Not Her Too..., 3 weeks ago my dog...now my cat Options

[Darebaby]

Some of you may remember my last post. It has been about 3 weeks since I had to put Pox to sleep. I was having a hard time with everything. About 3 days after she died I was adopted by my roomates extremely unsociable cat, Warrior. Warrior Has been such a life saver to me. If you have a chance...read my ealier post and you can see for yourself. She gave me something to wake up to. I am sure you know what I mean when you dont even want to leave the house because you are afraid of that feeling of coming home to an empty house. Well, she totally savedme through Pox's death. I fell in love with her and I had vowed i wouldn't ever have cat...at least not for a while. But she came to me and rescued me. I wish I could express how grateful I am for her. Unfortunately 2 days ago she was somehow injured and killed. I can't even believe that we have (my roomate and I) lost 3 pets in 6 weeks. The bearded dragonin Late September, my best friend Pox 3 weeks ago andnow Warrior. Our house is so full of sorrow and grief. I cant understand it at all. I am still sonumb from Pox...I have never lost anything so close to me and I am having a hard time being happy aboutanything. I hate feeling. I mentioned before that tendays after I lost Pox I woke up one day and broke up with my boyfriend. It is almost like deep down inside I don'twant to love anything...now this ahppens. All of my emotionsare buried and I feel so abandonedand sad. It feels like it has beenan eternity since i last held my Pox. I feel so disconnected...from everything. Thanks for listening...I need type my feelings andfeel like somebody cares. I feel very lonely and sad. So sad that since Pox has goneI find it hard to pray. Ihave just diconnected myself from evrything. Whe I am at work I amokay...very distracted. The secondI pull intomy driveway andopen the door a panic feelingcomesover me. 13 years and she is gone. I miss her so much. I know it sounds dumb...but my life feels so purposeless. I feel that I am not needed by anybody. I guess i take comfort in the fact the Warrior and Pox are together but I am here...and I am all alone. No family, no man and no little furbabies. Maybe I am throwing myself a pity party...but I have never been alone before. It is very scary. I can't sleepatnight. I have been up until 5 or 6am evry night.
Sorry this keyboard dosn't work very well...I really am notthis bad of a typist

Thanks for listening, friends