I Love You, Trevor Options

[Gretta's Mom]

Sorry - I tried the best I could.

[Bobbie]

Dear Jeanne,

Please don't worry. It's not you, it's me.

XOXOXO
Bobbie

[Bobbie]

Good Morning, Trevor!

I love you more today than I did yesterday!!!! And don't you forget it! I'm coming by to visit today, too.

I miss you soooooooooo much. Thank you for sending Dreamer to constantly remind me of what you are now doing up in Heaven - running, jumping, barking, getting tummy rubs, scratching your own back, playing with toys, eating all the marrow bones you want and, well, just being Trevor.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOXOMommyXOXO

[Bobbie]

My dearest, darling, wonderful Trevor,

Today is the 12th week anniversary since you passed over the Rainbow Bridge into Heaven. It is also my birthday. Oh! How I wish we could celebrate together as we have the past two years. But that is not to be. I miss you so, so much my little hunky bunky. And I love YOU more and more every day. I don't know how that is possible, but this mother loves her little boy in Heaven like no one else can! You are my dream boy and my teacher. I try to follow the "rules" I learned from you, but you were so perfect and I am so human that there are many time's I'm not very good.

I will always remember you, my sweetness and love. I showed your picture and told your story to Diana, my former groomer and now she loved you, too. (Although her favorite was always Rudy.)

I'll get back to you tonight, my love. Have a good day playing with all your new relatives and friends!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!!!

XOMommyXO

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear Bobbie....Thank you for sharing your letters to Trevor with us. As we all know Angel-versaries are hard and especially with today being your birthday. Trevor will be looking down on you today and saying "Happy Birthday Mom, you are the best!" He just might gather all his friends and relatives together and have a birthday party for mom.

My birthday is this month too and Mickey will be gone 8 months by then. I have those leaky eyes today and I'm not sure if I'll ever feel any better.

Bobbie, I think of you and Trevor every day. You and Trevor are very special. I hope you have a peaceful day. Prayers are always said for you. God Bless..

Hugs,

LoveMyMickey

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, adding my thanks to LoveMyMickey's for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's angel-versary with us. As LoveMyMickey mentioned, your beloved Trevor IS sharing your birthday - - celebrating it with a HEALTHY body this time - - dancing and leaping for joy that you are his Forever Mom. I hope this image will bring a warmth to your heart, Bobbie - - close your eyes and let your mind envision the BOTH OF YOU dancing and leaping for joy!!!

I hope today is being kind to you, my friend, and I hope you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit, and all of your boys, to comfort you and cheer you. Your precious Dreamer is also there for you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and always look forward to sharing with you how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Gretta's Mom]

Gretta and Trevor (to all the thousands of doggies and kitties and bunnies and birdies and ferrets and fishies and all the other animals in the Perfect World):

"OK, all together now ......

Happy birthday to you ...... cut, cut, cut, It's not birfday, it's birTHday"

"OK, take two ....

"Happy birthday to you (whew!)
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you ............ cut, cut, cut. On the third line you say 'Happy birthday dear ______ mommie" and then the next line goes back to 'Happy birthday to you.'

"Got it? OK, now ..... take three"

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Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear Spot and Squirt and Crocker and Birney and Kelley and Rudy and Trevor ('heh, heh, that's me) and now Dreamer's mommy
Happy birthday to you!"

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"Wow that was great! I'll bet she can hear it with her earthly ears."

"And now .......... dive into that GIANT cake!"

[Bobbie]

Dear, sweet Trevor.

Yes, you are still the love of my life and always will be. I miss you more and more and I wonder if you will ever tire of hearing that. I love, love, love you more each day, too. I hope you had a wonderful day with all your friends and family, or was it a more peaceful kind of day?

The leaves are falling fast and furious on your grave, covvering your Beanie Babies, but I cleared everything off today. The dogs are always there for you.

I just wanted to check in with you, my love, and reassure you of my total commitment to you and your memory.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOXOMommyXOXO

PS: thank you for that wonderful birthday message! XOXO

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing and your heart-filled letter ot your beloved Trevor. I have been wondering how his beanie babies have been doing. I'm so glad they are there to offer him comfort and cheer when you cannot physically be there - - for they are extension of your love which he eternally feels wrapped around his heart and soul and spirit wherever you are and whatever you're doing.

