Gone To Soon Options

[Kkitty0927]

My baby Attticus died unexpectedly this past Sunday. He was only 2 years old! He left us 2 weeks and 4 days after his brother Mattie left us, and 1 year, 5 months and 5 days after his other brother Mulder left us. There is such an aching hole in my heart. It feel like I can't breathe. Nothing feels right and god it just hurts! My other babies keep looking for them, and I have to keep telling them that they are gone. I can't bring myself to move the bath may he passed on, and I keep expecting him to come around the corner or reach up saying "Hey Mom, PICK ME UP & LOVE ME!" I was able to prepare myself, at least a little bit, with Mulder & Mattie, they both had kidney disease, but Atticus wasn't supposed to go so soon! He had a heart murmur but th dr said he looked good at his last check up. He was playing in the bathroom one minute with his favorite toy, and I went in 10-20 minutes later and he was lying there, not breathing, no heartbeat, gums blue. Just like that he was gone! It is just not fair!!!!
These are my babies: Mulder- the tuxedo, Mattie- the Siamese/Maine Coon & my baby Atticus- the orange & white. Sorry for the rant, I just needed to get this out.