I've Lost My Beautiful Girl, My sweet Golden Retriever, Peggy is gone Options

[Peggy's Human]

Hi Moon_Beam,

How did I know that if anyone on this site would understand, it would be you? When I see a new critter, I actually do thank her because I've come to believe that she's the one directing them into my space and directing me to be at a location to see them. For me, it is healing to be blessed with wildlife coming within eye-shot so I can sit/stand and watch for a few moments. Even in the most hectic of times, it allows me to have a 'zen moment' and just be in that moment of time and enjoy what I'm fortunate enough to share in.

Thank you so much for your continued support. It's comfoting to know that others understand my pain and have already walked that path and emerged on the other side.

I wish you and Noah a peacefull and joy-filled week.

Taike care,

Peggy

[Peggy's Human]

Dear Peggy's Human,

Please accept my sincere condolences and the loss of your precious girl. What a beautiful golden! I'm so glad you were able to be with her in her final hour. And understand how much you miss her this spring.

With peace and healing thoughts,
Juturna

Hi Juturna,

Thank you for your support and please accept my condolences on the loss of your beautiful Victoria. I wish you much joy and success in your search for a new family member. I'll keep checking your postings so I can watch as things progress for you.

Take care,

Peggy

[moon_beam]

Hi, Peggy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Well sometimes with age comes the benefit of some wisdom, and not just wisdom of the mind but equally important wisdom of the heart. If I have been fortunate enough to acquire anything of value through my experiences that is truly beneficial, I am deeply honored to be able to share whatever "wisdom" or "understanding" I have gained along the path of this life that is of comfort and encouragement to you.

I hope life is treating you kindly today, Peggy, and that your week will be filled with moments of peace and tranquility - -feeling your precious Peggy close to you, beside you, sharing your days just as she always has and always will, and helping you to see the beauty in your world through the woodland friends she brings to you to enjoy. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Peggy's Human]

Hi, Peggy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Well sometimes with age comes the benefit of some wisdom, and not just wisdom of the mind but equally important wisdom of the heart. If I have been fortunate enough to acquire anything of value through my experiences that is truly beneficial, I am deeply honored to be able to share whatever "wisdom" or "understanding" I have gained along the path of this life that is of comfort and encouragement to you.

I hope life is treating you kindly today, Peggy, and that your week will be filled with moments of peace and tranquility - -feeling your precious Peggy close to you, beside you, sharing your days just as she always has and always will, and helping you to see the beauty in your world through the woodland friends she brings to you to enjoy. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and will look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Hi Moon_Beam

You have been a enormous help with your kind words and wisdom. I posted a reply to Bobbie tonight and told her I consider you my cyber-Oracle of pets. Your willingness to share your sage advice and your encouragement to find the positive in difficult situations is a God send. You are a very special person and I'm honored to have you as my cyber-friend. I thank you for all your time and help in getting me through the loss of Peggy.

I haven't really been feeling her around but I hung up from a work call this evening and headed into the kitchen, so I could see if the duck was in the pool (we've had a single male hanging out here, trying to steal the female from the other male, when they're here). When I got to the door, I saw the Mallard and then looked over to the yard, where my shed is. I noticed a dark bulky shape there, which I couldn't idenitfy. It was getting dark out and the shape was darker than the trees in that area, but about as dark as the trees down on my other property. however, a shape that dark was not what I expected to see in that location so I focused on it for a minute, trying to figure out if it was a tree I just hadn't noticed previously or if it could be a deer (didn't have a deer shape). I kept looking and finally realized, it WAS a deer. She was facing down the slope, her head was turned to look at me and she was partially obscured by a tree (with which she blended almost perfectly) but it was a deer! I stayed frozen in the doorway and all of a sudden, another deer that had been obscured by the top of my wishing well at the edge of the pool area, came bounding into site. Holy Cow!! What a gift to see two of them again, and eating my backyard grass (although I worry about the other 5 that were part of the herd last Fall). So I have to say that Peggy must be around but I'm not 'feeling her presence'. I really wish I could have a 'visit' like you hear some others speak of. I miss her so much.

Thank you for listening, once again.

