Abbygayle's Journey Options

[moon_beam]

Thank you, Donna and Annette. Thank you for your comforting friendship - - it means so much to me. I hope you both have a very peaceful and pleasant evening.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Cheryl83]

moon_beam,

What a touching, inspiring letter to your baby girl. She's so lucky to have you as her mommy. And thanks to you, moon_beam, I now do truly believe that we will be reuinted with our babies and finally become "whole" again.

Thank you for sharing that beautiful letter. Most of all, thank you for your support and for your friendship.

Take care,
Cheryl x

[AngelCareOne]

[moon_beam]

Hi, Cheryl, Dottie, thank you so much for sharing Abbygayle's, Noah's, and my 6 month anniversary with us.

Cheryl, I'm so glad you are comforted in knowing that you and your precious Daisy will one day be reunited again. I do firmly believe this, and I'm glad I have been able to help you.

Dottie, thank you so much for the wonderful graphic. You are so o talented!

Cheryl, Dottie, I thank you both so much for your thoughtful, caring, and comforting friendship, as it means a lot to me. I hope life is treating you both kindly, and please know each of you are frequently in my thoughts and prayers every day.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[moon_beam]

My dearest Abbygayle, Friday was your 7 month anniversary of being with the angels. I got through work okay, but on the way home I started crying - - for the ache in my heart just seemed so overwhelming -- and this weekend has been a challenge off and on. I know Noah misses you, too, baby girl. We feel you within us - - we just wish we had your sweet physical body to hold and snuggle up with. The both of us miss your precious physical presence with us.

Noah and I are doing okay. It's autumn here now. Each day is getting shorter and the nights are getting longer. But I know the days in heaven's perfect garden are perfect for you, my precious beautiful baby girl. And I know you are in the wonderful company of your big doggy brother, Oslo, and your big kitty brother, Eli.

You are always close to me, my beautiful baby girl. How blessed I am to be your mom, my preciuos girl. I love you always - - and forever - - my beautiful baby girl - -

With all my heart - -
mom

[AngelCareOne]

Hi Moon Beam,

What lovely conversations you have with your precious Angel Fur Kid Abbygayle. If she were anywhere as endearing as her appearance is beautiful, then I can certainly see why you miss her so much and wish to snuggle, pet, scratch, hug and kiss her. She has that Maine Coon kitty look about her and they are so sweet. Awww! I'm terribly sorry you're having such a difficult time with your grief journey as well as other things that are going on in your life. It's not fair. It's just not. But, like you said to me, we don't really "cope" or even have "closure." Not ever. The best we can do is to "adjust" to our new life which our loss has brought us. Oh, how well I understood when you said that on my Alex thread. {{{{{Hug}}}}}

As for me, I still wipe away all memories of Alex. Like he never even existed. It's the only way I find that I'm able to at least try to make those adjustments you've spoken to me about here at LS. Any memories at all, be they happy, sad, funny and so on ... Only serve as hurtful reminders. And, it's been three years now. All over a Quaker Parrot. Most people would believe us daft as we shed tears, feel so much grief and devastation over a bird, cat, dog, bunny, hamster, goldfish or even a duck billed platypus. Thank God for LS and all here who do understand and won't talk to us like my brother, uncle and even my best friend. Oy. Like the poem says, we must try to forgive them because they simply don't understand that our cherished fur and feather kids are ourselves, our children, the sun, sky, moon, awesome sunsets, promises and so much more ... And so much more ...

On October 15th in the late evening, for the first time in years, I felt Alex's presence right here in my home. It wasn't a sad thing at all for that presence, but was torture for me. I began to feel a panic and it got stronger and stronger. The panic was my knowledge that I shall never feel his warm Heart beat against my own again in this lifetime. Was he really here in Spirit? Heck, I dunno. Probably just my head playing mind trips on me when it comes to Alex. And, I know I am not alone. Many, if not most, do these things to ourselves when we lose our very best friend in the world.

Finally, I began to weep which surprised me because I'm so good at blocking out all things Alex at this point in time. Then, I turned my head to the right and saw the clock. It was exactly one minute past midnight. So began Alex's three year Angelversary. I knew I had to stop crying and getting all upset because of physical reasons. Also, I read in a post that you made to someone else how you also have PTSD and have for I believe you wrote it's been 25 years now. Mine began when I was six years old. Like you, it was right after my Mom died and the circumstances surrounding what happened. PTSD sure ain't pretty. Losses such as ours and others here can and do make it worse. Please know how I empathize with you, dear sweet Moon Beam. I need to believe I'll see him and others again on That One Sweet Day in one form or another. That keeps me going and "adjusting" as you put it so well.

Please know you're in my daily thoughts and prayers. Moon Beam. Many Blessings to you, your Angel Fur Kid Abbygayle, Angel Oslo Doggie, Angel Eli Kitty and your precious Noah kitty there at home with you.

Many Comforting Hugs and I Wish You Peace.



