreamer to me to reassure me that every single thing that Dreamer was doing (running, playing, barking, chasing a ball, etc) YOU were already doing all the time now. You weren't in pain any more, you were completely healed and happy. You were just waiting for me and helping me in ways I didn't realize. Now when I look at Dreamer, YOU pop right into my heart. I have your picture and/or love notes to you all over my house. Some are written on potty pads and hung on the walls. I sleep with your picture, wrapped in a piece of your blanket, right next to my heart, every single night. And I'm taking your picture with me when I go to Minnesota. I wear a locket with your hair inside, next to my heart. I was inspired by a fellow L-S'er who quotes a beautiful love poem "Old Dog in a Locket". When the locket jingles against the cross I also wear, I think of you immediately.
Even though I haven't seen you in my dreams or felt your Spirit/presence yet (if I ever do), I have slowly come to realize that YOU ARE WITH ME EVERY SECOND. You are in my heart, in my soul, in my mind, in my actions. You never left. Your form changed to a Spirit, but you never really left me. I put your physical body into the ground and someday mine will go in the ground, too. But then you and I will be together again, for all eternity. We will be happy and healthy together forever.

And so, Mr. Trevor, please welcome these new friends, take them into your circle with Gretta and Hermy and all the non-remembered friends you have made. Sunggle with them and help them with anything they need, which won't be much. And let their humans know that they are allright. They are with YOU!

I love you so very, very much, Trevor. Thank you for pouring all your love into my heart, even through your pain and suffering. Thank you for being my best friend and buddy. Thank you for teaching me your Life Rules. Most of all....................thank you for being you! I miss you all the time, honey bun, and think about you even more than that. Have a peace-filled night, my love.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

Hi Trevor!

Oh, so many new friends for you to show around Heaven! And so many sad, desolate moms and dads and borther and sisters, etc. I'm trying to help those I can and I know you and Gretta have everyone under your wings.

Thanks you, my wonderful little boy, for being everthing you were to me and daddy and Grandmom and Grandpop. This note, tonight, is going to be really short on words, but still infinite in love for you.

Have a starry, starry night, my love. You will be next to my heart in just a few moments!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!
XOXOMommyXOXO