New Member, Very Sad.. Options

[Amy70]

Hi everyone. I was searching the internet for some pet loss support, and fortunately, I found you. I am so sad...my kittie is dead...she always used to sneak out when I let my dogs into the backyard, but she would stay put, and come in not long after she snuck out. The Tuesday after Thanksgiving, she snuck out without me even seeing her and I looked for her for so long...I looked at the shelter, looked at their DOA book, asked my neighbors..everything...every night I went out and called her name. This past Saturday I asked my husband to find something for me in our storage under the back deck...he came in and told me he found Sassi dead...I didn't see her but he said her eye was mauled and she had blood coming out of her mouth and her fur was quite ruffled....I feel so GUILTY!!! She got hurt and came home to die...I don't know how long she was there and I feel like I failed her...it is so sad, she was my baby girl. I have to let you know that I have lost my mother to cancer, and my father to suicide not long ago, so Sassi was very important to me...I can't sleep very well at night. Although I saved a cat from the animal shelter thinking Sassi would have a playmate when she returned, I am still heartbroken. I love the new kittie but I keep comparing her to Sass...I just needed to get that off of my chest to people that love their animals enough to grieve them )

Amy