Alex, I Shall Love You Eternally, My Best Friend Ever! Options

[AngelCareOne]

{{{{{{{ChibiStar}}}}}}} That's pretty much about the *biggest* reason that I didn't post John's (my lawyer's) last name nor email address. I feel just the same as you in that I would have been so very sorely tempted to hop the next jet, get myself over here and confront those three monsters. Ohhh, please know that this is very, very new to me in so far as expressing "anger." So, I do write poetry and draw because ... "Oh, Sush Up, Angel. ChibiStar understands and ya don't gotta defend yourself." Sorry about that Chibi but I felt the "need" to smack myself upside the head.

I have "in save" all correspondence between myself and John ... This email's tone is so very, very different from the others. Bless you and Beth and Dayna and ALL for giving me the courage and helping me find that "mean as heck" voice. Know what I mean? I think you do. Chibi? You mentioned "feeding those people some asphalt." Ummm ... May I watch? Kidding of course but THANK YOU, SWEETIE!!! THANK YOU AND BLESS YOU!!!

Okay, before addressing Buster and Jorge, I'm gonna do that thing that ANNOYS people so much. You guessed it. I'm gonna say "sorry" and here goes. As everyone can well imagine, I have not been sleeping (not even a nap) for up to 3 going on 4 days at a time, will then nap a short while, and then will start all over again. I ain't gonna tell ya about my emotional state during those waking hours because, as I've said before, I honest to gosh cannot bear to be pitied. I simply cannot. Here it comes ... I'm so sorry this response to you dear, wonderful people (Chibi and Buster and Jorge) is not what I REALLY FEEL IN MY HEART, MIND AND SOUL in expressing my DEEPEST GRATITUDE TO YOU!

You see, I only just woke up a couple minutes ago from one of those short naps, turned on my PC, came directly here and don't believe I'm quite awake yet. So, do expect a possible "edit" to this post once I have "inserted my IV of coffee." Of course, you know I really do not do "IV of coffee." I drink it just like others. OKAY, I AM RAMBLING AGAIN. Oops. Please, let me continue ...

{{{{{{{Buster and Jorge}}}}}}} Hey, you said "I'm sorry," too. Please don't be "sorry" for getting here when you did. I knew you'd come, Dear Ones. Yep, I did. THANK YOU SO MUCH for your Kindness and THANK YOU SO MUCH for your Wonderful compliments to my feather child Alex. Yes, tears are streaming down my cheek (the right one) as I type this to you both and Chibi.

You see ... Hey, I'm gonna go cry a bit more MOSTLY IN GRATITUDE TO ALL HERE FOR YOUR TREMENDOUS SUPPORT AT THIS HORRIBLY DEVASTATING LOSS AND THAT YOU ALL ... THAT YOU ... CARE! YOU UNDERSTAND!

Gonna stop now. Cannot see the screen. I will be back and probably edit this post since, as I'm sure you've seen by all that I've written thus far, this is the most EMOTIONAL post I've made. I will be SO EMBARRASSED about it after I rub all the sleep from my eyes and ... Gonna take a look around, have some more coffee and shall return.



I am so Gratefiul!

GOD BLESS YOU, CHIBI AND BUSTER AND JORGE!!! Ummm ... Either that or please "insert the deity" of your choice and again BLESS YOU!!!

Tons of HUGS and Much LOVE!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

[LoveThem]

I read your story and it is just simply outrageous what happened. I am very glad you were able to get your kitty and dog back. I saw their pictures..no wonder you adore them...and knowing these very special ones..I am sure they both adore you back and are SO VERY GLAD to see you!

I am sorry about Alex...he sounds so sweet and special. I believe that miracles can happen ...sometimes it takes time but it seems with prayer...miracles somehow can become real.

I wish you a very special prayer that you and Alex are reunited....Take care and keep searching...it is too soon to stop.

[oliver's mama]

I think too, as atrocious as it is, that the whole reason they went through this elaborate scheme was to sell Alex. A cat and dog are common pets, I think this is why they rushed to drop them off but a bird worth thousands is not common. Also, as agonizing as it is, a person who would spend good money on a pet generally speaking will treat it well. Again, I can imagine how unbearable this must be, but to break the law to get to a persons pets would almost certainly have to have a reason behind it.

I hope these people burn for this. You have already handled it far better than I would have, as my reacation would have been as swift as it would have been brutal. I pray you get the answers and don't give up hope yet, hopefully the stupid one will crack and squeal on the others. Miracles can happen, one member here and one of my best friends were each reunited with their cats years after they were separated by "chance." Hang in there...

Sarah (Oliver's mama)

[AngelCareOne]

{{{{{{{Love Them and Sarah}}}}} THANK YOU BOTH SO MUCH!!! I thank God I found you wonderful, caring, compassionate, loving people. Others are plain sick and tired of my tears even though it's just like it happened yesterday in my mind and I keep reliving the nightmare over and over and over .... But, "He's just a bird, for Pete's sake. Only a bird. Get a grip for crying out loud! There are millions of them out there so just go get another. Stop this nonsense and ..." You get the picture.

(By the way, Alex was actually $150.00 when I got him in 1993. The reason he is worth thousands now is due to his amazing capabilities which he learned over the years from my love filled training, from observing other people, animals, objects, television, music, the computer and a whole bunch he put together himself. What an amazing, precious and delightful Treasure!)

All of you understand the pain, anguish, guilt, grief and that it's there everywhere you are, in all your thoughts, in all you do ... You know because you are either there RIGHT NOW or have been there! I've done much research and found Websites that validate how you're feeling. Many doctors agree that losing a most beloved, cherished fur or feather kid is just as ... if not MORE ... devastating than losing a human you love so much. Even if that human is your Mom, Dad, brother, sister, wife or husband. I also felt such relief when reading case histories about people's reactions and behavior because I truly felt I was going insane.

Hey, does the above sound familiar? I'll bet it does to each of you who mourn and are so devastated.

Well, I'm being too emotional again. Gotta stop that because, as I've said before a few times, I simply CANNOT bear to be pitied and ... THAT IS WHAT IS SO GREAT ABOUT THIS SAFE HAVEN! You give support, advice, are genuinely interested, concerned, care and so much more ... But, you do NOT show pity. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THAT AND BLESS YOU!!!

