How Do You Know When It's Time? Options

[Peggy's Human]

Hi Bobbie,

It's been a hectic day and time has gotten away from me so please accept my apology and forgive my not responding to you sooner - and for having to circle back tomorrow to answer your posts from today. You have been very much on my mind and I'm so glad Trevor had a good day today. And I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the new med works as hoped. You both will be in my prayers tonight, praying that you both have a restful, pain-free night.

God bless and I'll check back tomorrow to see how you're doing.

Peggy

[Peggy's Human]

Hi Bobbie,

What a sad story about your friend Peggy and I'm sorry you had to deal with such a wrenching loss at such a tender age. But what a marvelous perspective you have! I'm sure she is your angle and watches out for you every day. As you know, the only thing that survives this world or is even worth taking with us is our love and I'm sure you're one of the people at the top of Peggy's list to watch over!

I'm so glad that Trevor has been doing a little better the past couple of days. Hopefully you're in a rhythm with the pain management and things continue on this positive path. Keeping them comfortable lowers the stress level for all - and lets everyone find some time to truly rest and build up some reserves. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that the new med being added by the Dr will work its magic for Trevor.

I'm so happy to hear that your husband found work. It's been a scary economy and I can tell you first hand, in 2009, there were no jobs to be had - anywhere in the country. I've never seen the job market in such a state and as much as I was able to stay positive for my first 'down period' after being laid off from Fidelity, which was 7 months, the second layoff stressed me to no end. As time went by and no matter how much time I spent writing and re-writing resumes, connecting with every contact I ever made, cold calling companies to see if they would 'go to lunch so I could learn more about the culture of their company', etc, I wasn't able to turn things around. I slowly became terrified that I would never be able to find another job (and secretly felt that even Wal-Mart would feel I was under-qualified to be a Greeter in their store). It's amazing how not being able to find employment can destroy your self-esteem, even when you struggle against that feeling. I was responsible for housing and feeding Mom and Peggy (okay, Mom is here by choice and could take care of herself, but she's up there in age and shouldn't have to use what little she has just to survive). I sometimes joked that even if we had to live in a refrigerator box, under the SouthEast Expressway in Boston, we'd still be together. It's difficult to take care of the ones you love when life events don't appear to be working with you to make that happen! My mother and youngest brother pointed out to me that Peggy and I were blessed with that down-time. She hated when I had to leave the house for 14 - 16 hours to work and she was overjoyed that I was here every day for almost 2 years. What seemed to be a punnishment at the time, turned out to be a blessing. I never could have spent that kind of time with her if I were working. She and Mom were my solance and touch-stones through that very difficult period. My brother also pointed out that I seemed 'to be on the edge' several times and had she passed 3 months before she did (when I still wasn't working), it may have pushed me over that edge. Who knows? I know I was dealing with all I could handle (and then some) but her loss outweighs unemployment any day of the week. This past November, when I was re-hired by the company that picked me up after Fidelity laid me off, I was very lucky that they put me on a project that allowed me to work from home 2 or 3 days a week. I was working 7 days a week and about 16 hours a day trying to get up to speed on the new project but Peggy was always able to stay next to me when I was home. She would sometimes come over and gently rest her head on my leg, while looking up at my face, during those long hours of work. She seemed to understand that I couldn't bring her outside or play with her but she was content to just share the space and maybe get a little pat or kiss on the head and some kind words or a hug while I was working. She always smiled at me when I'd make eye contact with her. She was an amazingly accepting animal who was able to find contentment in any crumb that came her way. I miss her so much and I wish I had somehow made more of an effort to spend time focusing on her during that period. I kept telling her that we would go back to doing some fun 'Peggy time' stuff once I had the rhythm of the job. Unfortunately, just as that was approaching, her time on this earth ended. Ah, regrets. If we could only foresee the future, we'd have no regrets.

Bobbie, thank you for your kindness in allowing me to share my and Peggy's story. It helps so much to be able to tell things that made her special, things that I regret not doing better, circumstances we were both caught up in, etc. It just helps and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

You, Trevor, Jeanne and Gretta continue to be in my prayers (and Mom's too!).

Take care of yourself, Irish Girl! and please let me know how Trevor's doing!

