Today Was The Day, My Dixie Dog is gone Options

[PuppyMom]

I laid my beloved Dixie to rest today. The pain is unbearable, although her's was probably worse during the night last night. I didn't sleep at all. I laid on the kitchen floor with her. I knew by the morning that the time had come. The time I was dreading. I know she is out of pain now and that makes me feel better. The pain of not having her here with me is horrible.

She was a beautiful golden retriever with a smile that could melt your heart. I can't even believe she's gone. She has such a sweet soul. There is no replacing her. My three others will never take away the pain I feel from losing her. I will never be able to replace my others when they are gone either. (Please read more about her under the topic "tomorrow's the day.")

I wish you could all know Dixie. One of my big fears is that I won't remember every tiny little thing that Dixie did. Her sweet smile, the way she walked down the hall scratching her back on the wall all the way down, the way she always had to have something in her mouth when she greeted you, the way she tried to get well just for me, etc. She was an individual and I don't want to forget a single thing. Right now I want to mourn. I want to feel the pain. I miss her so much. Tomorrow morning when I get up I'm going to be horrified.

I sang a song while I was burying her in a very special place. Although I'm feeling horrible pain right now, I wouldn't trade those beautiful 10 years I had with her. It's all worth it. I would do it all again even if it hurt twice as bad. She was wonderful and I want to tell the whole world.

The song I sang as I laid her to rest went like this:

"I wouldn't have missed it for the world,
Wouldn't have missed loving you girl,
You made my whole life worth while,
With your smile.

I wouldn't trade one memory,
Cause you mean too much to me,
Even though I lost you girl,
I wouldn't have missed it for the world."

The joy I had with Dixie far outweighs the pain of her loss. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love you Dixie and may God bless you.

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