Okay, I'm going to change the atmosphere in here and share something with you that I put together in GRATITUDE TO YOU ALL! My hope, prayer and great desire is to put a SMILE on your faces! I did post this in the "Pet Loss Support Resources and Articles" forum so I sure hope this won't be considered spam. Here is what I posted there and worded almost exactly as follows ...

And now, a treat. I put this together myself. None of the parrots in the videos are Alex but the photo at the bottom is Alex. I chose that one because he looks like he's sticking out his tongue as if to say, "Neener! Neener!" Nope, he was kissing me. Hehe. Please Enjoy! I'll set this up just a bit. Here goes ...

Well, I decided that it would be oh so precious, cute, adorable, funny as heck and entertaining to set some Quaker parrot videos to this particular song showing the feather kids as babies and watching them grow. I sure do hope you like it and it makes you smile! Tons of Hugs and Much Love!!!

"The Way We Were"

Mem'ries,
Light the corners of my mind.
Misty water-colored memories,
Of the way we were.

(Click Below) See How Big We're Getting!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4c992FylDSc...feature=related

Scattered pictures,
Of the smiles we left behind.

(Click Below) Hand Feeding Time! Flappin' Wings Cuz Happy Happy Joy Joy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoZV_JC3MZ4

Smiles we gave to one another,
For the way we were.

(Click Below) Growing Up And Plumage Filling In. I Feel Pretty Oh So Pretty! Ooo, Feeding Time, Too so Flappin' my Wings and Yummy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zlHbkYm5b0...feature=related

Can it be that it was all so simple then?
Or has time re-written every line?

(Click Below) "I Wanna Drink. All Right? Okay!" Now, That's Telling Her. Hehe!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0niAeb0po5w

If we had the chance to do it all again ...

(Click Below) I'm Singing "Oh What a Beautiful Morning!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNQxnmRFa44...feature=related

Tell me, would we? Could we?

(Click Below) "Je Parle Français! Svp Entretien Avec Moi?"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOtTrlkvyQY...feature=related

Mem'ries, may be beautiful and yet,
What's too painful to Remember,
We simply choose to forget ...

(Click Below) I'm Singing "If You're Happy and You Know it and You Really Wanna Show it Clap Your Hands!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvf-XpHX05k&NR=1

So it's the Laughter!
We will Remember!

(Click Below) It's Me Farting Just Like Dad. Ain't I a Stinker? Hehehe!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bqIgZJCNaXE...feature=related

Whenever we Remember ...

(Click Below) I'm Singing "Supercallafagilistecexbeallidoshious! Even Though the Sound of it is Something Quite Atrocious!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8h_rO5CYQY...feature=related

The way we were ...

(Click Below) "I LOVE YOU!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HecoP8WMY9E

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Having a gosh awful difficult time right now. Feeling so devastated and horrified. Much crying. Much guilt. Missing Alex so badly that I literally forget to breathe. Cannot bring myself to express anger about those three who took Alex so wrote more poems and chose images. Here is the first one and I hope and pray it makes sense to anyone who reads.

"Mend These Broken Wings"
By: AngelCareOne

What do you say when you can't talk?
Where do you go when you can't walk?

It's useless to communicate.
Not capable expressing hate.

And so you sleep to get away
From all the troubles of the day.

But that's a stupid thing to do.
Troubles wait and still haunt you.

Perhaps it's best never to slumber.
But woes are patient. Return. Outnumber.

Your mind keeps racing to and fro.
So which direction should you go?

The past is nice at times that's true.
But mostly horrors do you view.

Staying sane in present time
Cannot be done. A thin, fine line.

The past and present you perceive
Brings wish of good things to retrieve.

You know that you must find a way
To conquer sanely just today.

Must be somehow which can be found
Stop vicious circles round and round.

There's one road back to sanity.
Forgive and that will set you free.

[AngelCareOne]

This Is For You My Sweet Precious Alex

"Spinning"
By: AngelCareOne

Spin to my left. What do I see?
A bird. He speaks. He doth love me.
I love him too and miss him so.
Do not know how to let him go.

Spin to my right. What is in store?
No way to tell. Not been before.
Such a good term for spin to right.
That's the future and I've no sight.

Spin to the center where I am.
Okay I guess. I'm in command.
I'm in control and so decide,
To breathe and all above confide.

Tell no one of my secret though.
I'm scared of darkness. True and so,
I spin to left and hear Dad say,
"Dark is your friend. Put fears away."

Thanks, Dad. I'll stay at center now,
And gaze around to figure how,
To sleep eyes open just to peek.
Ah, there's the one, the love I seek.

[AngelCareOne]

Dedicated to All of You With Much Much Gratitude!

"Angels Abound"
By: AngelCareOne

Gray clouds spill droplets of water to ground.
Puddles then rivers begin to surround.
Engulfed in the rage of the storm I feel fear.
Where is my Angel? I hope that she's near.

Dear Angel, I cried out; Please don't leave me now.
I can't make it without you and wouldn't know how.
You're needed post haste to be by my side.
The storm's getting worse; In you I confide ...

Tell no one my secret; I'm scared of the dark.
You're always my comfort; My dove, my sweet lark.
I pray that you're close and can hear my call.
Please fly to me, Angel, and don't let me fall.

Are those wings that come closer and closer I hear?
It sounds like my Angel of hearts is so near.
She's here; Outspreading her wings oh so pure,
Folds them around me; I feel safe and secure.

Thank you dear Angel; Now all will be fine.
Your compassion and love are truly Divine.
God bless you, dear Angel; Please tell me your name ...

"I'm within you always. You and I are the same.
Your friends are all Angels; You know that already.
They care and they love you and help keep you steady.
Fear not when the storms come; Your friends are so vast.
Their love and compassion will shield any blast."

So there is the truth that I finally know.
You all are my Angels and I love you so!

[goliath]

Dear Angel.

You never cease to amaze with your utmost enthusiasm and innermost feelings. These gifts you share with all of us uplift my soul and bring inspiration.

I know how much you miss Alex and it saddens me when I truly see how much you are hurting. Please know I keep you in my prayers.

