(weird) New Year's Grief/stress Options

[BabyHenry]

I lost two well loved pets this year (2016) and for some reason I am grief stricken over the upcoming year change to 2017- I feel like no longer "being in" the same year that Pumpkin and Sweet Spot were alive is a new loss or greater separation. I can't explain it; I know it so CRAZY and irrational, yet I've been crying about it almost every day since Christmas. Yeah, I know the calendar is arbitrary and January 1 is only 1 day different from December 31. It just feels like more and more distance between us and a deepening of loss. I miss you guys so much, and think of you every day.

I'm crazy like this, I think, feeling like I can "hold on" even though they are gone. After Sweet Spot died in August my husband tried to give away his extra unopened food. I hid it in the guest room closet so he couldn't. It was literally too painful to get rid of it. I still have it hidden away - perfectly good cat food that I know some shelter cats would love to have and I KNOW I should give it to them. I just can't yet.

If my husband is reading this - now you know where all the Weruva cans went . . ..