Always, Dottie xoxoxox

[Cheryl83]

Hi moon_beam,

I cried when reading your post to your precious Abbygayle. I cried because it's so touching and the love you feel for her jumps right out of your words. But I also cried because of the pain you're feeling and because I wish we didn't have to go through this. I'm sorry that you had a "rough" weekend too. As you read on my thread, I was right there with you. As the holidays draw closer, it's just going to get harder for us all. I'm just so glad that we all have each other on this wonderful forum, for a cyber shoulder to cry on, and a cyber hand to hold to help pull us through. I'm leaning my shoulder towards you right now for you to rest your weary head, and I'm reaching out my hand for you to hold, moon_beam. Thank you for your support and friendship.

Big hugs, Cheryl xx

[moon_beam]

Dear Dottie and Cheryl, thank you so much for sharing Abbygayle's, Noah's, and my 7 month anniversary with us. As you know some days are easier than others, - - sometimes I just get focused on "this time last year" - - but this time last year my Abbygayle was recovering from her second cancer surgery, and my precious Oslo was becoming weaker. I was amazed that he made it to his 15th birthday - - a testimony to his determination to be with us for as long as he possibly could be.

This time last year I was "preparing" for the inevitable reality that my Oslo and my Abbygayle would be joining the angels. But I still had their sweet precious physical bodies to hold and comfort, - - now I hold their sweet Living Spirits firecely in my heart and memories.

Thank you again for sharing this anniversary with us. Please know the both of you are close in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[AngelCareOne]

Dear Dottie and Cheryl, thank you so much for sharing Abbygayle's, Noah's, and my 7 month anniversary with us. As you know some days are easier than others, - - sometimes I just get focused on "this time last year" - - but this time last year my Abbygayle was recovering from her second cancer surgery, and my precious Oslo was becoming weaker. I was amazed that he made it to his 15th birthday - - a testimony to his determination to be with us for as long as he possibly could be.

This time last year I was "preparing" for the inevitable reality that my Oslo and my Abbygayle would be joining the angels. But I still had their sweet precious physical bodies to hold and comfort, - - now I hold their sweet Living Spirits firecely in my heart and memories.

Thank you again for sharing this anniversary with us. Please know the both of you are close in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

{{{{{Moon Beam and Your Angels}}}}}



"The Feline Spirit"

And God asked the feline Spirit,
Are you ready to come home?
Oh yes, quite so, replied the precious Soul.
And, as a cat, you know I am most able
To decide anything for myself.

Are you coming then? asked God.
Soon, replied the whiskered Angel.
But I must come slowly,
For my human friends are troubled.
For, you see they need me quite certainly.

But don't they understand, asked God
That you'll never leave them?
That your Souls are intertwined for all Eternity?
That nothing is created or destroyed?
It just is ... Forever and ever and ever.

Eventually they will understand,
Replied the glorious cat.
For I will whisper into their hearts
That I am always with them.
I just am ... Forever and ever and ever.

~ Author Unknown ~

[moon_beam]

Dearest Dottie, thank you so o o much for the beautiful graphics and the wonderful poem. You are so o o special, Dottie. Thank you again so o o much. It means a great deal - - more than words can express.

Hope life is treating you kindly, my friend.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[tanbuck]

Moonbeam, I'm sorry I've been away. I must admit for selfish reasons but also because we're having internet problems. It keeps locking up so we'll have to try a new provider soon. So, many times when I"m off work, I don't even bother with the computer because it's so frustrating to be in the middle of something and lock up.
Anyway, I read your letter to Abbygale. It made me ache because I could feel what you are feeling. I hope you are doing better today. I went for a little while shortly after I got my good test results, feeling ok. But then the other night I was in my bedroom and I heard music. I knew my husband was listening to something on the computer (not on the internet). Whenever he listens to music on the computer, he's usually having a hard time. I crept down the hall and saw him sitting with only the light from the screen on his face. Buck's picture is on the computer desktop screen and he was staring at it - tears rolling down his face. My heart sank. We'd been doing well. And ever since, I've had a hard time.
Yesterday as I was driving home I was missing Buck so much. I was thinking that if I could just see and touch another dog that looked like him, that it would be, I guess, nice. I came to a four-way stop and in front of me was a man about my husband's age walking a Boo-dog (that's what we call dogs that look like Buck). He looked how Buck did in his older years. My mouth dropped open and I looked away only to see a woman walking her young Boo-dog! He looked just like Buck when he was young. And she was untangling the leash from his legs like I used to do. I wanted to stop and ask if I could hug their dogs, but, of course, I didn't. I cried the rest of the way home. I came inside and my husband was standing there. He could see the tears and he just hugged me and said, "I know." I don't know how he knew I was upset about Buck, but he did.
It's a wet blanket on me, at times. Thank you for checking on me on my thread. Thank you for everything. Whenever I feel alone in my heartache, I think of you. And I'm reminded that there are people out there with the same heart as mine. My boys were my children just as Eli, Oslo, Abbygale and Noah are yours. I loved taking care of them. And I know you did too. Kisses to Noah. Take care.
-Donna

[moon_beam]

Dear Donna, it was so nice logging in to see your most welcome message waiting for me. Your thoughtful, caring, comforting words are a soothing balm to my heart and soul. Thank you for sharing how you and your husband are doing. Sometimes it truly does feel like it's two steps forward and ten steps backward. What a treasure it was for you to see TWO boo-dogs - - each representing the youthful and the senior Buck - - just when you needed to see them, although still very painful. Perhaps one day when you see them again, or another boo-dog, you will feel stronger to ask to hold them. When it's the "right" time for you, Donna, - - and only then.