There are still some of your videos I haven't watched, but I promise to watch them all. You have made an enormous change in my life by sharing your joys and stories of Alex. I actually started feeling just a little bit guilty because I haven't been spending the kind of time I should be with my own feathered love, Goofus. So I am sending a big "THANK YOU" for reminding me just how important the time is that I share with him.

Your Alex soars out there somewhere amongst all God's angels. I send you sweet dreams of him and all thank you for who and what you are.

Much love with warm hugs my friend,
Beth

[AngelCareOne]

{{{{{{{Dearest Beth}}}}}}}

Tons of Hugs and Much Love!

Always, Angel xoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Hey Alex, here's a song that always made you so Happy! In fact, it's this exact video. Remember how you'd be on my right shoulder listening and watching the PC monitor when I'd play it for you? Oh, how you'd laugh and make your "Happy Sounds" that I recall so clearly and can still imitate even now.
I wish I had those joyful expressions on a recording so you and everyone could hear it. Enjoy!

Please Click on 'Happy Alex' to Hear and View

"Put on a Happy Face"

Gray skies are gonna clear up.
Put on a Happy Face!
Brush off the clouds and cheer up.
Put on a Happy Face!

Take off that gloomy mask of tragedy,
It's not your style.
You'll look so good that you'll be glad ya decided to Smile!

Pick out a pleasant outlook.
Stick out that noble chin.
Wipe off that full-of-doubt look.
Slap on a Happy Grin!

And spread Sunshine all over the place.
Just Put on a Happy Face!

Put on a Happy Face!
Put on a Happy Face!

And if you're feeling cross and bickerish,
Don't sit and whine.
Think of banana splits and licorice,
And you'll feel fine!

I knew a girl so gloomy,
She'd never laugh or sing.
She wouldn't listen to me,
Now she's a mean old thing!

So spread Sunshine all over the place!
Just Put on a Happy Face!

[AngelCareOne]

Dearest Alex, here is another lullaby you loved so much when I sang you to sleep. Listen and I shall watch you yawn and nod off to the land of mystical magical marvelous dreams as you always did in such contentment. I hope you like your picture and the images I chose to go with the lyrics, my most precious feather child. I Love You!!! Shhh ... Here's your Sleep Song, Alex.

Please Click on Alex's Picture to Hear This Most Beautiful Lullaby

"Sleep Song"
by: Secret Garden

Lay down your head and I'll sing you a lullaby. Back to the years of Loo-Li,Lai-Ley. And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow. Bless you with love for the road that you go.

May you sail fair to the far fields of fortune with diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet and may you need never to banish misfortune. May you find kindness in all that you meet.

May there always be Angels to watch over you. To guard you each step of the way. To guard you and keep you safe from all harm. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

May you bring love and may you bring happiness. Be loved in return to the end your days. Now fall off to sleep. I'm not meaning to keep you. I'll just sit for a while and sing Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

May there always be Angels to watch over you. To guard you each step of the way. To guard you and keep you safe from all harm. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

Sweetest of Dreams Most Precious Alex

[goliath]

Dear Angel.

Your gift of writing from your heart to Alex overwhelmes me. I have yet to finish all you have written and am going to copy all of them when I go to work on Monday.(If that's ok with you) You truly lift my spirits. There isn't one selfish thing in your nature. Every single one of your posts absolutely intrigues me.

As I read your posts you send to others in compassion and love, it tells me you really ARE one of God's most precious children.

Many warm hugs to you Angel from my heart to yours,
Beth

[myhrtisbrkn]

Angel.

I'm about to sign off for the night with a new lullaby to sing to my very aged kitty (the dogs don't care much for my singing )...and a smile on my face. Thanks to you.

Heaven bless you,
Dayna

[AngelCareOne]

Oh My Goodness! {{{{{{{Beth and Dayna}}}}} I feel so honored and ... Ummm ... Dang, I even stutter when I'm typing. LOL! Beth, of course feel free to use anything I write, any images I post, any songs ... Take them and put them wherever your heart desires. As I said, you honor me. And Dayna, you honor me too but it's my aged kitty that doesn't like my singing while my doggie does. Oh, memories of my Kenny telling me ever so often in concern for my last kitty, "Honey, please don't do that. You're hurting his poor ears." Hahaha! True and I kid you not. #Giggle!#

Okay, I'm speechless now and I always express myself so much better using images, songs, poems and the like so here goes.

Beth and Dayna, This is for You Both with Tight Hugs and Much Love!

Next, please click on the photograph below because I asked Stevie to call you and give you both a message from me. Are you near your telephones and ready to click on that photograph? All righty then. Hit it, Stevie!

And I Mean it From the Bottom of My Heart!

Your Pal Always,
Angel xoxoxoxox

PS. That photograph is a little over a quarter of a century old so I don't look nothin' like that no mo' at all.

[AngelCareOne]

Oh My Gosh! I found posts that I made about Alex both before and after he was abducted. If you're interested, please see below. I really want to write about my feather child here in this safe haven so that I may have those many posts in one place for me to read so please don't feel obligated to look. Honest. Still, here is what I've located so far.

Oh! I know where more is if it's still there. It's when I was expressing much concern about Alex mourning my late husband Kenny, missing Cocoa kitty and Trader (one of my rescued Greyhounds) dog when they passed away. Poor Alex was beside himself and still called out to them all many years later. Sometimes crying and sometimes as though he was playing with them. I'll see if I can't find that as well. Thanks so much for letting me write this "novel" to share and for my own benefit and ... Well, let me set it up a bit.

Here is the direct link to Ditto message board owned by my dear friend Julia (No! Not the "Julia" who is the owner of the management corporation of whom I've spoken and is one of the 3 culprits. This Julia lives in the UK and is so dear, sweet, loving, caring, compassionate and a darned good friend. Okay, the main URL Link to Ditto message board is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/bditto

The direct URL Link to the "Furry and Feathered Friends" forum is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/forums/19/t/Furry-Fe...ed-Friends.html

And the direct URL link to my posts and thread paying Tribute in Loving Memory to Alex is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2776/t/In-Lovi...loved-Alex.html

Go to page two, Post #16

FIRST COPY AND PASTED POST:

Re: In Loving Memory of my Most Beloved Alex
(Posted: 26 Nov, 2007 2:31 PM UK time which is approximately a 5 hour difference)

Firstly, I wish to express enormous gratitude for everyone caring so much, being so dear and supportive. When I say that mere words cannot express the extent of all facets of the relationship between Alex and myself, that is the understatement of the millennium ... Perhaps the understatement of the ages.

