Lost The Love Of My Life, ZOE Options

[LoveThem]

I was posting to a new member, Westiemum, here in the D&D Section, and mentioned that her pictures reminded me of your Zoe. I just came back here and saw your starting post where you said Zoe was a westie (boy did I feel smart...I am learning breeds better).

I don't know if you have seen her topic but there seems to be a special tiny extra bond with those whose babies are very similar. I feel that way everytime I see a black kittie. I feel that way when I see a German Shepherd face. And, seeing pictures of ZOE and another westie, recently lost, I had to tell you two about each other. Zoe's pictures are always so adorable..they make me smile.
Now I truly know the "westie" breed. Are they all...all white babies? They sure do take great pictures.

I know you miss her everyday and I also know she is a special Angel that watches over you..
everyday.

I always wish I could wave a magic wand and change things back to the babies being here again..but in healthy times..and with many more years to be with us. Even though it is a
fantasy...the thought makes me feel good..for a fantasy moment.

Hugs, Deanna............and a special hug/kiss for your beautiful sweetheart of an angel, Zoe.

Judy

[Mikki]

HELLO PET LOVERS
I am new to this ~ I posted this story on the "new beginning" forum instead of the death & dying pet support forum.
Although, there were a few who noticed and helped me tremendously, especially, Goliath, Myhrtisbrkn, Sissycat & Jorge.
Thanks to you guys, I'm able to function another day, although my heart hurts ...I miss my lil' punkin' pie, Zoe.

I AM HURTING TO WHERE IT'S ALMOST UNBEARABLE. I NEED SOME SUPPORT ON HOW TO DEAL WITH MY LOSS.

I GREW UP WITH NO DESIRE TO HAVE A PET OF ANY KIND, HOWEVER, TWO YEARS AGO, A CO-WORKER OFFERED ME THE MOST ADORABLE WESTIE (PUPPY) THAT I HAD EVER SEEN. TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, I FELL COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THIS DOG (NAMED ZOE), I LOVED HER MORE THAN ANYONE IN MY LIFE ...SHE WAS MY SHADOW. SHE SLEPT WITH ME, WOKE UP WITH ME, WE PLAYED TOGETHER IN THE MORNINGS IN BETWEEN ME TRYING TO GET MYSELF READY FOR WORK, I LIVE CLOSE TO WORK, I'D COME HOME AND PLAY AND WE'D HAVE LUNCH TOGETHER ...I CAME HOME TO HER AFTER WORK SEEING HER JUMPING UP N' DOWN AT MY FRONT DOOR...ONCE I GOT IN...SHE JUMPED UP AND DOWN ON MY LEG UNTIL I PICKED HER UP (IN WHICH I DID ALMOST IMMEDIATELY), GAVE HER KISSES, RUBBING HER BACK AS SHE LICKED MY FACE. WE BOTH FELT THE LOVE AND AFFECTION FOR EACH OTHER ALL DAY EVERY DAY. AFTER DINNER, SHE GAVE ME "THE LOOK" THAT IT WAS TIME FOR OUR EVENING WALK. AFTER OUR WALK WE WOULD COME HOME AND RELAX AND PLAY UNTIL IT WAS TIME TO GO TO BED TO WAKE UP TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I NEED TO MENTION, I HAVE A LOVING HUSBAND AND TWO KIDS, THAT ADORED ZOE AS WELL, BUT NOTHING LIKE I DID. I WAS GUILTY OF GIVING ZOE MORE AFFECTION THAN TO THEM, BUT THEY UNDERSTOOD, THEY KNEW I WAS ATE UP WITH HER.