I hope you and Noah have a relaxing evening of fellowship and a restful night. As always, you have my love and thanks and you will be in my prayers (with me thanking God for putting you in my path in time to help me on this journey).

Peggy

[Juturna]

Hi Peggy,

How beautiful that you have a duck and deer on your grounds. Your precious Peggy girl is definately present. She is letting you know her presence through the other creatures. I'm so glad you are able to enjoy them. And I believe in time you will feel your girl, as well. The closeness you had with her is still very alive in your heart. Her spirit is present.

Please know that you are in my thoughts. Wishing you a serene night.

With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

[moon_beam]

Hi, Peggy, just being able to get caught up on your post, and wish to thank you for your most kind and thoughtful words. How wonderful you saw the deer, and I am smiling about your account of the ducks.

It is always a blessing when we can feel our precious companions presence with us. But, for whatever this may be worth, I firmly believe our beloved companions are also with us in the "silence". The presence of their sweet Living Spirit may not always be with us on a conscious level, but I assure you they are always with us sharing our lives just as they always have and always will. And regardless of how much time passes in our earthly journey, they are forever in our hearts and our memories. Nothing can ever take this away from us, Peggy, I promise you this.

Peggy, I hope you and your mom are having a peaceful day, and that your evening will be blessed with your precious Peggy letting you know she is with you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear Peggy's Human,

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Peggy. I just now saw her beautiful picture.

I also love the wild animals. Back in January we had lots of snow and ice. A black cat came on our carport looking for food. I put some of Mickey's dry food out on the carport. He ran away, but came back and ate. Later I bought cat food to put out. Every so often I would look out the door window and there would be a different cat each time, all different colors. So over a period of time, one at a time, comes by to eat. I don't know if they are strays or if their owner just turns them out. They like our food anyway.

Now the funny part, I looked out late one night and there was a opposum eating. After he left I saw a raccoon eating. He saw me through the storm door, so he moved back a little and sat down. He looked up at me so cute and was determined not to leave. Another night I looked out and the opposum and one of the cats were eating together. That really surprised me.....We gave all those animals a name.

We also have lots of squirrels, and different kinds of birds we feed out back. We have one chipmunk. One robin is pretty tame. We smash up a hard doggie treat on the patio and the robin comes up real close to us to eat.

Mickey always liked the animals. He saw one of the cats one day through the door, he barked a little, and wagged his tail.

God Bless all the animals!

[Bobbie]

My Dear Peggy (both of you),

Tonight is an anniversary I'm sure you both wish didn't have to be. I am so very sorry that you are separated in this physical world. But I firmly believe you are still very much connected in the spiritual world that can never be divided. And, although you may not "feel" Miss Pegasus' presence, she is definitely close to you in a way that will never have to end. You have a buddy who is free of the many physical (and mortal) limitations that cause us all (human and animal) to gradually slow down and lie down for eternal rest. But it is in THAT rest that Peggy is pain free, running and jumping, playing and smiling, making things "just right" for YOU!

I will be thinking of you and praying for you tonight.

Sleep well, my friends.

Bobbie

[Peggy's Human]

Dear Juturna, Moon_Beam, LoveMyMickey and Bobbie,

Thank you so much for your support and for being so willing to share your kind, compassionate hearts. I promise I will circle back and reply to your very thoughtful messages later. Unfortunately, it's been something of a challenging day and as we draw closer to the exact time that will mark the 8 week anniversary (1:20 am), it's getting more, well painful. I seem to have taken a big step back. I can't seem to stop the tears, even as I write this. Is this normal? Last week I thought I was finally getting through the worst of the intense pain but today, even thinking of Peggy starts the water works and I can't seem to stop it. Thank God Mom went upstairs to lie down while watching the Red Sox - poor thing came down with Shingles 3 weeks after Peggy passed and is still recovering. We think it's from the stress of loosing her and I know Mom was crying a lot, every day. I suspect she's trying to hide her pain today since we have found that if one of us starts crying, the other does as well. At this point, instead of lifting each other up, we seem more capable of pulling the other back into this quagmire of pain. We miss Peggy so terribly. I can't believe she's been gone so long. Where has the time gone??? When she passed, I couldn't imagine life without her. I kept thinking, 'I'm lost without her, how do I go on?" Now, it's been 8 weeks since this nightmare began and somehow, life has gone on but the joy is gone. I know I'm not making any sense but somehow, it is helping by writing this however it wants to come out. Thank you all for being so kind and indulgent when I have one of my tangents. I wish I could figure out the secret to letting the pain go so I can focus on the joy she brought. I know our emotional state would depress her, especially if she realized her absence was the cause but in spite of way too much experience with loosing loved ones (human and animal), I don't seem to be capable of letting go of the pain this time. Please bear with me, I'm hoping I can 'get a grip' and move myself forward again in a couple of days.

