I Really Thought That I'd Be Over It By Now,but..., Just need a hug Options

[Solasmom]

Hello Everyone,

My darling Solas, a sixteen year old regal looking prince of a cat with a heart of gold and a true NY attitude, passed away in June. When it first happened I found such comfort here, it helped me go on. Now I am back. My grief has popped out of nowhere. I am a useless mess. I'm crying when no ones home, I think I see Solas out of the corner of my eye. I know that happens at first, but STILL? When am I gonna feel normal again? I miss that big lump of fur so much. I want to be able to reach out and pet him under his chin, in that place that would move his whiskers all forward and make him slit his eyes shut.

I don't really know what's bringing it up, but let me tell you it's been a Hell of a summer.
First we had to evacuate from not one , but two hurricanes. Florida's so lovely this time of year.
Then my 4 year old daughter was rushed to the ER after turning blue at school. 3 days in PICU that I would like to never relive again! She was tested for everything from her heart to her head and passed with flying colors, Thank God. But I am like 10 years older for the ordeal. Then both are cars were broken into and heck, they can take the stuff, what wigged me out was the idea that some creeps were right outside our door.

So I've had a little stress lately. I did notice that the first Thanksgiving w/o him seemed to bother me. I always used to get him a can of "the good food", in turkey for his own feast. We have a little cat, Snowball, who just turned one. Big deal I say, Solas had more personality in a whisker than he does. Snowball won't tolerate being held and Solas was such a loving lap cat. Stupid little fellow tries to keep escaping, one day I may let him!

I'm just a mean ol broken hearted grouch whose coming back to the place where people really "got me".

Thanks Guys,
Ariel