I've asked myself several times and given much, much thought to the following question: "Angel, if you could choose between bringing back from the dead your Mom, your Dad, your missing Brother (whom I have been told by several police officers, detectives, private investigators and so on is 99.99% most assuredly dead), your Sister or your Late Husband Kenny, OR Alex, who would you choose?"

The answer is most emphatically Alex and for many, many reasons so please don't think ill of me for choosing a companion parrot over a family member or the best husband that ever, ever walked this earth. Again, I do have very valid reasons as to why I would choose to bring back Alex,

I mention this to let you know just how much a part of me that he was. But! When a person grieves for the loss of a loved one and does not eventually accept the tragedy, get on with their lives and have those fond, wonderful, beautiful, magical, humorous and more ... Memories to carry them through then that person is really grieving for themselves and not the one who died. It's a "selfish" thing so to speak.

Why do I say that? It's because the dead loved one is gone, at peace either in Heaven or no continuation of sprit ("lights out, batteries dead") or has gone back to the stars of which we scientifically really do physically possess properties that comprise stars, or ... Just or. So, if we continue to be sad, grieve terribly, cry a lot ... Then we are doing so out of selfishness (so to speak) because we miss them and want them back. See? We are really grieving for ourselves because our dead loved ones "don't know no better" or are in a far better place.

Rudo's post to me is most significant. "Fond Memories!" They are gone but all the experiences of good, bad or ugly still remain in our thoughts and we can reminisce all we wish ... And that's a wonderful thing indeed!

I'm putting together different posts of "Alex" memories that will have you laughing in stitches, some that will make you say "Awww, how Dear." Some will have you say "That little Stinker, Bad Alex" and all will positively astound you! It helps me so much to share all about Alex and I am eternally grateful to you all for allowing me to do so!!!

I have many Websites that I'll share. Ask Jacqui Stafford because all the information completely blew her mind. Wow!!! You will find that all the Websites (including those you find on your own) do agree that Quakers have the intelligence, ability to understand (comprehend and respond appropriately) plus uncanny ways communicating (letting their feelings, desires and so on be known), behavior, emotions and intelligence of a "normal" four year old human child! Isn't that amazing! Well, you'll see it's ALL true when I share with you all that I wish about Alex.

Okay, this post taking on the length of a novel as I wax rhapsodic. LOL. I again wish to express my tremendous gratitude to all of you with a special Thank You to Rudo. Thank you so very, very much for your response! So special to me! Thank you!

Lastly, Julia? In that PM, you said you had *already* deleted the post you made in this thread "giving me hope" after I responded to you that Alex is 150% gone and/or a 99.99% dead. You did agree with me emphatically. Sweetie, you forgot to delete that post. Would you please do that now? Hugs!

Many Bright Blessings of Love, Light and Laughter to All!!!

NEXT POST:

Same thread as above and direct link is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2776/t/In-Lovi...lex.html?page=3

Posted by me on 6 Dec, 2007 11:01 PM UK time - Again, there is about a 5 hour difference from where I am in the US.

In Loving Memory of my Most Beloved Alex Post #23

Well, let me tell ya, Julia. And, yep. He sure knew exactly what those words meant. I had my first retired Greyhound dog that I'd adopted when I met my late husband Kenny and we both got Alex and Tanzie together as babies. Maiden had bad nightmares but I was able to pet her, wake her, soothe her and pet her when she screamed in her sleep.

After Maiden died, Kenny and I adopted another Greyhound named Trader. Poor Trader had nightmares, too. I still remember the first and ONLY time I tried to pet him and gently shake him as I soothed him with my voice. He was still in a "sleep state" so growled and tried to bite me. Very unlike him so that's how I knew that Trader was not awake yet. After that, whenever Trader would have a nightmare I'd keep a fair distance and yell out as nicely as possible, "Traaaderrrr! Traaaderrrr! Wake Up! Wake up!" Here is where I would clap my hands as loudly as I could and keep talking. "You're having a bad dream! It's just a bad dream, Baby! Traaaderrrr! Traaaderrrr! Wake up! Wake up!" And, I'd clap my hands some more. Yes, I was shouting so Trader could hear me over his nightmare and wake up and that's why I clapped my hands as hard as I could. Poor doggie.

The first thing that Alex learned was to click (actually "pound") his beak on his nest box to imitate me when I clapped at those times. Then, Alex learned on his own from hearing me to yell out, "Wake up! Wake up!" Of course, he would click his beak on his nest box in-between every two calls of, "Wake up!" Soon, Alex learned to recognize when Trader was sleeping and having a nightmare due to the poor dear whimpering, crying or screaming in his sleep. That's when Alex, all on his own, would start shouting as loud as he could and very, very clearly, "Traaddderrrr! Traaddderrr! Wake up! Wake up!" Alex would use his beak and pound as loud as he could on his nest box to wake up Trader. Bless his heart.

Once Alex was certain that Trader was awake and looking at him, he'd say something like, "Hello, Traaderrrr! Hello. What about that? What about that? Okay? Okay?" In other words, Alex would try to say something "conversational" to Trader dog to make sure all was well. Alex was very, very Loving that way. He really was.

I'll bet you'd love to know how Alex knew what was meant by, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Sometimes, he'd say it louder than other times. He learned the words from me when I'd accidentally turn and smack him and feel gosh awful because I didn't see him. I'd snatch him up in my hands and tell him, "Alex, Alex, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" From there, Alex learned by observing me, Kenny, other people, the television (oh yeah, they do pick up words and phrases from television) and put it together to comprehend that "I'm sorry" is an expression of regret, remorse or sympathy. And, that's how he always used that phrase, too. Amazing feather kid. It's pretty much the same way a 3 or 4 year old child learns the meanings of words and phrases.

