Just Lost My Cat..., My 19 year old cat was hit by a car Options

[cfholden]

Thank you for your kind thoughts.
The latest most difficult thing is seeing ads on TV for either cat food, or holiday stuff, featuring a cat. And walking past the pet food aisle at the grocery store.
I know 19 years is a long time, and although Chris Craft was relatively healthy, he could have become sick and suffered and I am thankful he didn't suffer. At 19, every day was a blessing even though he was healthy. I am glad I spent as much time as I did with him.
I just miss him so much now. I hate that he's not here. And I am actually angry at God for allowing this to happen this way! A dumpster is so disrespectful. Every time I think of it, which is still way too often, I get weak and feel sick.
I've handled death before, but this dumpster business and sudden shock is really hard.
I am looking forward to "acceptance" and enjoying the memories. But I'm not there yet.

[LoveThem]

I love the picture you found to post of Chris Craft. I see the "dumpster" is hitting you really hard and I can understand that. There is another side to that I can think of that might help or not but if this thought is eating away at you....I will mention my thought..

While this does seem thoughtless and horrible and believe me, the whole situation was horrible, I have seen animals dead in the road and the longer they remain there the more cars that go by. I would appreciate it if my baby was not alive, if someone would have removed her from the path of other cars. I don't know who did that or if the one who did it actually stopped and got out of the car and saw no hope but wanted to preserve Chris Craft's dignity from other cars.

I don't know if this helps you but it is something I thought of when you first told your story. I wouldn't want my baby left lying there even if there was no hope and she was past pain and suffering.

No one knows what really happened but I hope you can get the horrible feeling about the dumpster out of your mind......you don't need to be more upset than you already are. I am so sorry for whatever your husband saw. It will take time for that to fade from his mind..unfortunately it can't be erased. I am sure he will never forget it but hopefully the times he remembers will be less and less.

Again, I am so sorry your baby had this happen. One of life's cruel actions.

[cfholden]

Thank you again for your thoughts.
I do understand what you are saying about someone not leaving Chris Craft in the road. And I definitely understand the horror of not knowing what had happened, or of him getting hit multiple times.
Ironically, it is normally a quiet street. But some cars careen around the corner not slowing down.
I am still torn up at the thought of my Husband finding him. And having to hold him, knowing he was dead. I was in bed waiting for him to bring Chris Craft home! Not this new news. My last sight was Chris Craft's furry back, in a bag in the back of the van.
We got the ashes last night. I must say they do a very respectful job. We put the little box on Chris Craft's bed for now. Eventually we'll have to find a place.
Poor little guy. We called him our little buddy. and he did love life.

[LoveThem]

When you mentioned your last sight....when you mentioned getting his ashes....one thought occurred to me..I hope you use it.



My baby is home now.



you know where he is and nothing can ever hurt him again. He is safe and at peace............and HOME!

Take Care.

[forduffy]

LoveThem-
Yes! That's what I felt. Now, the winter will not exacerbate his arthritis and make him cold. He is home and safe, finally! He can rest now.

[cfholden]

we had a little "service" for Chis Craft last night at the grassy spot where he spent most of his time sleeping in the sun, or in the shade under this deck in the hot summer. I made a scrap book finally and it helped. I went through 19 years of photos. What a trip through time. We served beer, fresca and chedder cheese cut up into little pieces (Chris Craft's favorite treat)
People came and brought flowers. I made a memorial sign. We shared memories. Even the mayor of my town came! (she is a major cat person and a friend..) still, I can't believe how much I miss Chris Craft. Almost 2 decades he's been with me and my husband. Our whole marriage so far!
I hope Chris Craft knew how much I loved him. I moved my office/work shop in 2003. My old office was right next to where I live and Chris Craft could be with me all day. But the building was old and leaked bad and when I was offered a newer better space for less rent I took it. But It is over 3 blocks away and involves a crossing a busy street. Too far to have let Chris Craft venture back and forth. Now I feel guilty for moving!!
Since 2003, I would spend more time with him in the morning before I left and more time in the evening but I miss those hours during the day. My husband works in another building next to where we live (honestly! We have no commute!) and Chris Craft spent a lot of daytime with him in the past couple of years. Either way, he was with one of us a lot of the time.

[annie's mommy]

Your story of Chris Craft is very sad. His picture is beautiful. Your memorial service sounds like it was comforting. I wish you well in your recovery.

sincere sympathy,
annie's mommy

[cfholden]

Hi Annie's mommie,
Thank you. Are you doing ok? I am so very sorry for your recent loss too. I now know how it feels. One day I'll be one of the one's with all the beautiful comforting words to share. We only had Chris Craft. People ask me if we are getting another cat. I don't know. I may need one to love but right now is not the time.

[annie's mommy]

CFHolden,

I have been trying to provide comforting words as I feel a deep compassion for all who post here who have their losses, but my wound is quite recent and very deep. I really don't feel very well now, thank you though. Your answer in itself is comforting. I have 2 surviving cats who I love and who need me, but My Annie was my heart. I will not be getting any others. I cannot take this loss. I wish you the best.

annie's mommy