The leaves are falling, snow has already begun in the westerns mountains, - - the change of seasons always bring to mind memories of events that have happened during those seasons in our lives. As you remember your beloved Trevor and all of your boys, plesae know they, too, are remembering those same events and are smiling with joy that they shared them with you - - their Forever Mom.

I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Dreamer. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I always look forward to sharing with you how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

TREVOR, I miss you soooooooooooooooo much tonight. You were the bravest little dog that ever lived and I love you more than words can express. Sleep well, tonight, my love. I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!









XOXOMommyXOXO

[Gretta's Mom]

Hi Bobbie

I miss him, too.

Trevor, you aunt Jeanne is having some cold feet about a long trip coming up. Could you send me a teeny tiny bit of your bravery, please? Thank you, you wondeful doggie.

AJ

[Bobbie]

Dear, dear Trevor,

You are the love of my life and the joy of my soul.......and you always will be. I missed you especially today while taking Dreamer for his last night walk. You just popped into my heart and, while I was glad you were there, I was so sad that we couldn't be physically together.

I hope you don't mind that I'm not getting out to see you every day right now. So many tings seem to need to get done at home, and with all the training and desensitizing, etc. that Dreamer needs every day, I run out of time so quickly. But you are NEVER out of my mind, heart or soul. I see you everywhere I go. I'll stop by tomorrow. Watch.........it will rain!

Jeanne says she needs some of your courage and bravery for her upcoming trip across the world. Can you believe it? And this time she's going by herself! So round up everyone you can think of (LoveMyMickey says "count me in") and figure out whowill take what shifts to watch her for a whole month! If anyone can do it....YOU can.

Good night, sweet darling. Mom loves you so very, very much!

XOXOMommyXOXO

[Gretta's Mom]

Thanks SO SO SO much, Bobbie and trevor!

[Bobbie]

Hello My Love!

I made it out to see you and the boys in all that rain today! The falling leaves look like such a beautiful, soft blanket to you. I miss you, honey. Every morning when we used to take our naps, Dreamer jumps up on the couch and dozes there. I'm all by myself, remembering how we would share the blanket and sleep and sleep. I would get up after awhile and you got to keep sleeping which you rightly deserved.

You are such a good boy and I keep falling in love with you more every day. I hope that never stops until I burst or we are together again.

I love you! I love you! I LOVE you!

Have a good night's sleep and pleasant dreams, my hunky bunky!

XOXOMommyXOXO

[Gretta's Mom]

Trevor - Aunt Jeanne loves and misses you, too.

[Bobbie]

Hi Trevor Forever,

Today marks 13 weeks (1/4 of a year) since we had to part ways. You went over the Rainbow Bridge to Heaven and I had to stay back here on earth. I cannot comprehend how many weeks have passed (and how quickly Firdays come around) because it seems that you died just yesterday. I walk over the place in the dining room where you went to your final physical sleep and picture you lying there, so still and so quiet, so lovely and so sweet. I say a little prayer and know that spot is forever sacred in our house (as are all the other spots where your previous brothers passed up to Heaven).

Oh, my little Trevor, I don't seem to cry as much as I used to. I don't know if that is a change in my meds or my temporarily running out of tears. But my heart aches for you every day and my soul is still crushed. You were a gift straight from God and Rudy. I knew that, but I wish I had expressed my love and gratitude for you more often when you were still with me. You were just like your previous brothers....if mom gave you "too much" attention at that particular moment, you simply got up and walked away! Every one of you did that - guess I didn't take those hints seriously enough. Dreamer hasn't started doing that yet because I think he's too young and still in the Honeymoon phase.

Trevor, when I am playing with Dreamer or taking him for his walk in the school yard or just petting him some times, I feel so very badly that you were not able to enjoy those things with me. You were able to go on walks for that first year and part of the second and I will treasure them forever - stopping to smell every single blade of grass and being scard by a couple of big old pine cones on the sidewalk. I don't take Creamer on the same route because that was "OUR" route. By the time you made it to our home, YOUR home, your brain damage was so bad that you'd forgotten how to "play" at all. How sad for you. But perhaps forgetting is better than knowing and not being able to do it.