Peggy

[Bobbie]

Hey Peggy,

Trevor's day was pretty good again. He actually got up around 8:00 am and we got downstairs right away. I started the amantadine today, but it's going to take some time to see any effects. Trevor is once again panting at night. It may be from the little bit of Prednisone he's on. That happened last time we tried prednisone.

I wanted to tell you that our niece (who is now 30 years old) went to EMERSON COLLEGE! And we went up to Boston for her graduation. Graduation was held in some large theatre. I cannot remember the name. Joe Biden was the commentment speaker and he did a good job. Leia is back in Baltimore, expecting her first child in August. She LOVED Emerson and Boston. Small world isn't it?

And thank you for sharing your memories of Peggy the Dog with me. She sounds like the perfect Golden. They are really wonderful creatures - just a bit too big and energetic for me. I knew a seeing eye Golden named Magic who worked for over 10 years with her master. She and I used to play all the time. Keep on sending me stories of your precious Miss Peggy. I'll enjoy them with you. And even though it hasn't been very long at all since she passed, your memories will keep getting better and better.

I know I have many fond memories of Crocker, Birney, Kelly, Jasper, Rudy and now Trevor. Kelly was an English ##er who was rescued and lived the longest of any of our boys. He had a beautiful sable coat that really stood out when he was shaved. We shaved all of our boys - I'm not in to hour long grooming sessions and the guys really liked short hair. Jasper was a Brittany who only lived with us for 3 weeks before being diagnosed with cancer. We euthanised him right away because he was already suffering from so many other painful problems (including chronic pancreatitis). Crocker was my first ##er and his name really was Crocker Spaniel! Birney was hand picked from my girlfriend's favorite dog's litter. I first saw him at one week of age and he was sent to me when he was 12 weeks old. He was smart as a whip and it was difficult to stay one step ahead of him. He even ate a row off our wedding cake! I'll tell you all about him some day. Rudy was my boy, again from my girlfriend, sent to me when he was 2 years old. He was a great dog, gentle and I would have to say "kind" also. Oh! I could go on and on, but that would just bore you to tears.

Have a peaceful and restful night. You truly deserve it!

Love,
Bobbie & Trevor

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for letting us know how your precious Trevor is doing. Sounds like you have a good combination of medications and routines going with him, which is attributing to his quality of life with you. Just as a suggestion, for whatever it's worth: When Oslo began having shortness of breath, I kept a small fan on the floor and ran it just for him. It helped to circulate the air at his level, and provided some extra "oxygen" which did help calm his breathing. Like I said, it's just a suggestion. It did help my Oslo, but don't know if would help your precious Trevor.

Bobbie, I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Trevor. I know you are cherishing every moment of every hour of every day that you have with him. Please know you and your precious boy are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Peggy's Human]

Hey Peggy,

Trevor's day was pretty good again. He actually got up around 8:00 am and we got downstairs right away. I started the amantadine today, but it's going to take some time to see any effects. Trevor is once again panting at night. It may be from the little bit of Prednisone he's on. That happened last time we tried prednisone.

I wanted to tell you that our niece (who is now 30 years old) went to EMERSON COLLEGE! And we went up to Boston for her graduation. Graduation was held in some large theatre. I cannot remember the name. Joe Biden was the commentment speaker and he did a good job. Leia is back in Baltimore, expecting her first child in August. She LOVED Emerson and Boston. Small world isn't it?

And thank you for sharing your memories of Peggy the Dog with me. She sounds like the perfect Golden. They are really wonderful creatures - just a bit too big and energetic for me. I knew a seeing eye Golden named Magic who worked for over 10 years with her master. She and I used to play all the time. Keep on sending me stories of your precious Miss Peggy. I'll enjoy them with you. And even though it hasn't been very long at all since she passed, your memories will keep getting better and better.