I'm sorry you're having internet challenges. High technology is great - - when it works - - but when it doesn't it's really the pits.

Donna, I wish there was an easier way through this grief adjustment journey for you, and for all of us here on this forum. Knowing that I have you, Dottie, Cheryl, and everyone here to share my precious babies with me means more to me than words can ever express. Donna, please know you and your husband are frequently in my thoughts and prayers every day, and I look forward to hearing from you whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[AngelCareOne]

Dearest Dottie, thank you so o o much for the beautiful graphics and the wonderful poem. You are so o o special, Dottie. Thank you again so o o much. It means a great deal - - more than words can express.

Hope life is treating you kindly, my friend.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

You're very welcome, Moon Beam.





I Wish This For You.





These flowers are to you from your Fur Kid Angels!





Keeping Candles Lit for You and Them.





Always, Dottie xoxoxox

[moon_beam]

Hi, Dottie, thank you so much for keeping my fur angels' "eternal flames" burning. Thank you so much for being you, and I thank God for blessing my life with you, and for blessing my life with all the wonderful Forum participants, each of you my dearest friends.

Please know you, Dottie, and each of you who read this post are close in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[lammy]

I am so sorry about Abbygayle. I loved seeing her pictures. How beautiful! She was lucky to have a mom like you. What a beautiful life.
I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you and sending love. I am very grateful for you supportive posts.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Lammy, thank you so much for sharing my beautiful baby girl with me. I can't believe that it has been 7.5 months already since she joined the angels. This year has been a difficult one for my precious little Noah and me. I never imagined in my worst nightmares that he would be the sole survivor at 7 years of age in a household that once embraced four furkids. Sometimes my heart is so very saddened for Noah having to live to seei each of his family fur members having to leave him, and two of them within 4 months of each other. I know what it's like to be "the one left behind" and it's not always an easy load to carry. So, every day as often as I can I tell him how special he is and how proud of him I am, and how much I love him with all my heart.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Lammy, and thank you again so very much for your kind, heartfelt comfort and encouragement.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[moon_beam]

My beautiful baby girl, today commemorates 8 months since you joined the angels. It is also your doggie brother's, Oslo's, earthly birthday, so I hope in some way you, Eli, and the angels are helping him celebrate the years of his earthly journey with us.

I must confess I am missing the sweet physical presence of you both today. There are times when the sadness of "this time last year" creeps into my heart. - - the sadness of not having you here to hold in my arms, to touch, to feel the warmth of your precious body close to me. But this time last year I could see the tiredness in your doggy brother's face, and eyes, and body, and you, my sweet girl, were recovering from your second major surgery for cancer. How I prayed with all my heart that it would not come back, that you would be spared. Well, my precoius girl, you are free of alll illness now, and I am very thankful for that. If it had not been the cancer I know some other illness would eventually have physically separated us, but I would have eagerly embraced the longer time together, my beautiful girl, if it meant that you could have been healthy and happy. I am of the age now where each day becomes one day closer to the hope of finally being reunited with you in eternal joy at my appropriate time, and I am looking forward to never being separated from you again.

For now, though, my beautiful girl, your sweet brother still needs me, and so we are enjoying each day we have together. I know he misses you, my baby girl, but I am doing my best to help him be happy.

My beautiful baby girl, I love you with all my heart, and am forever grateful for the opportunity of having been your earthly caregiver. I love you with all my heart, my precious, beautiful baby girl - -

Forever and through all eternity,
mom

[JanEeee]

Moonbeam......I just read the very moving story of your beloved Abbygale. What a light in your life she was. I so understand how hard it is to lose multiple creatures, the pain multiplies also.

I thank you for all the effort you have put into helping heal others and I so hope for your own continued healing as well, what a caring person you are, so many have been so lucky to have you for a Mom.

Please keep in touch and remember that we are all carrying a similar burden, trying to cope with a unimaginable loss and struggling with a heavy heart.

Jan

[Aaron]

Thank you for sharing these thoughts and memories with us all. Whenever I read your posts, you have the most comforting way of helping others with their own loss. I wish I could do the same for you as you have endured great loss yourself. Like Jan said, I appreciate all the words of wisdom you share with everyone here and hope in some small way that is able to help you heal.

[janika]

Dear Moonbeam

Those were wonderful words to you precious, beautiful Abbygale. I'm sure that she will be surrounded by your dear Angels and watching over you and dear Noah.
I am thinking of you and sending love and hugs.

Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx