I Am Very Lonely Already Options

[havana]

A letter to Buster, my Son, every breath you take trying to get some oxigen from your nose and since you can't I can see the pain in your eyes and it feels like someone is stabbing me with it a nife right in my heart, it is so painful to see you like this that I can't stand it any longer and would give away all my posetions if I have too just to see you the way you were. I don't know why but every time I talk to you lately you just don't want to look at my face any more and want just to go away from me [is this you telling me to give up on you?] Son, you don't have to feel ashamed of your condition I love you just the way you are but please give a chance to see if I can safe your precious life. I have heard once someone saying "I would give my dog away for a million dollars" but "I would give a million dollars to get my dog back" that is how much I love you and always will, am so sorry this is happening to us, love you always Papa Jorge .

[myhrtisbrkn]

Tomorrow's your big day guys. I am praying you get the answers we all want to hear. I'm sending you my guardian angels to watch with you til then.

God send you healing and comfort,
Love from me,
dayna

[goliath]

Hi Jorge and Buster. I wish you a peaceful night's rest as I know you are anxiously awaiting tomorrow's visit with the specialist. You are in my prayers tonight right at the top of my list!

Much love and lots of hugs to both of you!!!
Beth

[havana]

Hello to every Mom, Dad and Kids, today it will be another very tough day for me. As you know today is the 17th of June the day My son Buster had his appointment with the Specialist Surgeon (Dr. Estrin). After some paper work and discussion, he looked at the x-rays and examined him. Dr. Estrin told me that he most likely does have Nasal Cancer and would try removing as much Tumor Tissue and Dried Blood as possible that it's blocking his air ways not thru Surgery he will try to remove as much as he can thru his Nostrils and do some more testing instead of putting him to sleep. He also said he has a heart murmur. The Dr. is also going to do blood tests and check the lymph nodes and do more testing on his heart, lungs and other organs. The Dr. will call me later in the afternoon but may keep him for the night just in case of some bleedings. I am impatiently waiting... as you know. It was very hard for me to leave him behind at that Hospital which is about Forty Five minutes to an hour from our house [he did not wanted to stay] of course I was crying like crazy but we need it to do it this way in order to make him breath better, kissed and hugged him a lot until they came for him by a Nurse, I cleaned his eyes and she took him away while he was walking he was looking at me like crying and saying please don't leave me here. That is the first step so far. The second step will be the Radiaction if nothing wrong is in the way. Please keep Praying for him that everything will be all right, impatiently waiting, love to every body from Buster and Jorge .

[myhrtisbrkn]

Jorge,


It sounds like Buster is in very good hands, and is going to get some help. I am feeling very hopeful, based on what we know so far...but I'm still praying like mad

Love to you both,
Dayna

[LoveThem]

Jorge:

I am so glad Buster was able to keep his appointment and the doctor has things to try..which could make all the difference in the world..and that he did not just say there was nothing to be done...he DID NOT say that.

I know it is hard to leave Buster at the vet's but there is where he can be helped with his breathing, etc., until the doctor finds the best way to make it better so he can come home.

When you feel anxious...take a breath and remember WHY he is there....in other words..remember the things you wrote about how much it pained you to see him try to breathe and you could not sleep. If he was home right now...he would not be better so that is why you had to leave him there so he could be helped. Just keep reminding yourself of that....I know it is still hard to do but it may help you.

Like I said before I read very good things about using radiation..in one case...it added 4 more years of being together...I know each case is different but you just never know....it sounds hopeful but the vet is still testing. No matter what...you know that by Buster being with the doctor...he will be made as comfortable as possible.

My prayers are still with you and Buster as are the same from so many here. I am glad you came here and let us know what is happening.

If for any reason Buster has to stay there a few days, I remember I was allowed to visit my dogs when they had to stay to be checked out so you should be able to see Buster if he has to stay a few days for testing.....at least it doesn't hurt to ask.

I pray the doctor continues to have positive news for Buster and you. Hugs to both of you.

[myhrtisbrkn]

I know this has been so hard on you wait so long for help; he's been so sick and you've been so frightened and worried. Try to present as calm, and confident a face as you can to Buster. He's likely as worried about you as he is about himself. He knows how deeply you love him, he needs to feel that there is hope for you both.

Love and prayers,
Dayna

[havana]

Thank you all of you that takes the time and effort to confort and follow me and my Buster in this hard tough times for us, appreciate and telling you this is from the bottom of my heart. The house seems very empty now, when I came back from the Hospital and parked my car and got into the house I felt the absency of my Son and just losted again for a while, then when out to my patio and sat there the whole afternoon 'cause I felt the need to be outside since it is such a beautiful day today here and since I was all alone. I just had a phone call from the Hospital where Buster is and the Dr. said that he had removed as much Tissue as he could thru his Nostril to improve his brething and told me that I could go there and pick him up but he prefered for me to let him to spend the night just in case of some more bleddings and help him to keep the inflamation down since there's people there all night to look over him. He also told me he was awake already and planning to feed him tonight in the early evening [knowing how much he loves to eat he most be starving] and that he will call me tomorrow around 8:00am to tell me at what time am supposed to pick him up when I finish at work, thank you guys again, I know it will be a bit lonely for me tonight and we both will miss each other's company but I know he well taking care off, Love and Bless to you all from Buster and Jorge .
Here is the list of things they did today for him.
Measure the size of the tumors and felted it, more x-rays to all over his organs inside.
Blood test, checked heart and some other things I honest don't remember right now since I was so scare.
Removed tumor's tissue as much as he could and kept a piece to find out what kind of cancer it is [if there is any he said] I will keep you in informed as much as I can since you care so much about us and that makes me feel much better, until tomorrow, always Buster and Jorge.

[myhrtisbrkn]

Jorge,

Thanks so much for the update...I've been so worried. But I'm feeling more hopeful ( cautiously optimistic as the politicians like to say ). At the very least he will be breathing easier, and you can relax a little knowing he's being cared for by experts. So try and get some rest and just picture him being waited on like a little furry king.



Still praying,
Dayna

[goliath]

You are not alone tonight Jorge. All of us are with you.

It was just last month I had my Gidget in and had a tumor removed from her lymphnode. We were blessed in finding it was benign. Two summers ago she had another tumor at the base of her tail that was cancer. We caught it early enough that it had not spread and was contained only in that area. Miracles do happen sometimes.

I pray your sleep is peaceful tonight as you dream of Buster and all the wonderful times you and he have shared and will continue to share together.

Sleep well my friend...Thanks for the update and God bless.

[LoveThem]

Jorge: Thank you for the update. We have been worried right along with you. That is good news that the vet feels confident enough about things for Buster to be at home with you and it sounds like he is checking everything and trying to do everything he can think of to help Buster.

I am glad you are leaving him there as the doctor suggested so they can keep an eye on him...that way it keeps you from worrying should something have happened at home that concerned you.

It sounds like you and Buster will be together again soon and he should be breathing easier which should make him feel a lot better and it is good for the doctor to keep looking to see what is happening so he can treat it more if necessary.

Hugs to you and Buster and there are many prayers surrounding the both of you asking that you two be given much more time together.

Please keep us updated as you have time.

[havana]

Love Them, goliath, myhrtisbrkn thanks again for having us in your strong prayers. Last night it was not very good for me and sure was not for my Son eather, just thinking about Buster without me in the back of the hospital made me feel guilty, finaly after being so worry and in tears went to sleep around 3:00am to be awaking by a nightmare of him trying to get a gasp of air "I heared it in my dream very clear" and start crying again and couldn't go back to bed thinking, just a few more hours we need to be together again. Around 8:00am had a phone call from the Dr. telling me that buster was awake but a bit sleepy do to the operation's anestecia and will have some difficulties to breath thru the nose still do to the swelling inside the nose and that may have some bleedings and will take a couple of days maybe three for him to feel better and as you know the second step will be do next week for the the radiaction I ment. But he may bleeding sleepy and weak but one thing I tell you his appetite is huge, he ate all his favorite dinner boiled chicken [no skin] mixed with rice and of course planty of fresh water with ice-cubes in it [other wise will not drink it, spoil ah?, lol] he is not moving to much and resting on the kitchen floor [he is smart don't want to stain the carpet]. Well praying to God to help us out but we need to be pacient to work it out and planning to do so, love you all, lots of hugs from Buster and Jorge , , .

