2&1/2 Months And The Pain Is Extremely Searing, My Sparky left me August 31st Options

[TrishB68]

Hello everyone,
I wanted to write because I don't feel like there is anyone else I can talk to that will not think I am a blubbering idiot. I can't even explain how much I miss my baby, I am still crying myself to sleep, I'm still on sleeping medication from my doctor and still cry everyday. I hope this doens't sound cold-hearted or that I don't care about my Corky that I lost in 1998 but the pain I am feeling right now with losing my Sparky is so much greater than what I had when I my Corky in 1998 and I had him for many years as well. I mourned alot for him but right now it seems as though I can't get out of it. Somedays I just don't even want to get up.

God Bless to everyone, Take care and my prayers will be with you.

Sincerely,Trish

[Steph]

Oh Trish, I'm so sorry that it is still so bad for you.

I'm thinking back to when I was at two and a half months...that would have been mid-September. I took a week off and went to Quebec City. It was nice going on the trip, but when I came back I really crashed again.

To be honest, it's only the last few weeks that I've seen the most improvement.
I still miss her like so much, and cry for her several times a week, but I can't really describe it, it's just a different sort of grief.

Are you going to some kind of doctor to get your meds? Could he or she help you find a counsellor who knows about this kind of grief?? I had to do that myself, and found that it helped a lot.

Please take care of yourself.

PMS me anytime - Steph

[Ann H]

Your baby is just gorgeous and I feel so bad that it is so hard for you. We just lost my sons Chihuhua on the 11th and are feeling intense pain. I have cried off and on the whole day. These are are babies and we are not crazy to miss them and cry for them so don't feel that you can't cry. Hopefully the tears will help you heal. Thinking of you.
Ann

[SJ J & S]

Hi Trish,

The pain will come and go like waves on a beach, youll think your doing ok then a song will come on the radio or a picture will pop in your head and your back to square one again.

The difference this time is that it doesn’t last as long and the bad times get shorter and shorter until eventually you will be sad and cry for a few minutes and then think of a happier time.

It will be two years since loosing Sadie next month and I still have a cry – of course I do, I loved them very dearly I will keep having a cry until the day I die. That is me.

I would try and wean yourself of tablets, my humble opinion is they suppress what needs to come out and what needs to come out will keep trying until it is faced and dealt with.

It is still early days yet, be kind to yourself

Love Sue

[zoeysdad]

Hi Trish,

I'm sorry to hear things haven't gotten much better for you. It's going to take a long time to deal with and accept the loss of your beloved Sparky, but that day will come. You and I are still in the early stage of the grieving process but surely things wlll get better as time passes.

I'm sending a big hug your way and I just know you'll find the strength to deal with your loss. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

__Jim

[dietersmom]

Trish,
I so KNOW what you are feeling. It will be 10 weeks this coming Wednesday since we had to let Dieter go. I believe that we just bond differently with some animals, and your Sparky was your "soul dog" , for lack of a better term. We had raised Dieter from 8 weeks old and he was my baby. I just miss him sooooooo much.

I have found that if I withdraw from the world then I become really sad and he would have never wanted that. So, I pick myself up and try to go do fun things, just get out with friends and family for dinners, movies, and just all around much needed company. I don't talk to any of them about him anymore, it will only bring tears to my eyes and make them uncomfortable, even though I still think of him and shed tears everyday. I know he isn't coming back, as much as I'd give anything for that, and I must try to feel better.

I just want you to know that you're not alone and we here at LS know what you are feeling and you can come here anytime to talk.

Your in my thoughts and prayers,
Libby

[Steph]

I have found that if I withdraw from the world then I become really sad and he would have never wanted that. So, I pick myself up and try to go do fun things, just get out with friends and family for dinners, movies, and just all around much needed company.

I did the same, and, after a while there was an occasional bit of fun in going out. At first it was only for a matter of seconds, but then it started happening more and more.

Yes, I still grieve. I cried for Luba several times this weekend. However, it's hard to describe it - the grief kind of "shifts".

Please take care of yourself. You owe it to Sparky. He'd want you to get strong again.

Steph