I know I have many fond memories of Crocker, Birney, Kelly, Jasper, Rudy and now Trevor. Kelly was an English ##er who was rescued and lived the longest of any of our boys. He had a beautiful sable coat that really stood out when he was shaved. We shaved all of our boys - I'm not in to hour long grooming sessions and the guys really liked short hair. Jasper was a Brittany who only lived with us for 3 weeks before being diagnosed with cancer. We euthanised him right away because he was already suffering from so many other painful problems (including chronic pancreatitis). Crocker was my first ##er and his name really was Crocker Spaniel! Birney was hand picked from my girlfriend's favorite dog's litter. I first saw him at one week of age and he was sent to me when he was 12 weeks old. He was smart as a whip and it was difficult to stay one step ahead of him. He even ate a row off our wedding cake! I'll tell you all about him some day. Rudy was my boy, again from my girlfriend, sent to me when he was 2 years old. He was a great dog, gentle and I would have to say "kind" also. Oh! I could go on and on, but that would just bore you to tears.

Have a peaceful and restful night. You truly deserve it!

Love,
Bobbie & Trevor

Hi Bobbie,

I'm glad Trevor is doing well with pain management. I'll keep my fingers crossed that the new med does what the Dr hopes! Please feel free to share any stories you'd like. I don't think you could possibly bore anyone on this site with an animal story! Thank you for sharing the story of Crocker eating a row of your wedding cake. Only a true animal lover could forgive something like that! Regarding Emerson College, you were closer than you realize. I attended Suffolk University, which is literally on the other side of the Boston Common. - 1 block away As a matter of fact, when I attended school there, I believe Emerson was 'renting space' in one of Suffolk's buildings on the corner of Tremount Street. And I think I told you my best friend is originally from North Dakota. Elements of our lives have crossed paths several times. What a small world!

You and Trevor remain in my prayers and I hope you have a very peaceful night!

take care,

Peggy

[Bobbie]

Thank you so very, very much Moon Beam and Peggy!

Your words of encouragement and support give me the confidence I have in my decisions with Trevor. Today was pretty "good" again. Trevor got up shortly after his 7 am pills and wanted to come down the stairs with a little less support from mom. That didn't las long when he tried to jump down a stair and slid down to the second stair. Then it was, "HELP, mom!". We came upstairs again later in the morning and spent a good part of the day up here. Trevor was sleeping and I was trying to clean out one of the rooms. Trevor likes to sleep in the computer room when I put Pandora.com on. He'll listen to any kind of music I pick and falls fast asleep with it blaring so I can hear it in another room.

This evening he is panting again. I'm hoping it's because we still give him too many snacks (Cheerios, Charlee Bears, etc) during the day and he's quite a tad overweight. I really don't want to back down on the Prednisone again. Right now he's waiting for me to get off the computer and go to bed.

I will tell both of you that you have really encouraged me to treasure (even more than I had been) every moment with Trevor; the good and the bad. Having this forum and your help keeps the memories of the day in better focus than before. Documenting every day with you guys will mean a great deal to me later on. But you already knew that didn't you?

I wish you a comfortable sleep and pleasant/happy dreams.......

love YOU!
Bobbie

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for the update on Trevor. Bless his sweet precious heart - - his bravery at attempting the stairs. He knew you were close by just in case he needed you, and sure enough - mom was there right to the rescue. Another precious moment in your life's journey together - - Trevor's reassurance that his mom is always there for him.

These are precious moments, minutes, hours, days you have with Trevor, - - and ones which your heart will treasure in the future. Bobbie, you are doing everything that is in your power to give Trevor a peaceful quality of life - - and your precious Trevor is savoring every moment he has with you.

Please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and will look forward to knowing how you both are doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

You are amazing, Moon Beam!

Always there with many kind and encouraging words, not only for Trevor and me, but for everyone who needs them! And they are perfect! I continue to thank you from the bottom of my heart and I'm sure Trevor does, too.

Trevor's morning was good. He wasn't sure about the steps at all, but a nice little dogfood ball made that first step a breeze. It actually made me smile when Trevor realized he now had 11 more steps to go down.........But WE made it just fine. I had a lot of errands to run today, so Trevor got to sleep almost all day. In one way that was good for him, but then tonight he was restless and in pain. So, as I do often now, I threw caution to the wind and gave him the Tramadol and antihistamine he wanted. Soon after, I gave him the rest of his night medicines and we're up here on our way to bed. Trevor's neurologist had the right frame of mind, as does his "new" vet: why worry about the "long term" when there probably isn't much of a long term? Kind of like, withholding narcotic pain medication from a dying cancer patient because they "might get addicted"!!?! huh?