To my beautiful, sweet girl:

My happy girl with the beautiful smile
You brought joy to our lives
For too short a while
You lifted our spirits
When we were down
You accepted our faults
No judgment, no frown
Your spirit would soar
When you were at play
Happily showing off
At the end of each day
Your passion for food
Was a secret to none
You’d find hidden treats
And thought it was fun
While hugging your teddy
And rolling around
Fall asleep on your back
Exposed belly so round
At the end of the day
Snuggled up in my bed
Your sigh so contented
While I stroked your sweet head
You completed our hearts
You are so dearly missed
Our sweet Golden Girl
We send you a kiss

Lots of Love,

Peggy The Human

To all - the picture I attached was taken during an early phase of construction on my rehab house, which is why the mess around her looks like an episode from Cops. I swear it was very short term and my sweet dog (and Mom and I) did/do not live in a pigstye. And for the record, she was sound asleep in that picture! The second pic is Peggy sharing some quality time with a close family friend - they adored each other.

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[Juturna]

Dear Peggy's Human,

Anniversaries are difficult and can bring the pain to the surface. What you are going through emotionally is perfectly natural. The tears can be present even 6 months later, especially at an anniversary time. Please be gentle and patient with yourself as the tears are washing away the intense pain. Crying serves a purpose. It also allows more room inside you for Peggy's gentle spirit to connect to your heart.

The joy in life, of course, feels absent right now. I totally relate to how you are feeling with that. Please trust that somewhere down the road of this grief journey, it will return.

Your poem to your precious Peggy is beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with us.

Hope you have a peaceful night.
With peace and healing thoughts,
Juturna

[moon_beam]

Hi, Peggy, as Juturna has so eloquently and compasstionately shared with you, the "angel-versaries" are very difficult, particularly during the deep grief. This "adjustment" journey is a one day at a time journey - - and just when we think we're through the worst part, we find ourselves brought to our knees as though it were the first minute, the first hour, the first day since our beloved companions joined the angels.

What you and your mom are going through is perfectly normal, Peggy, although it is very painful - - both emotionally and physically. The ache that is in your heart to hear her, to feel her, to touch her, to see her will eventually ease - - because you will be holding her, feeling her, hearing her, and seeing her in your heart - - where she always is and always will be regardless of how much time passes between now and when it is your appropriate time to join her in eternal joy.

So how do you find "joy" now while you're adjusting to the physical absence of the light of your life? When we lose a beloved companion it's like our life shifts into what I call "automatic pilot." Things get done - - we go through the motions - - but our minds and our bodies are functioning on sheer will - - because our hearts are in a state of shock, mourning, grieving the deepest sorrow we will know on this side of eternity. This shock is our natural defenses to protect our minds and bodies from being so overwhelmingly consumed with grief, although it doesn't feel that way. As the shock subsides, we begin to process more of the "reality" of what has happened, and another phase of mourning begins. And so it continues - - step by step - - one day at a time - - until our hearts can once again think of our beloved companions with happiness instead of with the deep emotional pain of brokenness and emptiness.

One of the many important things for you to remember is to that we are here for you each and every step of your journey, Peggy. There is no need for a "public face" here - - you are among friends here who truly do understand what you're feeling. And you must allow yourself the opportrunity to grieve openly - - let the tears flow, my friend, for they are healing tears. And I hope that as your heart releases the deepest sorrow you are feeling, you will also feel the comfort that is reaching out to you across the cyber miles to be with you, to offer you a hand to hold on tightly to, to offer you a shoulder of comfort to bury your deepest sorrow into for as long and as often as you need it.

