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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1 Joined: 15-December 04 Member No.: 617 ![]() |
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I just found out about this website from a friend. I lost my Cairn Terrier of 16.5 years in August. We had to put him to sleep. My husband and I were there with him when he drew his last breath and I haven't been the same since. The grief I have felt from this is awful. I thought I was getting better, so I decided to adopt two cairn puppies from Col Potter Rescue. The first mistake was two, the second was I was not ready for them. We got them on 12/4/04 and by that Monday, I was having a total emotional breakdown. I couldn't do it, I wasn't ready, so I informed them we would be returning one of the puppies and my son would adopt the other. I don't know if I will ever want another dog. My Vince was my baby. We spent everyday together. I got up with him in the middle of the night the last few months of his life, and sometimes I was a little short with him out of fear, that I knew the end was nearing and I didn't want to accept that. I still feel guilty for putting him to sleep. Maybe we should have explored more options, maybe it wasn't time, why did I do it and I want him back and then I remember the life was gone from him. No tail wagging, no glad to see us. I want him back and healthy and I know that is stupid and isn't going to happen and that I need to accept what had to be done. I do, but when will the hurt and pain go away and this awful feeling of despair. We had him cremated and he is sitting on the entertainment center with a picture and angel. I sleep with his pictures under my pillow. I miss him so much. Am I a little crazy here???? |
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