[goliath]

But he may bleeding sleepy and weak but one thing I tell you his appetite is huge, he ate all his favorite dinner boiled chicken [no skin] mixed with rice and of course planty of fresh water with ice-cubes in it [other wise will not drink it, spoil ah?, lol]

I'm glad to hear Buster is home once again with you Jorge. Both of you must feel much more comfortable. You have been in my prayers and will continue to be. Hang on to your hopes..........You and Buster made it through the first step. Next week will bring more answers.

It's great to hear Buster's appetite hasn't declined nor his water intake. The icecubes in the water remind me of when I put ice in Gidget's bowl of water when it is so hot outside. She tries to get ahold of them, much like bobbing for apples. The water gets in her nose and she starts blowing bubbles and snorts like a little pig.

God bless Jorge and Buster. May He bless you both and keep you safe.

Many hugs filled with love,
Beth

[myhrtisbrkn]

Jorge,

I know what it is to feel like only you are standing between one you love and death. The pressure of that is brutal and I was getting pretty worried about you.

Now you you have some expert help, we know Buster's condition is treatable. He should be breathing easier, and so should you...and I'm so relieved.

love to you both,
Dayna

[LoveThem]

Jorge

I am so glad to hear Buster is home and eating so well. The vet told you to expect Buster to feel better in 2 or 3 days as the swelling comes down..which should make him breathe even better. So he has to rest and recover and most important...be with you.

I know how wonderful you must have felt to be able to give him a big hug again. And, I always believe these babies heal faster and better at home where they are surrounded by love.....as long as the doctor feels it is okay to be there...so I am glad your new specialist felt it okay to bring Buster home.

Keep updating here and letting all of us know how Buster and you are doing each day when you have time.

We are sitting by your side 24/7 even if you cannot see us.

[Candy's Dad]

I'm so glad everything worked out and Buster is home again. I pray Candy will be well enough to come home too, but it's in God's hands now.

Take care

[havana]

Hello to you all, just got home as soon as I could to be with my Son Buster, no bleddings today and let him out for a while but he did not wanted to stay to long just enough time to do his business, then he ate his dinner and drank his ice-water and now it is resting next to my couch and the coffee table [his favorite place] he still not breathing well but like I said before we most be patient and let thing go slow and easy, as you know now we will wait for the second step which it will be on June 26th at 12:30pm for his radiaction treatment and I think they will keep him on the weekends but not sure how that works yet, thank you all of you that always take your precious time to wish us well, thank you again and we will keep in touch, always Buster and Jorge .

[goliath]

Thanks for the update Jorge. I will mark my calendar for the 26th at 12:30 P.M. You have the right idea and exercising patience and allowing everything to come slow and easy. The less anxious you feel.the less anxious Buster will feel.

Just keep doing everything that keeps you and Buster feeling comfortable together. It is so wonderful that he is eating and drinking because it's important his body is nourished well. I hope you are doing the same for yourself.

Hugs for both of you and an extra special belly rub for Buster.
Beth

[myhrtisbrkn]

Jorge,

I'm guessing that the treatment Buster received yesterday, may itself have resulted in a little swelling. As it heals that should go down very quickly. I'm
so happy for you both.

Give buster a great big hug,
Dayna

[havana]

To all of you that cared about my Son Buster he just past away at 12:50am about two hours ago and went to heaven, sorry can't talk right now and hope you will understand, one thing am going to say he died in my arms kissing and hugging him, am a mess right now and can't type any more, am so sorry, sad and angry, so lonely here I wish I had one of you here to give me some company, I know am not will be able to go to work today I will try to sleep on his bed around all his toys since I can still smell him, if someone care to call me on my cell phone please do I need to talk to somebody, bye, love, Jorge [314] 608-6494 jorgecuban@msn.com