Hurts So Bad! Options

[babybear2005]

today has been a really bad day i was just cooking dinner, and something caught my eye i looked and i thought i saw my babybear at the window outside in the rain!!!! so i went to the window and opened it then it dawned on me he isnt there he isnt in his garden oh it made me cry!!!! everyday is getting worse i thought it would get better but everyday i cant stroke him or cuddle him is tearing my heart out. When it was bedtime time he would follow me in and get on the bed waiting for me to get in, i would get in to bed and he would come and curl up right up close or get on me and purr his head off but now i get in to bed and its horrible i dont want to go to bed at night because its not the same. Nobody to greet me when i walk through the door nobody waiting in the garden by the front door for me to get home!! i miss his toes, rubbing his nose and ears (he loved that) rubbing him under the chin!!!! im so mad at the moment so cross with the world with god with everybody!!! people are heartless saying 'oh you can get another one' ANOTHER ONE I DONT WANT ANOTHER ONE I WANT HIM!!!!!! everybody keeps asking how my holiday was ( i was away when he feel ill ) 'did you have a nice holiday?' NICE HOLIDAY WHAT DO YOU THINK!!!!!!! NO I DIDNT!!!!! he wasnt just a cat he was my babybear, just like all pets there are our babies!!! and he isnt called 'THE CAT' he has a name barney so use it??????????????????????????????????????????

sorry for going on but im so angry i needed to let it out

babybears mum sara