I am so sorry about your mom having the shingles. For different reasons my mom contracted shingles on the left side of her face, and it was very uncomfortable for her for awhile. I hope your mom's recovery is complete with no residual side effects.

Peggy, thank you so much for sharing with us your wonderful pictures of your beautiful Peggy. Please know you and your mom are in my thoughts and prayers, and am here for you to share with you how you're doing whenever possible

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear Peggy,

The pictures are beautiful and so is your poem. All I can say is that my tears are flowing with yours.

May God Bless and Comfort You. (((((HUGS)))))

[Peggy's Human]

Dear Moon_Beam, LoveMyMickey, Bobbie and Juturna,

Thank you so much for all your support and kind compassion over the past couple of months. I don't know what I would have done without all of you. You've been a true lifeline for me. What is it about anniversary dates?? I go through phases where I seem to be doing better and then it seems to start all over again. I can feel the tears, just in back of my eyes, wanting to fall. It's 3 in the morning, I worked 15 hours on Thursday and couldn't sleep so I spent the past few hours on the site. I need to be back working in about 5 hours but still don't think I'll be able to sleep. Why am I so hyper-aware that today marks 11 weeks without my beautiful Peggy????? It's not like 11 weeks is some magical number. From what I've been reading on this site, it seems like actual milestones are triggers, not flippin random numbers. But all day, I had to force myself to think of other things because all I want to think about is her. Mom and I spent some time talking about her earlier and it was hard, but we both managed to hold back the tears. There were some long periods of silence while we struggled but we managed to not break down crying this time. That seems to be progress but here I am, coming up on 3:15 am and not able to sleep. It's like it was in the beginning when we first lost her, when I wasn't able to sleep for several days. I just miss her so much.

I was watching Mr. Tom Turkey and his wives, as well as the ducks the past couple of days, thinking how none of them would be hanging out here if my sweet little bird dog were alive - although she'd be thrilled they were here. I think I mentioned previously, Peggy thought birds and deer were the most fascinating creatures in the world. Once, down the Cape, she almost swam out to sea while watching and following a seagull that kept flying above her. I swear, the gull knew what it was doing because he kept circling back, directly over her and would then head straight out to sea. Peggy was oblivious to the fact that she was actually getting pretty far out in Cape Cod Bay. I was on the shore yelling for her to come back but it was one of the few times she didn't respond immediately. It was like she was in a daze. She scared the life out of me that day. I thought I was going to lose her to the ocean or a shark or something bad (granted, the Great Whites that were around that year were mostly spotted off the other side of the Cape but we were right at the C&%^ and there's no rule that says the sharks can't swim through the C&%^ to get to Cape Cod Bay - especially if there's a tasty Golden Retriever waiting for them!). As much as I love having the wildlife in the yard, I'd much rather have my best friend and doggie soul mate back.

Okay, I thought that writing would help but it's actually making me start to cry so I think it's enough. It just occurred to me, I had to send part of my deposit to the owner of the house I'm renting down the Cape this summer - actually, we'll be at a new house in Plymouth, a little further up the coast than usual, and my first thought when I found it was 'Peggy's gonna LOVE this place' - and she fell ill and passed about 10 days after I reserved it. This will be the first year down there without Peggy being with us - and every year I specifically rent a house that allows dogs. It wasn't vacation if she couldn't be with us. Maybe that's what's triggering this episode?? I don't know but I seem to be babbling again.....

Again, thank you all for your support and I hope you're all doing well.

Love you all!

Peggy

P.S. I've come back to add some pics of her down the Cape. The first 2 are her down the Cape, the last one is her and Mom sharing some love down the Cape (Mom would kill me for posting but it's a sweet pic and you can see they're in love). The third one was when I took her by surprise in my bedroom, wanted a candid shot which is why she has that kind of 'huh' look on her face and the next to last one is when she was visiting my brother Scott and his girlfriend, Ida. Ida doesn't look too comfortable but she said she was and that petting Peggy was helping her to relax. As you can see, Peggy's in a transce and is trying to figure out how to keep Ida petting her if she lies down. LOL

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[madi]