Alex knew right away the meaning of, "Don't do it" ... And, he always used that phrase and other phrases correctly. He figured out on his own what "Want some" means. It didn't have to be just food either. If he "desired" something then he "Want some" or wanted some. He always said "Hello" or "Hi" as a greeting (until later and I'll get to that) and "Good Bye" but usually "Bye Bye" when Kenny or I or the both of us left the house. Once home again and walking through the door, Alex would begin with his, "Hello! Hello!"

As for the, "Hi!" Well, on occasion he would say "Hi" pretty loud to get my attention especially if I was on the phone. Ask Irene. LOL! It's like a small child pulling on your skirt and trying to get your attention. LOL! Next, I'll tell you what I always said and did once he was older and pulling a temper tantrum just for attention. You'll love that. Hehe!

So sorry not to have written back earlier but my PC bit the dust and I have indeed lost EVERYTHING and I do mean EVERYTHING in my files. Oy. Well, today is another day.

Later and Hugs!

NEXT POST: I made this post long before those 3 ... Did what they did. I was telling everyone about My Alex Feather Child. Here's the direct URL link to Ditto message board ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2826/t/My-Parrot-Alex.html

12 Jun, 2006 4:49 AM UK Time

Alex just turned 14 years old May 1st of this year and is REALLY smart! Quakers have the intelligence and emotional equivalent to a 4 to 5 year old human!!! Wow!!! I can actually carry a pretty intelligent conversation with Alex because he DOES KNOW the meaning of what is being said to him and he KNOWS what he is saying in response! Remarkable!!!

He loves to talk a LOT and does tricks.

Hmmm? What are some of Alex's favorite phrases? He says SO MUCH that I KNOW I'm leaving out a TON! LOL! But here are some ...

What are ya doin'?
What about that?
Common Alex
Common, Common
Alllllllleeeee******xx, Alllllllleeeee******xx
Mama
I'm Sorry, I'm so sorry!
Don't do it!
Stop it!
Please? Pretty Please?
Thank you!
Traaaddderrrrr .... Traaaddderrrrr
Cocoa. Cocoa.
Hi!!!
I Love You!
Gimme Kiss! (Then makes a kissing sound.)
Wake up! Wake up!
Hello
Bye bye
Good bye
Good Boy
Want some?
And, of course, a lot of conversations.

Ut Oh! Ut Oh! (Then he usually starts "crying" on his own. So cute.)
Tell him: "Gimme Kiss. Gimmie Kiss." (He makes kissing sound) Then say in slightly higher pitched voice, "Thank ... You!" (Still not in "baby talk.")

HIS FAVORITE!!!!
"Be a duck. Be a duck. Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack!"

All of the above, he loves to say over and over for about 5 to 10 times but the "Be a duck" thing, he will do a lot longer. LOL!

(Say in low sexy voice ...) "Hellloo Baaabbyyy" - he will repeat. Also does it on his own.

Make a kissing sound and say, "I love you" and he will do it in return. He also does that on his own. In fact, he does ALL of these on his own except the burping imitation. He'll start crying, laughing and coughing on his own, for example.

He will call out to "Kenny," Sometimes Sounds like "Kidddnnnnneeeyyyyyy! Kidddnnnnneeeyyyyyy!" Other times it will be very clear and urgent. "Kenny! Kenny! Kenny! Kenny! Kenny!"

He loves to play back and forth with you saying defiantly, "Uhnn Unnnnnnnn!!!" And He will say, "Uhhh Huhhhhnnnnn!!!" Over and over and over, back and forth. So funny! A riot!

He says "Shut up" on his own if he hears anyone curse in person on TV or the radio. Didn't get it from me. I don't know how it happened but he does it every single time. LOL!

Crying, Laughing, Coughing, Purrs like a cat, Rings like a phone and loves doing that! Many times it fools me! LOLOL! If you clear your throat, he will imitate you. If you burp, he will imitate that, too. He LOVES to Burp!!!!!! ROFL!!!!

Gosh, he says SO MUCH more. OH! He sings, "Lullaby of Broadway" but only these words:

"Common along and listen to
The lullaby of Broadway

The la di da and bali hoo
The lullaby of Broadway

Goooood Niiiiight Baaaabyyyy
Goooood Niiiiight
Milkman's on his way.

Sleeeeeppp Tiiiggghtttt Baaabyyyyy
Sleeeeeppp Tiiiggghtttt
Let's call it a day."

He's begun to finish with, "Welcome to the Lullaby of Oldddd Broaddd Wayyyy!" Still, he can't carry a tune. My POOR ears! LOLOL!!!

His best trick is to play dead. He will lie flat on his back in my hand while I move my hand back and forth and up and down and all around. He won't move no matter how much I call to him to wake up and move ... Until I say, "Code Red!" And do a raspberry on his belly. Then he'll suddenly come back to life. Wooo! LOLOL!

He also stands on his head ... And he does some somersaults so to speak. Alex will do some other acrobatics as well.

Ummm? There's SO MUCH MORE! I just can't recall everything right now. You know the "yes" sound you make when you go, "Un hun?" Well, when you ask him yes or no questions, he will either answer "Un huh" (Yes) or "Un Unn" (No). And he means it ... Most of the time. True!!!!!!

He also lets you know exactly what he wishes when he wishes it. He doesn't always get it but he'll sure let you know.

I'll try to remember more and tell you. I hope you enjoyed.

PS. He does say "S of a B" and a couple other things that he didn't get from me. Honest! <<Blush!!!>>

Hmmm ... Let me see if I can find a better photo. BRB ...

PS. About a month ago, I started teaching him the song, "Daisy, Daisy" ("Bicycle Built for Two") and he's picking it up really great! Also, he stays more in tune with the melody, thank goodness. LOLOL!!!

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Re: My Parrot, Alex!
12 Jun, 2006 5:16 AM UK TIme - Approximately 5 hours difference from where I am in the US.

IMPORTANT NOTE: The following Alex "Look Alikes" were because my PC had gone corrupt and I lost EVERYTHING in my files. Since then, I got pretty much most of the important stuff back. Yay!

All of these Quaker Parrots (also known as Monk Parrots) look like their eyes are so small. Alex has larger eyes that look like this ...



Here are a few other Quaker Parrot photos that look just like my Alex feather kid ...





Oh, I LOVE this one! ...



And this one has its feathers all fluffed up and looks like its ready for a nap. Awwww ...



