The Pain Is Unbaerable, Momma Options

[annabelle]

I was reading all of the messages in hopes of finding some comfort at the loss of my cat Momma. Momma was with me for 16 years and was the sweetest strongest soul I have ever known. I was complelled to write after seeing Joy's cat Buddy he is absolutely Mr. Momma. It's been less than 48 hours and I am beside myself. I don't know what to say because It hurts so much. Momma used to sleep with my husband and I right between us. I would wake up and she would have her paw resting on my shoulder or face. She was with me longer than anyone else has been. I lost my biological mother at age 2. When Momma came to me ( my brother found her in our garage) my sophomore year in college, my roommates named her Momma after she had a litter of kitten. It didn't occur to me to many years later that she was in reality the unconditional love that I never got to have from my own mother. I am now 8 monthes pregnant expecting my first child and wonder if she was passing the role of mother on to me. My husband is very worried because I can't eat or sleep. She was the only soul I have ever loved that way. I can stand being without her. Her kidney's were failing and the vet recommended we let her go. She otherwise would have had to undergone intensive hospitalization and injections of fluids under her skin everday even if she did make it through. I logically know I made the right descision. But when they tried to inject her she wouldn't go they had to give her a second dose. It was the most painful experience I have ever had. I am at a loss.
Anne