WELL, ON LAST THURSDAY (JUNE 12TH) OF ALL DAYS ...(MY BIRTHDAY)...ZOE AND I WERE HEADED INTO THE HOUSE AFTER OUR WALK, ( I ALWAYS UNCLIP HER LEASH ONCE WE'RE ON THE PORCH) ... MY NEIGHBOR HOLLORED AT ME THAT SHE NEEDED TO TALK. ZOE AND I WALKED OVER TO HER PORCH...ZOE ALWAYS WOULD STAY IN OUR YARD AND SHE WOULD FOLLOW ME IF I WALKED OVER TO MY NEIGHBOR ...HOWEVER, ZOE SPOTTED A SMALL RABBIT HOPPING IN THE NEXT YARD AND MADE A MAD DASH TO CATCH IT, RUNNING INTO THE STREET AND SHE GOT RUN OVER, SHE WAS KILLED INSTANTLY. I RAN OUT TO THE STREET, PICKED HER UP, LOOKING INTO HER FACE, SAYING HER NAME OVER AND OVER AND KISSING HER, PLEASE DON'T GO...BUT SHE WAS GONE. FROM THAT MOMENT, I CAN'T SLEEP, EAT, OR BARELY FUNCTION TO GO ON WITH MY NORMAL DAILY ROUTINE. MY FAMILY THINKS I SHOULD BE OVER THE DEVASTATION BUT THE ACCIDENT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND A HUNDRED TIMES A DAY. I HAVE ACCEPTED SHES PASSED, WE BURIED HER IN THE BACK YARD, I HAVE HER A BEAUTIFUL MEMORIAL STONE AND FLOWERS WITH HER PICTURE. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOWS OF MY HOUSE AND SEE HER BURIAL SPOT AND IT JUST KILLS ME. SHE WAS SO SPECIAL IN MY LIFE AND I KNOW THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER ZOE. I MISS HER SOOOOO MUCH, I AM CONTINUOUSLY LOOKING FOR HER TO COME AROUND THE CORNER OF ANY ROOM. PULLING UP IN MY DRIVEWAY FROM WORK IS THE ABSOLUTE HARDEST THING NOT SEEING HER ADORABLE LITTLE FACE AT THE DOOR.

I FOUND THIS WEBSITE TO POSSIBLY GET SOME SUPPORT, I WOULD APPRECIATE ANY.
THANKS IN ADVANCE

Dearest Deanna,
I just read your post and nearly cried. Your Zoe sounds like a really, really special friend. We are all in pain here and reaching out for help and support so you are certainly in good company. My heart is with you, dear---this loss is so terribly painful, but we are here to help one another through it. I hope you are feeling a little bit better.....

[Deanna]

Sorry....my caring, cyber, pet lover friends, but I have been without power since Sunday (9-14)...however, we got 80-90 mph winds from Hurricane Ike and it has destructed our city something terrible, schools have been out all week as well. I still don't have any at home, but I'm here at work and wanted to check in....I have felt lost having no connection to you wonderful supportive people.

Mikki ~
Thanks so much for your sweet comment. Yes, Zoe was my heartbeat. Going on with my day-to-day life has been really tough without her. She meant so much to me and brought such joy to my life .... I life that I knew an loved was gone. I miss her sooooo much. I think of her daily.
Again, thanks so much .... I'll be in touch with you more, once I get my power on.

Judy ~
It is always good to hear from. You have such kind words for my heart. Thank so much. Yes, all of these precious westie babies are white ...they are classified as West Highland White Terriers, nicknamed "westies". They are very easy to bond with. I would have to agree with you ~ they take great pictures. Again, thanks, I'll be touch again soon. (Hopefully, I'll get my power back on soon)!
*** I will take a peek and send some support to Westiemum as soon as I get a chance.

You may be seeing me on the "New Beginning" section soon. I am going to go look at some new babies tonight. I am so excited at the same time I am nervous about taking the big step on getting a new baby. I'll be in touch.
Much love to you all ~
Deanna

[Deanna]

Quick word to Hal ~ Candy's Dad,
I was able to take a peek and see the last pictures you posted of Candy. My heart goes out to you.
I'll be in touch again real soon.
Thanks a buch,
Hanging in there with ya,
Deanna

[LoveThem]

We'll be waiting to hearing about everything when you get power.

And, thanks for the info about Westies....I loved hearing about them being so very special.

Judy

[Deanna]

Hi Everyone ~ I have power now. I missed the opportunity to sign in whenever I felt like it.
Hope eveyone is having a peaceful day with your fur baby in your hearts.
We miss them terribly.
Love to you all
Deanna

[LoveThem]

Welcome back, Deanna

Did you go see those new babies you were talking about? What happened?

Glad you got your power back....we always like to feel we can come here whenever we want to or need to.....


Judy

[Deanna]

Yes ~ I went and seen the babies and brought one home! I have a new baby, she is so precious. She's another westie and her name is Sasha. It's been kind of a wild emotional roller coaster (again) for me. I laugh, smile and cry with Sasha being around. (With her being the same breed Zoe was, it has brought back memories of when Zoe was so small and being silly). Overall, it's a wonderful thing. I am loving Shasha through Zoe. Zoe has taught me well.
Thanks for asking. I posted a picture of her on the New Beginnings site.
Have a great day, Judy, I'll be in touch with more stories and pics.
Much love,
Deanna

[AngelCareOne]

Oh {{{{{Deanna}}}}} I'm so pleased to hear about you bringing home your new fur kid Sasha! I can just imagine the gambit of emotions you're feeling and that roller coaster ride especially with your new baby Sasha being the same breed as Zoe. Still, I see it's brought back many happy and silly memories for you, Dear One. And, that's a lovely, loving and wonderful thing!

