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[OllieBaby]

Ollie died in my arms May 5th. For crying out loud, when is this going to get easier? I can't shake the depression or the sadness. I miss him so much I'm still crying every day. I don't have any family left and I'm driving myself crazy looking for signs from him. I have never felt so much pain before and I'm sick with grief. He is the best part of me. He slept curled up next to me every night for 17 years. He loved me. God, please help me.