Okay, that's all for now. I hope you all enjoyed!

Me Angel talking again. There are about 3 more pages of Quaker parrot discussion and photographs at the same URL Link I gave up at the top.

Thank you all so much for letting me share! Much Gratitude, Many Blessings and Hugs!!!

Always,
Angel xoxoxoox

PS. Please pardon all typos and I'll repair any URL Links if I got them mixed up. Thanks again so much to everyone!

[AngelCareOne]

I found the other post from April of 2006. Even though I'm talking with Debbie, Tracey and Sherry, I'm only going to copy MY posts ... Just for now. I may edit later. I've known Debbie and Tracey for about 10 years and they are great friends. Sherry is a treasure and I've known her for close to 5 years. Here is the link to the message board ...

http://thecatbirdseat.yuku.com/directory

And the direct link to the thread where I'm expressing much concern about Alex parrot and Buddy dog ...

http://thecatbirdseat.yuku.com/topic/3556

Since the above forum is private and password protected, you may not be about to enter. Below, I'll copy and paste my posts and the dates I made them THANKS FOR ALLOWING ME TO PUT ALL THIS INFORMATION HERE. BLESSINGS!!!

Thread Title: "Another Whine, Please Forgive - Alex and Buddy"

04/18/06 13:56:03

Early this morning out of nowhere, Alex began with, "Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! Ouch!" Then his crying sounds. He repeated this several times. I checked him over and ... couldn't find anything wrong. Perhaps he was trying to get attention? Express unhappiness? However, I feel he may have been in some sort of pain somewhere and expressing it. BUT! Later, he was talking and singing with happy tones. Still, I'm concerned. Should I be? PS. He's on my shoulder now giving me kisses and talking to me. No, he really is. Not a hallucination.

Buddy ... Excuse me ... I'm crying but will try my best to type. *Pause* Ever since I've not been able to walk him, he's been so understanding. He'll sleep on the sofa or floor or by the sliding glass door looking outside.

He always goes to the sliding glass back door to tell me when he needs to go out to do his business then let's me know when he wants back in. He jumps and wags his tail and I pet and "rough him up" playfully then give him a cookie. (Doggie biscuit.)

The last couple of days, he's made it clear in his body language that he is begging to be walked. *Pause* Last night he asked to go outside and I let him. I waited a very long time and checked up on Buddy. I slid open the door and asked him if he wanted to come inside. No, he didn't. He expressed again how badly he wanted to go for a run on the common grounds. *Pause* I told him how sorry I am and closed the sliding glass door.

Buddy then spent the night outside on the outdoor "rug" right up against the sliding glass door on the outside. I did check on him to make sure he was there and the gate had not been opened for his escape. I let him sleep outside until he asked to come in again this morning. Again, he begged to go for a walk and run.

Poor Buddy! He's been so patient but he yearns so very badly to run and play again out on the common grounds. I NEED to get him out there! He's gotten even fatter. I am having thoughts that Buddy knows his health is at stake and NEEDS to go running for exercise or his heart will fail.

*Tears* Sorry, so very sorry everyone. Please, what am I to do? I don't know what to do. Buddy is in very desperate need of running and losing weight or I am cutting years away from his life span and his physical heart is suffering. What am I to do?

Thank you for listening to me. Love to all!

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(04/18/06 15:11:43

Update: Just this moment, Alex in his nest box cried out, "Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow!" And started crying again. It lasted about a minute. Then he began to make happy chirps and sounds. Then came the "Ut Oh! Ut Oh! Ut Oh!" Then he started calling out, "Cocoa! Cocoa! Cocoa!" (My kitty before Styx.) Then came "S of a B! S of a B! S of a B!" Then more calling of Cocoa and then more chirping. Then crying again.

Is he trying to tell me something? Usually what he says holds meaning except for those times when he's just playfully messing around and I can tell those times after ... it will be 14 years this May 1st.

Now he is very silent. No sounds at all. I'm going to lift the lid to the nest box and check on him. BRB ... Never mind, he heard me coming, came out of the nest box and is perching on the gate of his cage. He has an odd expression of face and body and NO! Not a delusion. I can definitely tell. I mean about the odd expression. WTH?

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04/18/06 22:19:24

I've been reading, researching and studying websites for hours today to try and figure out what Alex was expressing and I feel I've possibly figured it out.

Here again is what happened: "Just this moment, Alex in his nest box cried out, "Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow! Ow!" And started crying again. It lasted about a minute. Then he began to make happy chirps and sounds. Then came the "Ut Oh! Ut Oh! Ut Oh!" Then he started calling out, "Cocoa! Cocoa! Cocoa!" (My kitty before Styx.) Then came "S of a B! S of a B! S of a B!" Then more calling of Cocoa and then more chirping. Then crying again."

*From all I read including many, many case histories I've reached a theory.

Something triggered Alex's memory regarding Cocoa. Back when Cocoa kitty got sicker and sicker many years ago, Alex was very upset. Alex tried to comfort Cocoa, he cried, he used his words that he does to express pain (Ouch! Ow!) and "Oh No!" (Ut Oh!) expressions. That was back then.

Alex still calls out Cocoa's name often but not everyday since the day Cocoa died. Alex misses Cocoa. You should have seen them together. Very loving, caring, playing together ... more. Alex remembers this. Of course he does. He remembers Maiden dog and Trader Dog. He calls about every day, "Trader! Trader! Wake up! Wake Up!" over and over while clicking his beak loudly on his wooden nest box to help "wake up Trader dog."

My theory is that Alex was thinking about Cocoa, missing him, remembering how sick and in pain he was. There comes the multiple calls of, "Ow" over and over. The crying either because he's sad that Cocoa was in pain or because he misses Cocoa. The, "Ut Oh! Ut Oh!" may be Alex's memory reliving that point in time and that is his Oh No expression.

OR, the, "Ut Oh! Ut Oh!" over and over could have been Alex expressing that the memory is painful to relive because he did then cry afterwards. Then came the multiple, "S of a B!" Alex only says that when he's angry. However, in this case, I tend to believe it was an expression of him being upset and frustrated.

He then became completely silent but came out of his nest box and perched onto the gate of his cage with the odd facial expression and body language. My theory was that he was expressing stress due to his reliving what happened.

