1 Year And 9 Days, but I have a band-aid now Options

[mosmommy]

Hello to all friends in grieving,
It has been a while since I needed to be here for giving or receiving comfort. I sought out a grief counselor last August, and she has helped me along, now I still see her for other life events.
Those who know me, know I lost my beloved Cosmo on May 24, 2005, to kidney failure. The pain was so hard to bear, and still is at times, and it forever changed who I was. I don't know if I am a better or worse person for it, but I believe all changes help us grow, no matter how painful they are. I still miss him like crazy, and I am anxiously awaiting for the Jacob's Ladder that I planted in his memory last June to bloom. Seeing that will bring a smile to my face, just as all of the wonderful memories of our 10 years together has done.
On January 11, 2006, I finally felt brave enough to reach out and open my home to a new loving soul. It was as if it was meant to be. I live in N.Y. so finding a new kitten at that time of year is not always easy. I called my vet to see if there were any bulletins, and lucky for me, there was a posting of 2 female kittens, and 1 male kitten free to a loving home. I called the number at 9:15 a.m. not actually expecting anyone to answer until after 5 or 6 p.m. To my surprise, she did. I told her that I wanted to come and see the male baby she had, and we agreed to meet at 11 a.m. When I got there, and saw him, LIGHTNING STRUCK! By 12:15 p.m. I had brought my new baby home. It took us several days to choose the right name, out of a list of 50, but we chose to name him Wilson- and it's perfect.
I just wanted to say to all out there, no matter where you are in your grief process, that I never thought I'd be able to love a new soul again after all the pain and heartache, but Wilson became my band-aid. Now he holds my heart together every day. I believe that Cosmo brought us together, for mutual need and love. It amazes me, but he has alot of similiar behaviors that my Mo did, although they never met in life. He makes us happier every day, and those are the smiles I'll cherish when it is his time to go to the Rainbow Bridge. ( Not for a long, long time, I pray).
I am putting up pics of my sweet Wilson, who is now 9 months old- he's just beautiful!
Take care all of you who are in such pain, and know that there is light at the end of the dark tunnel.
Peace and Love,
Michelle

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[Jake'sMom]

OH, Wilson is just a sweetie! I'm so glad you got your "Band-Aid" - and what cute one :-)

The love is just shining out of Wilson's eyes......what a wonderful blessing to have - a furbaby!

So happy to hear that he is giving you joy!

(((Hugs)))

[SJ J & S]

Looks like hes settle right in

[deedee]

Nice to see that you have a new "owner". And a handsome one, too. You and Wilson will share a lot of love. I still miss the two beauties I had for years, but I have opened my heart and now have another little family. We need them, and they need us. What a privilege it is.

May you and Wilson share many happy times together. Welcome home, Wilson!

[mosmommy]

Thank You all for your well wishes. I still have my 2 dogs, my other 2 cats (besides Wilson), and I still have 8 mice to love. However, if you know my story, or have looked through my old posts, you'll remember (or see) that the number of mice went from 14 down to 8- so I still have alot of grief that has been and will be going on. The mice that have passed were 1 1/2 years old and younger, and the Vet's best guess is genetics, possibly from inbreeding, as I did get them from the SPCA. Actually, I got 2, but 1 female was already pregnant, and when I called the Humane Society back a week later, they told me they did pull a male from the cage after I adopted my 2 girls. Then, 1 week and a half later, she gave birth to 14 babies! I lost 2 runts within the first 3 days, but chose to keep the rest. It has been a long and painful drama to love and lose them, but I know that I am doing all that I can to keep them happy and healthy, so I relieve myself of the guilt and do what I have to.
So, as you can see, Wilson held and continues to hold my heart in one piece, and what a gift it is for me to be the one that is his Mom, just as I have been blessed to be the Mom of all my furbabies- those that are here, and those that have passed on. I figure I have alot of guides waiting for me when it is my turn to pass on, and I await the day that I am with them all.
Take care everyone- Grief can destroy, repair, and eventually rebuild a wounded heart and soul.
Michelle

[Emily's Mom]

He's so adorable and handsome too.

[LittleKitty]

He's very handsome. I've considered getting a band-aid like that for my Little Kitty but I haven't made that jump yet. I do have two other kitties at home still. It's nice to hear a story like yours because it's hard to imagine bringing home a replacement. Thanks for the update.

[mosmommy]

Hi LittleKitty,
I just wanted to say that there will never be a replacement, but there is always a new soul with new traits, and maybe even some similar traits to the one or many, you've lost.
When you make that jump, no matter how bad you feel, the smiles will come. I felt guilty, to a degree, that I fell in love with Wilson as fast as I did, but I believe that it was all supposed to happen. When your time is right, it will happen for you too.
Best wishes,
Michelle

[MissingMyCocoa]

I am so happy for you!! I hope 1 day I can move ahead and find a sweet baby to bring home. Your story shows us there is hope out there. Thank you so much!!