Cat With Scc - Hard Decisions, Confusing Feelings Options

[bagel]

Once again thank you all for your gentle understanding and compassion.

I just signed up to volunteer at my neighborhood cat shelter. Showing some love to lonely kitties might help me feel like I'm doing something to honor Peaches, and maybe one day the right kitten will tug at my heart and come home with me.

[moon_beam]

Hi, bagel, the very best to you as you embark on this new journey volunteering at your neighborhood cat shelter. I hope and pray you will find comfort as you help the homeless waifs know love while they are patiently waiting for a loving home of their very own.

Bagel, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[bagel]

It's been a week since I gave my little lady up. Some days I feel ok, but I miss her the most at night -- she usually slept with me, often curled up at my feet or in the crook of my knees. It's also at night that I think back to our last hour together, how I waited anxiously at the vet, how I snuggled her after the vet gave her a sedation injection, how she relaxed in my arms and buried her head in my elbow, and how I kissed her when the vet wrapped her little body in a blanket and took her to give the final euthanasia. How anxious I felt, sitting in the examination room and waiting for the vet to come back and tell me she'd gone peacefully, and how lonely it was to go home without her and ache for just a few more hours with her.

I know I need to be thinking more about the good times, and the positive things about her life, but it's hard not to focus on my anguish in giving her up, or our final struggles in trying to help her eat and stop tearing out her fur.

I know I did the right thing at the right time, but it still felt so awful to do. I guess I was brought up with the idea that it's wrong to take a life, and although I know now that things aren't that simple, it's hard to reconcile the idea that I personally had to choose when, where and how to end the life of my dear companion.

Thanks for listening. It's nice to know there's a place I can come and share my thoughts where people will understand and offer kindness.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bagel, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. The evenings are harder because the "busyness" of the day is done and we are confronted with the deep void of not having our beloved companion's physical presence with us to share the day's activities, to help calm the nerves, to revel in the closeness of their sweet physical bodies next to ours. Sadly, this is a part of this grief adjustment journey, bagel, and it is very painful - - both emotionally and physically.

Bagel, euthanasia is the last gift of love we can give to our beloved companions - - at great sacrifice to ourselves - - so that they can be released from their failing, painful physical bodies and restored to their former youthfulness in the company of the angels. I do so understand your feelings when you say, ". . . it's hard to reconcile the idea that I personally had to choose when, where and how to end the life of my dear companion." I, too, struggled with this concept when I was much younger. But there really is no greater love we can give to our beloved companions when they are so very tired and their precious physical bodies need to be released from their pain and suffering. Each beloved companion that I have had to help ease their journey home to the angels has been an agonizing decision. But I made them a promise when we united our lives together that I would try my very best to never let them suffer, particularly when it was beyond all shadow of a doubt that I needed to ease their journey heavenward.

So, bagel, please let your mind and heart be at peace about your precious Peaches. Like each of our beloved companions, your precious Peaches would stay with you forever. Unfortunately, her sweet physical body was not designed for immortality on this side of eternity. So for her to be with you forever, bagel, your precious Peaches needed to be released from her physical body, and it is through your enduring love for her - - and for each other - - that she is now forever with you in your heart and your memories - - her sweet Living Spirit is forever with you - - always a heartbeat close to you.

Bagel, I hope what I have shared with you will be of some comfort to you. I hope today is being kind to you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[bagel]

Hi all. Thought I'd stop by and give an update. For those of you who are just now losing your pets, my deepest sympathies. Please know that the hurt does get more manageable with time, and you will love again.

I still miss my baby girl every day, but now I'm more able to think about the good times over her long life and not focus on the pain of her illness and death. I've started volunteering at the local cat shelter to give back a little bit of the love that Peaches gave me, to make sure it keeps circulating in the world. I've also welcomed a new little companion into my home. This little gentleman was abandoned by his mother (or perhaps she was killed), and was rescued by a friend of mine who took great care of him but couldn't give him a permanent home. I fell in love and haven't looked back!

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[moon_beam]

Hi, bagel, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Congratulations on your new lifetime companion!!! He is adorable!!! And please know that your precious Peaches is so very happy you have a new love in your life - - a new beginning. In fact, your precious Peaches knew this precious little life needed the love and care that only you - - her mom - - could give to him. So, gently, lovingly, from her heavenly home she coordinated your paths to the moment and day the both of you would meet.

Bagel, thank you again so very much for sharing with us how you're doing, and this wonderful news. May you and your precious new little furchild have a long, happy, and healthy journey together. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, bagel, and look forward to knowing how you and your new companion are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam