Hurts So Bad! Options

[babybear2005]

today has been a really bad day i was just cooking dinner, and something caught my eye i looked and i thought i saw my babybear at the window outside in the rain!!!! so i went to the window and opened it then it dawned on me he isnt there he isnt in his garden oh it made me cry!!!! everyday is getting worse i thought it would get better but everyday i cant stroke him or cuddle him is tearing my heart out. When it was bedtime time he would follow me in and get on the bed waiting for me to get in, i would get in to bed and he would come and curl up right up close or get on me and purr his head off but now i get in to bed and its horrible i dont want to go to bed at night because its not the same. Nobody to greet me when i walk through the door nobody waiting in the garden by the front door for me to get home!! i miss his toes, rubbing his nose and ears (he loved that) rubbing him under the chin!!!! im so mad at the moment so cross with the world with god with everybody!!! people are heartless saying 'oh you can get another one' ANOTHER ONE I DONT WANT ANOTHER ONE I WANT HIM!!!!!! everybody keeps asking how my holiday was ( i was away when he feel ill ) 'did you have a nice holiday?' NICE HOLIDAY WHAT DO YOU THINK!!!!!!! NO I DIDNT!!!!! he wasnt just a cat he was my babybear, just like all pets there are our babies!!! and he isnt called 'THE CAT' he has a name barney so use it??????????????????????????????????????????

sorry for going on but im so angry i needed to let it out

babybears mum sara

[pamurchu]

So sorry to hear of your sad story. Unless you are truly an animal lover, you cannot understand that hole in your heart that never seems to be filled or go away. The house does indeed seem too quiet, and what we wouldn't give just to pet them one more time. Be sure that others that are total strangers are grieving your loss with you. No, we can understand exactly how you feel, and of course, a pet cannot just be replaced like a wrecked car or a broken glass. But try to take some comfort in realizing that others are crying with you. My heart goes out to you and hope that some solace can come to you in the days ahead.

[Sheena]

Hi Sara,

I am so sorry for your loss. I too lost my baby kitty (Spooky) last Saturday Sep. 24th . I am still heartbroken. I feel for you. Just remember all the great times you had with Barney, and realize what a happy life she had with you.

Still Grieving/Spooky's Mom,
Rubie

[Eliza]

Sara,

I'm so terribly sorry about the loss of your beloved Barney! I can tell that you had a very special bond and that you are going through a terrible time. I just wanted to write to let you know that I know exactly how you feel! I get so angry sometimes that I don't get to hold and pet my sweet Winnie girl (calico kitty) anymore! She was everything to me. She and I also had our bedtime routine. She would usually get there first, but either way she would wait for me to get properly settled and then snuggle up right next to me with her lovely furry face laid on the back of my arm or hand. I loved to feel her soft warm breath on my skin and feel her rumbling purr. There is nothing like that kind of loving, devoted companionship, is there?!? Winnie was always so content lying next to me and so was I!! She was the love of my life and I miss her so much I can hardly stand it! I also hate going to bed now because I feel so desperately lonely for her!

I'm sorry to hear that people have said such heartless things to you about "replacing" Barney! That is so cruel! I personally feel pity for those people who have never known the kind of amazing love that our furbabies give us! At least you can know that others out here feel the same way you do. I hope you find some moments of peace when memories of your Barney make you smile.

Hugs,
Eliza

[babybear2005]

i woke this morning looking like i had gone 20 rounds with mike tyson my eyes so sore and swollen, today feels like a better day, but who knows what i will feel like in 10 mins!! an hour!!!! feeling like this really sucks!!!! i breaks my heart even more to read all of yours posts about how your furbabies passed, and that so many other people out there are feeling the same way i do at the moment, so much pain and guilt and sorrow. my heart goes out to you all. i read a poem yesterday it made me cry my eyes out so i put a copy of it in my babybears casket (i had he cremated and im waiting for a wooden cat casket to come for his final resting place) one line in it i just cant forget ' if love alone could have saved you, you never would have died' im trying to think of this line as there was nothing i could have done for him nothing in the world and i had to let him go, and i let him go because i love him sooooooo much and i didnt want him to hurt anymore. Its so easy to be selfish and hold on to them for as long as we can and thats what im starting to understand is that what i did was for him not for me and that amount of love should never be forgotten, i did right by him i loved him and cared for him as much as i possible could. He was and still is my baby and he always will be with me for the rest of my life and i will see him again and we will sleep and cuddle together once again. And for all those people who think that we are all mad, well i can only say you have no idea what you a missing what a lonely life you have because my furbaby gave me so much more than any human could ever have given me and i will have that with me forever. My love goes out to every person that has lost a furbaby and i believe that my babybear is at the end of rainbow bridge with lots of other furbabies having the time of his life waiting for me.

Love you for ever babybear ************


babybears mom sara

[rushie'smom]

I'm so sorry for your loss of Barney. I too lost my beloved buddy Rush just after returning from vacation. It was an incident at the kennel that began his troubles and I still beat myself up over it. If only I'd reserved a space earlier at the vet's, he wouldn't have fallen and spent the night on a cold concrete floor unable to get up and then became so ill from the stress that he developed bloat and eventually had to be put to sleep. I can hardly talk about the vacation and feel horribly guilty for having fun while my buddy was suffering. I know how much it hurts every single day to come home and not see that happy face waiting for you, the emptiness of your nightly routine, etc. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this, I just hope you feel some peace soon.

Hugs!
Rushie's Mom

[babybear2005]

I feel for you to, i just keep thinking if only i had not taken him to the cattery none of this would have happened, but the vet told me that it could have happened anywhere it was just a matter of time before the blood clot moved. Try not to beat yourself up about it (easy for me to say im doing the same thing at the moment!!), im just keep telling myself that it was his time, his time to go.

sending you lots of hugs

Babybears mom sara