Feel Like I Wanna Die, Too Options

[bunnicula]

Hi all,

My little Netherlands Dwarf Rabbit, King Henry, had to be put to sleep today; I had to bring him to the emergency vet cause his regular vet was taking a vacation day. I always dreaded this day, even when he was tiny, because I feel so in love with him so fast. He was the sweetest little dude, always licked your nose when you held him up to your face, always got excited when we filled the food bowl but instead of running to the food, he'd run up to your hand and wait to be petted.

I am in so much pain it feels like it's going to kill me. I can't believe I was holding him this morning and now I'll never see him again. He was 9 years old, and he got a pasteurella infection that we'd treated many times before, but this time it didn't respond to treatment and he ended up hopping around in circles and not eating. He lost weight -- he was barely over 2 lbs at his highest weight in his life but had dropped to 1.8 and I could feel his spine and his little ribs but even as an "old" man (I, of course, had been counting on him to live to be the Netherlands Dwarf max age of 15) he looked like a tiny baby bunny and I keep going back to the image of the catheter in his tiny, tiny arm and it tears up my heart.

I miss him so much. I want him back so badly. I don't want to live through this right now. I can't imagine ever getting over my tiny little bunny who I loved more than I'll ever be able to say.