Devastated, My baby Chino Options

[mychellea1]

I don't even know where to begin to talk about the sudden and tragic passing of my baby shih tzu, Chino. It's only been 3 days since he passed and I can't bring myself to come to terms with the fact that he's gone. I am in tears as I'm trying to write this post. We were in Vegas for the weekend with friends celebrating my husband's bday as well as my bday (today is actually my bday). We were all having a good time when my husband said it looked like his father tried calling him. We had left Chino with my husband's parents for the weekend. I immediately had a bad feeling in my stomach and went to check my cell phone. His father had tried calling me as well. It was 10:30 pm at the time. When I told my husband that his father had called me too. He immediately called his father back. His father had told him the news. It was between 8:30-9:30 pm. Chino was out in the backyard when he went to check on him. Chino will normally run up to you excited, wagging his tail and happy to see you and when that did not happen, my father-in-law panicked. He called out his name and went to check the gate to see if perhaps he had escaped. He checked all over the backyard and finally he saw Chino lying on their makeshift basketball court. He had blood all over him. It looked like he had been attacked by a coyote. My father-in-law tried to take him to the emergency room but it was too late. Chino had already passed. My father-in-law was in a panick trying to get a hold of us. He called and called and when we finally got the news, we went back to our room, packed our things and drove to his parents house. By the time we got there, it was 3:30 in the morning. My father-in-law came out crying, he could not sleep, he kept blaming himself for what had happened. When I went to check on Chino, he was wrapped in a blanket. It's all a blur now. I remember bending down, bawling, my husband crying, looking at Chino, blood, hugging him, kissing him, rubbing his legs. My mother-in-law hugging me trying to comfort me. We buried him the next morning. We went home to an empty house and all day I just cried and cried and cried. I'm still crying. Today is my bday and I can't even be happy. My baby Chino is not here w/me to celebrate. He hadn't even lived half his life yet. He was only 2 and half years old. I never understood the bond between a human and a dog until we had Chino. People would always ask us, when are you going to have kids? My answer would always be, "We have Chino." So now, not only are we a house without children, we are a house without Chino and I feel so empty inside. Our house is so quiet and I keep thinking Chino will come around the corner and want to play. He was such a good boy. Always so happy and excited to see us and we smothered him with our love & affection. He was our baby. I don't think any of my family or friends really understood how much Chino meant to us and so I came upon this site hoping to share my story and knowing that many of you all understand what my husband and I are going through. I don't know how long my grieving will last but thank you so much for letting me tell my story. I miss you Chino and I will always love you.