I can hear you now. Anthropomorphism. Not so. I can link you to research and actual case studies which prove the parrot's incredible cognition and ability to understand what they are saying, form new phrases to fit the occasions, more. Oh sure, lots of times they're just talking to amuse themselves but they really are capable of carrying on a very simple conversation. That, I do know from Alex. I kid you not.

Okay, back to your regularly scheduled program.

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04/19/06 10:05:31

Sherry, I've tried over and over again to play fetch with Buddy dog but he's so stupid! I'll toss his favorite rubber hamburger toy and tell him, "Get it, Buddy! Get it! Bring it here! Bring it here!" Buddy is thrilled, runs enthusiastically after the toy but then sits and plays with it every single time instead of bringing it back for me to throw it again so he can fetch back and forth. Silly dog. Arg! I'll keep trying but this has been going on for years. LOL!

Oh, I'll play tug of war with his ropie, too. I try to give him as much activity as I'm able but he's still getting fatter and fatter which concerns me so much. He really, really needs to go out running, jumping in the lake and romping ... And all that stuff.

As for Alex - Yes, he may very well be having memories of Cocoa and missing him. OR Alex is picking up vibes about my own health. BUT! When I'm sick, Alex always comes over to me and says, " Momma, Momma! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" After that comes the "(Kissing Sound) I love you! (Kissing sound) I love you! (Kissing Sound) I love you!" Over and over. Then he snuggles up to me and becomes very cuddly and makes purring sounds just like a cat (I kid you not!) as though trying to make me feel better.

Alex has done that for over 12 years whenever I'm not feeling well. So, I'm sort of leaning towards him remembering and missing Cocoa kitty.

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04/20/06 20:48:08)

Poor, Poor Alex. It's after 11:40 PM where I am. Alex is in his cage. Calling out again "Ow!" over and over and over. Then calling for "Cocoa" repetitively and crying a whole bunch and coughing (he's not coughing, it's his coughing sound and very convincing indeed).

I am going to call an Aviary Veterinarian tomorrow, explain what's been going on and my "special cir%%stances" to see if I can beg some free advice as to how to help poor Alex. This is the second time today that he did his Ow and crying and Cocoa kitty calling.

There must be something that the Aviary Veterinarian can advise me to do to help poor Alex.

Thanks for listening, everyone.

PS. Ut Oh ... He's doing it again right now. My poor darling feather child.

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04/21/06 08:11:36)

No, not to get attention. He may even have been asleep and dreaming. Whenever he does the, "OW, Cocoa, Crying" thing. I don't ever call to him to comfort him. Never. I pay attention and ... just listen. So, if he's doing it to get my attention, he's never accomplished it.

Whenever Alex wants my attention, he calls out, "Mamma, Mamma. What are ya doin'? What are ya doin'?" And, "What about that? What about that?" Also, "Awwex, Awwex. Common, Common. Common Awwex." He doesn't pronounce Alex very well. However his other words are very, very clear. Oh, and there's the, "Be a duck. Be a duck. Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack!" I think that's his favorite. LOL.

No, Sherry and Debbie. I stay put. I don't run over to him. I say and do nothing. I've told you what he does whenever I'm sick, stressed or sad and it's completely different behavior and language. This poor bird is stressed and having memories I believe. I need to find out how to help him.

Remember, he lost his mate (actually 'friend') of 9 years ... Amber ... Several months ago due to sudden death due to her having become egg bound. Funny thing, he's never expressed missing her though. Well, she wouldn't allow him to "do it" with her. She nagged him a lot, picked fights with him when he tied to be affectionate with her, kicked him out of the nest box at night so she could have it for herself and he had to sleep in the cage and on and on and on. He may have been relieved that she was gone even though he did stick to me like GLUE for the first three weeks or so after she died. Then, he was fine. Poor Amber. She screamed at about 7:30 AM that morning, I ran to the nest box, lifted it, she was on her back, moved only slightly then was gone. Yes, I cried but I was "okay."

She had been displaying "nesting behavior" for three days prior yet had not laid eggs in years. I should have known something was wrong. I could have helped her by applying medication to where the egg comes out (using a Q-Tip as I'd done in the past with lovebirds having trouble laying eggs) as well as certain oils by mouth. I just wish I would have known she was egg bound.

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(04/21/06 08:53:09)

Latest Update: I couldn't find the Aviary Veterinarian that treated Alex when he broke his leg in two as a baby BUT! I did find a Veterinarian Bird Specialist: A Dr. Doering. She is female. I sort of like that.

I spoke with the receptionist and explained my "special cir%%stances" only to the degree that "I'm disabled, have no transportation and can't get out of the house." I explained that Alex was in great physical health but appears to be having some sort of stress and that I'm not quite sure how to address it.

I didn't go into detail with the receptionist but told her I could explain fully to whomever could be of service and if Dr. Doering would consider a phone ... WAIT! The phone just rang. It was the receptionist again and she wished me to go into detail regarding Alex's behavior which I did as briefly as possible. She took notes and said that Dr. Doering would get back with me. That it may not be today as Dr. Doering is on her way out the door but that she will get back to me.

If this Alex thing persists and Dr. Doering hasn't called me by Monday, I'll call the office again and very, very nicely ask if the doctor has come up with any thoughts. You know ... Just to remind them.

Thanks again and love to you all!

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(04/21/06 18:19:50)

{{{{{Debbie}}}}}} When I was doing those hours of googling and research to try and figure out what Alex was trying to convey to me, I ran into a website of a Quaker who looks just like Alex and is THIRTY- FIVE YEARS OLD! Oh my gosh! Now, I'm concerned that I'll die before Alex and then ... You see, it's a well know phenomenon that birds are known to become depressed, grieve terribly, get very ill and even die from grief when separated from one with whom they've bonded. I truly believe Alex and others like him are capable of real love. You know, like elephants, primates, dolphins and so many other creatures.

Yep, I can give Alex some bread. He LOVES to take a strip of bread, dunk it in his water then bring it back to his food dish and eat it. YUM! You should have seen him many, many years ago when he first discovered that he liked the bread better dunked in water. He would put the piece of bread in his water dish, let go of it, then it would get soaked and sink to the bottom and he couldn't get it. Poor thing! Well, he learned fast and holds onto the bread with his beak or claw after the first couple of "sinking episodes" (usually beak) when he dunks it into the water.