I found two of my tee shirts that you used to nibble (very gently) on when you first came to live here and it was time to go to bed. I put a shirt up to the light and all the tiny holes look like shing stars and I remember that time so well. You were always gentle with our things (you used to like to nibble - never tear -the comforter, too. It's still there. Except when the pain got more terrible than the pain meds could control. Oh, how I wish I had that magic wand that instantly takes the pain away and lets you rest. But all I could do was give you more and more pills in little meatballs and wait for their combined action to send you to sleep. You didn't know it, but once the meds rendered you almost unconscious (re: deep sleep), I would lie down next to you on the floor, hold you little paw in my hand and just watch you by the hour, trying to burn your peaceful image into my brain and my memory. I was also sending love "beams" to you so that, when you woke up, you would not be scared or in any pain. I was your mom. I wanted to do this for you, even though I hated the reason behind everything. I NEVER hated you or anything I did for you. I would do it over again in a heartbeat if God asked me to.

Oh, my Trevor boy, I miss you with a pain that never ceases, memories that I hope to keep forever and I cannot wait for the day that we are reunited forever. YOU ARE MY HERO! I LOVE YOU SO VERY, VERY MUCH!

Have a peaceful night, my honey! (unless Friday is party night)

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXO your leaky eyed Mommy XOXO

[Bobbie]

I apologize for my many typo's!!!!!!!

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us your heart-filled love letter to your beloved Trevor with us.

"Oh, my little Trevor, I don't seem to cry as much as I used to. I don't know if that is a change in my meds or my temporarily running out of tears. But my heart aches for you every day and my soul is still crushed. You were a gift straight from God and Rudy."

Bobbie, this is a natural transition in your deep grief journey, and it is a healthy transition. Does this mean your tears are gone forever? No. As your deep grief contniues to ease the deep ache in your heart will also ease, and this, too, is healthy. But there will still be times when you will think of your beloved Trevor and your heart will feel the brokenness of not having his sweet physical presence with you, and your tears may flow again. But each time, my friend, the depth of brokenness will not be quite so painful, and this is healthy, too - - because each time your grief is washed away so that it can be replaced with the warmth of your cherished memories and your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit. And this is what your beloved Trevor wants for you - - and with you - - my friend. I promise you, Bobbie, your beloved Trevor, as with all your beloved boys, are forever a part of you - - they are always a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you and precious Dreamer kindly, my friend. I hope your sister Jeanne's travels are safe, uneventful, and pleasant. Please know you and your precious Dreamer are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and that I look forward to sharing with you how you both are doing, and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor, and all your beloved furkids.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Good Morning my Honey Bun!

It's 5:30 in the morning. WE remember times togetther at this hour don't we? I just wanted to tell you that I love you more than ever before!

I am grateful that God and Rudy arranged (with some resistance from a Rescue group here on earth who shall remain unnamed at this time) for us to meet and fall in love with each other right away. Actually, I think you fell in love with the brand of hot dog and cheeses we were giving you, but it doesn't matter because you were loved from the FIRST moment I saw you and then you came to live with us the very next week! No one will ever match up to you and I'm not even going to try. But Dreamer does have some buff color in his feet so I know a part of you is with him (and us) all the time.

Thank you for being the most loving, thankful dog on earth. You gave my heart and soul the love and tenderness it truly needed and I hope I did the same for you.

Have a GREAT day in Heaven today! I hope you get to eat to your tummy's content, nap in the warmth of the sun, play with your brothers and friends and look down on your mama once in awhile.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

XOXOMommyXOXO

[Gretta's Mom]

Oh, Bobbie

If only someone or something could give your heart and soul the love and tenderness it so needs and deserves, like Trevor did and does. You SO deserve it. I'd move heaven and earth if only I could. You're treasured for who you are. Your heart is precious to me. Even though we're separated in space (and I'm not furry and cuddly - and sometimes I forget about love and fly off at the selfish handle), my heart is always with you.

XOXO

Your sister