I can't wait to see the pics in The New Beginnings forum here, Deanna. God Bless!!!

Many Tight Hugs, Lotsa Love and Sasha Puppy Breath and Kisses!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[Deanna]

Thank you Lovethem,
Yes, it's been a wild emotional roller coaster ride this week. Sasha is keeping me pretty busy physically and mentally. I'm on potty patrol. Trying to get the little girl to do her thing outside. (ha) Oh .... I've cried several times, it being a good and bad thing. Just within these past 5-6 days, I have already fallen in love with Sasha. My husband said "here we go again, you have completely spoiled her within the first three days"! heehee She wonderful and makes me happy, although at the same time, she does things that just rips my heart out (over and over)... only because she makes me think of Zoe when she was little. I still talk to Zoe sooo much, even more since getting Sasha. I want her to know that even though I've got Sasha doesn't mean she "Zoe" isn't on my mind daily, because she is. My family has made good and sad comments, like "Zoe did that but .... and Mom, Sasha is sweet and I love her, but she's not Zoe.....etc., We do all understand no other dog can replace Zoe, we can only hold on and talk about the happy memories we have of her when she was in our lives.
I am still taking it day by day with the healing process of losing Zoe at the same time ...learning to love another fur baby without the daily pain of Zoe's absence.
I still need each and everyone of you.
Zoe, Sweetheart, mama still misses and loves you more than I ever have.
I am looking forward to that glorious day of when we meet again at Rainbow Bridge to scoop you up in my arms again.
ZOE ~ FOREVER IN MY HEART
Deanna

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[ann]

Hi Deanna, Getting Sasha and loving her doesn't in no way, shape or form is or will ever be replacing Zoe. Don't feel guilty about that. It's ok to love and spoil again. You gave Zoe a warm and wonderful life. You Will miss Zoe for a long time if not forever and that's ok too. In time the things Sahsa does that mind you of Zoe won't tear your heart out, it will fill it with joy. Almost like still having her with you in some ways. You'll see, give it time.. Enjoy your new furbaby and love her each day like it was the last.. Hugs.. Ann

[Deanna]

Thanks Ann ~ I am enjoying Sasha and doing a great job of spoiling her. Yes, Sasha does make me feel good inside as if Zoe was around. Thanks so much for your kind words. Your comment of "enjoy your new furbaby and love her each day like it was the last" is some wise advice.
Thanks so much for your support,
Hope you are doing ok as well.
Deanna

[LoveThem]

Wonderful news! Sasha sounds like a real sweetheart. So it is like Zoe has a new sister. I am so glad you are enjoying your new baby. I agree about enjoying her as much as possible.

I always try to remember the new ones we have..live in the moment..and maybe they can teach us something about how to do that at times.

Hugs to all of you. Your pictures of Zoe always bring a smile to my face for she is so pretty.

Looking forward to more pictures of Sasha...and always love to see Zoe too.

You have the perfect distraction. My new cat, Lucky, was the distraction I needed and I think Sasha is "handling" you just fine.

Enjoy the little sweetheart. She also loves you and needs you...and it is nice to be needed again, isn't it? And to hug the furry body of such a precious one.

[Deanna]

I still miss you and love you so much Zoe.
Your heartbeat is beating with mine.
Waiting for the day to see and hold you again.
Mama

[Deanna]

Hey Zoe ~ Dad and I got your "hello" I'm still with you last night
It was a good feeling, keep em' coming....
Love you and miss you
Mama

[Deanna]

I love and miss you soooooo much Zoe ~ I still think of you everyday.
There will never be another furry soul like you.
We all miss you....see you at the Rainbow Bridge
Much Love
Mama

[LoveThem]

Deanna

Your Angel Zoe hears every word you say to her.

She is watching over you (and her new sister) and is always listening. She would never want to miss a word of anything you say...she was that way with you here and she is still that way..cause she is still here.



Judy

[Deanna]

Hi Sweetheart
I still think about you throughout everyday. The thought of you brings a tear and a smile.
I love and miss you so much....I do.
Mama

[Deanna]

Ditto ....from 10-19-08
Still thinking about you throughout my days.....love and miss you so much.
Mama

[Deanna]

I am still missing you Zoe ~ there'e something missing....it's you baby.
Love you
Mama