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04/21/06 18:44:07)

Oh My Goodness! I just did a brief google to determine the life span of a Quaker Parrot. THIRTY-FIVE TO FORTY YEARS AND POSSIBLY LONGER!!! Here's and interesting snippet:

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Quaker Parakeets (usually referred to as parrots) are very intelligent little animals. Owners often report logical reasoning in them. For example, they will call their owners' names to get their attention. Then they declare whatever it is they would like to express using unrelated words and phrases that they have been taught, which are shockingly appropriate to the particular situation!

Quaker Parakeets are also great at mimicking noises, and can imitate human speech, other birds and animals, and squeaky doors or household noises. They will even compose song, setting their favorite phrases to simple tunes they know!
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I only googled that one website. Here's the link with a photo of Alex times two at the top. They look exactly like him before his plumage got all scruffy ...

Quaker Parrots

I suppose it could be worse. The life span of an African Grey Parrot is 50 to 65 years and a Macaw can easily live to be 80 years and beyond. Not the mini-macaw who lives to about 40 years or so.

Some birds sure do live a long time!

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04/22/06 12:33:13

Debbie, it IS incredible! You would be so very, very surprised hearing Alex making small talk and chatting with me. He even answers my questions. I kid you not!

Sherry, many macaws can be very nasty and unfriendly. They're not known to be "nice" to their owners or others. And, like some humans, they get grumpier, more demanding and nasty as they get older. And boy do they reach a very old age!

Your Severe and Military Macaws are incorrigible! Most Blue and Gold macaws are nice and sweet birds but they are the most expensive. VERY expensive!

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(04/22/06 22:41:11)

{{{{{Tracey}}}}} When I became ill to the point that I could no longer walk Buddy, G***xx would walk him every day. I can't remember how long that went on. 1 year or 2? Like I keep saying, I have no concept at all of time.

Then G***xx developed the huge cantaloupe sized Spindle Cell Sarcoma cancerous tumor on her leg in the front above the knee. Well, I've told you all about her multiple surgeries, shattering her knee cap and needing that surgically repaired (she STILL has to wear that removable cast ALL the time except when sleeping), her long term inpatient chemotherapy then all of her radiation treatments.

In short, from the day the tumor developed and she was in pain, I simply refused to let her walk Buddy because Buddy could injure G***xx. Of course, after everything else, there's no way on earth G***xx can walk Buddy.

The only other person in this complex that I know is the "drug begging" R****** that I told you all about. The one begging me to give her my medications. I think you remember that. Other than G***xx and R******, the others I knew have moved and there are other people living in those units. Also remember I don't like people to see me because of my hideous appearance so I hide inside when people are around except for G***xx who loves me anyway.

So, no, I don't know anyone at all that can walk Buddy. I've been keeping him as active as possible inside the house but it's nowhere, and I mean NOWHERE near enough. He NEEDS to go running and swimming. Tracey, he is SO FAT. He's going to die from congestive heart failure. I've read up on this and that's what happens when dogs don't get enough exercise and become so obese.

Please forgive. Can't talk more about it right now. Will try to talk more again. I love you!

The End At This Time.

Me Angel talking again now. Thank you all again so very, very much for allowing me to find my voice and do%%ent all this information here. Me thinks it will soon come in handy for printing out and ... You get the idea. Thanks Bunches!

Tight Hugs and Much Love!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Hello, Precious Alex. Here's one of your favorite poems because you loved the pink glitter in the pretty picture at the top and laughed so hard at the one on on the bottom. I can hear you laughing still.

Enjoy, most cherished Feather Child. I Love You!!!

"Divertissement"
By: AngelCareOne

With ballet shoes tied carefully,
To dance and twirl so gracefully.

Hands like feathers caress air.
A poem by dance unfolds with care.

Leaping, jumping, Pirouette.
Plié, Jeté and then Fouetté.

Shall I perform a Pas de Deux?
Perhaps a simple Coda, too.

And now the Pièce de Résistance.
Will captivate my audience!

To find out what that move will be
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[AngelCareOne]

I brought you a real treat my Sweet Baby Alex. You're gonna love this! Buddy dog sure does. Awww! Lookie at how all the fur kid doggie expressions match perfectly with every line James Taylor sings in this song. So Very Adorable! Yep, they really are always there for us, My Precious Feather Child.

And Alex: You've Got a Friend! I Love You!!!

Please Click on the Smiling Pooch.

"You've Got a Friend"

When you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand and nothing, whoa nothing is going right. Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there to brighten up even your darkest night.

You just call out my name and you know wherever I am I'll come running, oh yeah baby, to see you again. Winter, Spring, Summer, or Fall. All ya got to do is call. And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah. You've got a friend!

If the sky above you should turn dark and full of clouds and that old north wind should begin to blow, keep your head together and call my name out loud, now!

Soon I'll be knocking upon your door.

You just call out my name and you know where ever I am I'll come running, oh yes I will, to see you again. Winter, spring, summer or fall. All ya got to do is call. And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend?

People can be so cold. They'll hurt you and desert you. Well, they'll take your soul if you let them. Oh yeah, but don't you let them.

You just call out my name and you know wherever I am I'll come running to see you again. Oh babe, don't you know that Winter, Spring, Summer, or Fall. Hey now, all you've got to do is call. Lord, I'll be there! Yes I will.

You've got a friend.
You've got a friend, yeah.

Ain't it good to know you've got a friend?
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend?
Oh yeah, yeah! You've got a Friend!

[AngelCareOne]

Sweet Loving Alex, you never knew that this is such a sad song. How you loved the pretty melody and were starting to sing along with the video. What a dear soul you were. And the paintings delighted you so much. Wow! So many beautiful colors and most of them very lovely scenes. So, I'm going to put this here just for you, Sweetie. Enjoy the lovely music, the pictures and Be Happy! I Love You So Much!!!

Please Click on the "Starry Night" Painting

"Vincent" ("Starry, Starry Night")

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul

Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds and violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue

Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artists' loving hand

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
And how you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They're not listening still
Perhaps they never will ...