Thank you for continuing to remind me to cherish EVERY moment with my boy! Oh! How he is loved!!!!

And so are you, Moon Beam! Have a rest-filled night and a GOOD morning!
Bobbie

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing your precious Trevor with us. He is so brave and I know you're so very proud of him. I can feel your heart overlfowing with love and pride for him - - and rightfully so.

I so agree with you about the medications: "why worry about the "long term" when there probably isn't much of a long term? Kind of like, withholding narcotic pain medication from a dying cancer patient because they "might get addicted"!!?! huh?" As long as he is comfortable which is giving him a peaceful quality of life with you, then - - do what you know your precious boy needs you to do.

I hope today will be kind to you and your precious Trevor. Another day to cherish and revel in each other's company. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and will look forward to knowing how each of you are doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Peggy's Human]

Hi Bobbie,

Thinking of you and Trevor today and hoping it was a peaceful day filled with family, fellowship and the joy of the Easter holiday.

Take care of yourself.

Peggy

[Bobbie]

Well, Easter Day is almost over and Trevor is sound asleep next to my chair (thanks to two pain killers, one antihistamine and one sedative).

First, we hope you all had a very Happy Easter Day, however you celebrate it, and that the Easter Bunny was especially generous.

Trevor decided to sleep in, upstairs, again today. Matter of fact, he didn't get up to come downstairs until almost 3 pm! Stan and I went out for lunch and Trevor had no idea we were gone. When we came downstairs, he didn't appear to be in any increased pain, which is always so nice. The three of us hung around the house all day, making phone calls to family and watching Criminal Minds, of all things. We love that show.

Time for another week to begin.

Bless everyone of you!

Bobbie & Trevor

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear Bobbie,

Sounds like you all had a pleasant Easter. I hope and pray that Trevor is having a good day today.

Take Care and God Bless.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for letting us know how you and Trevor are doing. I'm so glad that Trevor had a very peaceful Easter. This is a very special Easter for you both - - another day to celebrate and treasure in your heart and memories.

I hope today is being kind to you and your precious Trevor. Please know you both are in my thoughts and prayers, and will look forward to knowing how you both are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Trevor got right up this morning, peed on the pads like he's supposed to, then pooped all over the carpet! Do I care? Nope. It all cleans up in the short run and in the long run, we're due for new carpeting one day. Trevor is still completely terrified of coming down the stairs. So I put a Yogurt treat on each step, sit down next to him and, ever so slowly, we make it down each step. Those bastards at my former vet's can burn in you-know-where for how they abused Trevor the last (and I mean last) time he was there.

I wanted to share with you a funny habit Trevor developed. I hope you won't think it's gross. We have a main floor half-bath and, naturally I have to use it during the day. Well, Trevor followed me in there, when we first got him, and I gave him Cheerio's for a treat. Now, every single time I step in that room, Trevor is right there at the door, silently demanding his four Cheerio's. In fact, the bathroom is the only place where he will eat plain Cheerio's any more. All the rest have to be Honey Nut flavored.

It was very hot and humid today. That was a sudden change from last week. The house got quite warm and Trevor, being the overweight champ that he is, started panting and panting. I turned the air conditioning down to 70 and turned on two additional fans to cool the place down to 75. Luckily, Trevor fell asleep right in front of the box fan on the floor and cooled down quite well. I would have to say that Trevor's day was OK. Right now he's asleep in our bedroom, under the ceiling fan, his tummy full of Cheerio's.

Thank you, Moon Beam, LoveMy Mickey, Peggy, Tom'sDad and everyone else who have been so kind to me, lifting me up just when I need it the most and tolerating my daily reports on a dog who is still alive. You mean the world to me!!!!