Your story is very sad and your photos are just beautiful. I think Peggy was a very lucky dog to have you, your mum and your son in her life, she was obviously so loved and cared for, it shows in her face. Please accept my deepest sympathy for your loss, I know how it feels to lose such a soul mate. Take care xx

Madi xx

[sunshineboy]

Seven weeks ago today, the most gentle, loving soul I've ever met suddenly passed from this world. Dealing with her absence has not gotten easier with the passing of time. Only the ability to control the tears has gotten easier, as long as I don't talk about her. I try to only think about her when I'm alone so the tears can flow in private. The demands of work have kept me working 15 - 18 hours a day, 7 days a week and quite a it of business travel thrown in for good measure. Even all that has not been enough to help push the pain aside.

When I look outside, I wish she were here to enjoy the Spring. She was always running around me in circles, with a big smile on her face and in her eyes, expressing sheer joy at being alive when I'd take her out to work in the yard. She was so funny. I'd pick up tree limbs that had fallen over the winter and drag them over to my undeveloped propety. Peggy would follow me and try to drag them back to the house, while I went to get another limb. I never did figure out how to teach her to drag them OFF the house property and not onto it. This year my property has turned into animal central. I have a mated pair of Mallard ducks coming to swim in the water that has collected on the pool cover and eat the food I've been scattering for them. They've been spending their days in my pool for the past few weeks. Peggy The Dog would have loved that. She found birds to be the most fascinating creatures in the world. For the past few days, I've had turkeys coming onto the back patio to get some of the food the other birds and squirrles feasted on all winter. One of them was a Tom and he's the first Tom I've seen here. The day I picked up her ashes, I saw 2 deer in my backyard right after I got home and was trying to stop crying. That was the first time I'd seen the deer since November. I had a racoon on my back deck one night a couple of weeks ago. I bought this house 6 years ago and this is the first time I've seen a racoon in the area. It sounds nuts but it's almost like she's getting an assortment of animals to come onto the property, when I can see and enjoy watching them.

There's a slope from my house property, down to the undeveloped property and the animals use that as a pass-through to get from one undeverloped area to another. I used to sit on the top of the slope and very quietly wait so I could watch the deer pass through at dusk and sometimes at the crack of dawn. It took some time for Peggy to figure out I didn't want to chase them, nor did I want her to chase or startle them. She would look at me like I just didn't get how to have fun but she did ultimately accept that we were just quietly sitting and not chasing. She'd always give me a funny look but she somehow understood that I was getting enjoyment from watcing them. With all the wildlife now showing up, it could be because her scent and presence isn't keeping them away but the timing of their appearance is startling. When I'm working from home, I walk into the bathroom and just as I get into the room and am facing the window, the ducks land in the pool (the window from that bathroom looks directly out to the pool). With the deer, I had walked into the kitchen to grab something and as I turned, a movement outside the kitchen window caught my eye. If the deer had been 3 feet over, in either direction, a tree would have blocked my view of them. If I had gone into the kitchen 1 minute later, they would have been gone. When I saw the racoon, I was headed to the basement with one of her beds and happened to look out the sliding door on my way by. The racoon only stayed for a few moments after I was there - and my presence didn't bother him. He looked at me and went back to eating some sunflower seeds. It's just strange coincidences with the animals and they do bring a smile to my face. I know it sounds nuts but it's almost like my 'dog on the other side' is trying to find ways to make me smile and lift me up a little. How crazy is that??

On a side-note, my excessive work hours have eaten up my time and prevented me from logging on to this site for several weeks. I feel guilty for not being available to help support those who were so generous with their time and compassion when I needed it most and if anyone reads this, I apologize for my failure to offer continued support in return. Hopefully with my work project having launched and now being up to speed, things will calm down and I can logon at least a few times each week and offer support to those going through the pain of illness and loss of their non-human family members.

To the site owners, thank you again for providing a place to express the overwhelming pain that comes from the loss of a beloved non-human family memeber.