With love,
Bobbie

[Peggy's Human]

Hey Bobbie,

I'm so glad you've had a great couple of days - and thank you for keeping us updated. Yay, for several good days in a row!! Your story of Trevor and his Cheerio's cracked me up! I had a 'flash-back' to Peggy waiting for us to give her one of her treats every time we picked up the mail - the mail carrier we had for many months loved dogs and would always leave Milk-Bones on or in the mailbox for dogs on her route. She used to talk through the door to Peggy when she dropped off the mail. Christmas time always included a big box of Milk-Bones, along with her real gift (for Cherie, not Peggy, she got other stuff). Peggy became so accustomed to getting these treats that even when our lovely Cherie was moved to another route, Peggy still expected her snack when the mail was retrieved. Boy did she have all of us trained. She'd stand on the landing for the front stairs, nose pointing up toward the mailbox, busily sniffing the air, turn to me (or Mom) with a big smile and tail wagging. I didn't have the heart to tell her she wasn't getting a treat cause the new mail carrier didn't have the same view of that practice. So, we'd truck into the kitchen and get her a couple of her snacks - mostly so we wouldn't feel like we had disappointed her. Now for the funny part (showing she was smart enough to get us to do things). Shortly after Cherie stopped being our mail carrier, I started a new game with Peggy, to see how good her nose was. I'd sit her in the kitchen and go around the house hiding some of her treats (after showing them to her and allowing her to smell them). My house isn't 'huge' but it's about 2,600 sf and if I had to 'sniff something out', I'd never find it. Turns out, her nose was AMAZING. She always found every treat in a very short period of time. It took me a while to figure out that her standing on the landing outside and sniffing the air was a big show put on for our benefit. With the nose I saw her use to find snacky's in the house, there is no way on God's green earth that she 'thought she smelled' something on that mailbox. The little faker!! She learned (much faster than we did ) that if she did her little routine, it would signal us to go to the pantry and get her what she wanted. It's good to know that it's a common practice for dogs to train their owners - my ego was taking a big hit when I realized my blonde dog was probably smarter than I had a hope of being. LOL

Thank your for sharing your story and giving me a good chuckle! I hope you all continue to do well and as always, you're in my thoughts and prayers!

Take care,

Peggy

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thanks so much for letting us know how Trevor is doing. I'm so glad Trevor finds comfort in the fans. They do help with shortness of breath.

Bobbie, we are so o o glad you are sharing Trevor's daily successes and routines with us. He is still with you because he still has the spirit and will to be, and he's comforted by your eternal love for him. Each day is a gift to you both. As you mentioned before, this is your daily journal of your earthly journey together, and it's a privilege for us to share it with you.

Please know you and your precious Trevor are close in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Dear Peggy and Moon Beam,

Well, it had to come to an end didn't it? Trevor didn't have a very good night last night. The meds just didn't seem to "take" and Trevor had a pretty restless night. Finally, I just gave him a lttle bit of everything, sat up on the floor with him and he finally fell into a deep sleep. This morning, for the first time, Trevor leaked urine while sleeping. I knew right away because he was sleeping on the puppy pads. I'm hoping it was simply because he hadn't peed since 10 pm last night.

The rest of the day was fair. I had several things to do around the house and that kept Trevor awake more than usual - he follows me everywhere. He can't have me out of his sight. (good on my ego) Finally we lay down and Trevor went to sleep. And that's when I saw them - the dark color around the outside of Trevor's eyes. It makes Trevor look like he is so exhausted, so tired, in so much pain (which I don't think he is right now) that I just want to cry. And hold him tight and tell him I'll protect you and mommy will take care of you always. It just makes me so sad. I'm sure it's just pigmentation due to age, excess tear production or something like that. But it doesn't look that way to me. Help!

We did go outside for a few minutes right around sunset. It was still warm, but breezy and we stayed in the shade of a big maple tree. We no longer go for walks, we go for meanders. Trevor found some really good dandelions that had messages from several different dogs. He was happy, almost pushing his nose right into the ground. I thought he was going to roll, but he didn't. whew

Evening was a bit rough because our air conditioning duct system is really BAD and it's hot in the house. But eventually, Trevor relaxed on his blanket and fell asleep until it was time to come upstairs. Trevor is sleeping and I'm going to, also. Let's hope for a good night.

And a good night to you, also! Again, thank you for all you have given and done for me!

XOXOxo
Bobbie

[Peggy's Human]

Hello, my sweet friend,

I am so sorry that the pain management approach you’ve been using with Trevor doesn’t seem to be working. I’m wondering if the introduction of the new med on the 22nd (?) may be changing the way his body chemistry is handling the established meds? Hopefully it’s just an adjustment period while his body assimilates the new medication. Is it possible that he was sleeping on a pee-pad because he went to it during the night but was just too tired to walk back to where he had been sleeping? Since he went to the pad, it appears he woke up to ‘go’ but maybe the meds knocked him back out as soon as he was done so he just stayed where he was?? I’m hoping that’s the case.

The darkness around his eyes could be due to age or maybe it was because he was sleep deprived during the day while following you around. And since he was restless last night, he may be tired from not getting a good night sleep. You are so in tune with Trevor that I honestly think if he were in pain, you’d know. Dear, dear Bobbie, I know how painful this is and I wish I could find the words to help ease your pain and the fear you have for Trevor possibly suffering. Please try to remember that if he were in a lot of pain, it’s likely he wouldn’t care about sniffing flowers that other dogs had visited during the day. I think that when we know our time is limited, we notice every detail and our hearts absorb every possible meaning that indicates how short our time may be. You are trying so hard to do everything perfectly for Trevor, to ensure he’s comfortable and feels loved, so everything that doesn’t suggest good health tears at your heart. I understand. Even when we thought Peggy was healthy, I always felt she wouldn’t be with us long (just a gut feeling I had from the first day she came to live with us) and I used to watch her, memorizing quirks I could remember with fondness and watching for indicators of ill health. Looking back, I realize I really began doing that in the last year or so – not anywhere near as much in the earlier years. I think on some level, we recognize when time is getting short. In your case, you know your time is limited so you’re trying desperately to watch for signs from Trevor that he has reached the limit of his endurance so you can prevent him from needlessly suffering. His going out with you today and sniffing the flowers with such gusto suggests that he still finds joy in living. I know it’s disheartening but please try to not be discouraged because the pain control regime isn’t working for now. It’s very possible that you just need to make some adjustments in order to get back on-track. Again, I suspect the new med is necessitating the adjustment. Maybe the vet can let you know if there are any known interactions that would prevent one or two of his meds from working properly?

I hope tonight has brought you both some peaceful and healing sleep. As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care,

Peggy

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, unfortunately, eventually the medications reach a "threshold" and then comes the decision of increasing the doseage or the frequency for them to be effective again. I'm hoping this was just a bad day for Trevor, and you, and that today is much better. I hope you and Trevor did have a very peaceful evening.

Bobbie, please know I do understand what you and Trevor are going through. When your Trevor has good days, I know your heart can't touch ground for it is soaring with sheer delight, but when your Trevor has a bad day, it is a horrible "wake up call" to reality, and your heart sinks with a crushing blow - - as though you cannot catch your breath. I thank you so much for sharing your and Trevor's journey together with us, Bobbie, and for giving us the opportunity to be here for you.

Please know you and your precious Trevor are in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and look forward to knowing how you both are doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Dear Moon Beam & Peggy,

Last night I had to sleep on the floor with Trevor for a couple hours. He was just restless and needed his mom's hand on his bottom. It worked for him, but I had a real backache this morning.

Trevor had a good day today. I think you're right, Moon Beam, Trevor is becoming tolerant of the dosage of Tremadol. Soetimes he acts like he's addicted to the stuff. He probably is. He's not the first dying dog that's been addicted to pain killers and he won't be the last. Besides, I don't really care how much he needs as long as he's happy and has good days.

We had tornado warnings this morning, so Trevor and I slept in. We got a lot of rain and some wind and by 11 am it was all over. Then I blew out our blessed candle! I had to go shopping this afternoon and Trevor got some more nap time. About 8:00 this evening, Trevor acted like he wanted to go outside. He came right out the door and jumped down the step to the sidewalk. It was cool out! And Trevor wanted to go on a WALK! We walked the equivalent of 4 blocks and I mean Trevor WALKED. No meandering, he walked at a steady clip. Just like the old days. What fun that was! He's now going to go out every evening when it's cool. I think that's the secret for him. Matter of fact, when we came in, Trevor went over to his blanket and promptly feel into a deep, non drug induced, sleep for more than an hour! That was the most peaceful I've seen him in a long time. He just sunk into that blanket.

Right now he's sleeping in the bedroom while I finish on the computer. It was a good day. IT WAS A GOOD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!

With love and joy,
Bobbie