Peggy (the human)

What a very pretty girl she was x

[moon_beam]

Hi, Peggy, as you're beginning to realize there is no "rhyme or reason" about this grief journey. As Cheryl has posted on her topic, "Just when I think I'm doing better" - - this is the nature of this grief journey - - something - - anything - - can be a trigger to a "rough patch" - -. And Peggy, please give yourself some slack because it hasn't even been 4 months yet. But even that doesn't matter - - because your heart will always have a place that doesn't feel quite "whole" or "complete" - - because your precious Peggy took that part of you with her so that she can have a part of you with her while she patiently waits for you to join her in eternal joy with the angels.

So please know we are here for you - - always - - regardless of how much time passes - -.

Thank you so much for sharing these wonderful pictures of your precious Peggy with us. I, too, would have been going insane watching her swim further away from me - - mesmerized by the gull. And I do understand how you feel when you say "As much as I love having the wildlife in the yard, I'd much rather have my best friend and doggie soul mate back."

Peggy, this year's vacation is going to be another major milestone "first" for you and your mom - - but - - hopefully you will feel your precious Peggy's sweet Living Spirit with you and you can close your eyes and see her on the beach and feel her sharing every moment with you just as she always has.

Peggy, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing, and once again for these wonderful pictures. I hope you will have a very peaceful evening and weekend, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear Peggy,

Just wanted to stop by to say hello and hope you and your Mom had a peaceful day. The pictures are beautiful. Your Peggy is such an elegant and beautiful dog.

You all remain in my thoughts and prayers......God Bless..

LoveMyMickey

[ConnieJ]

Dearest Peggy,

We both lost our soul babies within a few days of each other. We have both participated on other threads and both know our stories. I feel a real connection to you in that we are in exactly the same place...still grieving and it sucks and in the same timeline.

There are so many things involved in this process that the language cannot accommodate. There is this feeling of loss, of pain..aching... in the first couple weeks I felt it almost physically in my stomach...it wasn't quite physical but I felt a 'pain' centered just below my heart and above my navel. It would not cease. I hated it. I awoke to it and it took me to bed.

That 'pain' has finally ebbed. But now I'm finding I'm dealing with the "oh now its April and "I used to rake outside with Finn" or now it's May "now is when Finn would help me plant seeds in the garden" and June is coming I'll remember something that Finn did in June that will bring me to my knees in tears. and aug and sept and .....

That was my May. I was planting seeds while weeping and hoping my salty tears wouldn't hurt the germination.

I've been reading some posts that have lasted greater than one year (including moonbeam).

This looks to be a tough year for us both.

Your photos are so heartfilling. You can just see the personality and joy in her. I'm so sorry you had to lose her physical presence and her 'smile' and tail wag when she saw you and her pure contentment in her life with you to protect and love her. You can just see it in the photos. She was loved. It's a good thing to Love. I hope she visits you in a dream now and again. I've had that happen with my furbaby, and the quality of the dreams have made me wake up and smile surprisingly, not grieve. Before you go to bed some night, think about her..imagine her sleeping nearby and as you drift asleep, imagine you both awake in a shared dream. One more day to spend together.... silly..maybe...but why not?

[Cheryl83]

Hi Peggy,

Sorry I haven't posted here for a while. I've still been following your journey, but sometimes I just can't find the right words. However, I've realized now that even if I can't, I should still stop by and say hello and let you know that I'm thinking of you, and that I feel your pain. So, that's what I'm doing. I also want to reassure you that what you're going through right now, with the waves of deep grief, is perfectly normal. I want you to believe me when I promise you that it DOES get better. The hurt never goes away completely, but it becomes more manageable. The 'good' days will begin to outweigh the 'bad'. The memories will bring smiles and laughter and comfort rather than serving as a painful reminder that they are no longer here. Unfortunately, we can't rush through this process. It just takes time... and tears.

Peggy, the pictures of your precious doggy Peggy brought a huge smile to my face. Such a beautiful girl.... and her gentle spirit just radiates from those photographs. It must have been a true pleasure to share your life with her. And you can still continue to be proud of your gorgeous angel, for she is still so very present in your life, and always will be.

Take care,
Cheryl xx

[Michelle2]

Peggy,

I just read the heart-warming story you posted about your Peggy. It is such a moving tribute. Your love for Peggy is so evident. I am sorry you lost her so soon and unexpectedly. It seems she was surrounded by love when she was in your care. How lucky for her.

Michelle