Rip E. Options

[orpheenoir]

Hi all. I'm new to this site, I prefer to remain semi-anonymous, but I may open up more in the future.

I lost my cat, E, on Monday 7/9/12. Apparently, diabetes set in and hit him very hard, and caused his already weak kidneys to fail completely. I watched him waste away without being able to help for too long. He dropped down to just barely 7lbs and had stopped eating and drinking altogether. I chose to euthanize him rather than keep him alive for more testing. I feel guilty, as if I could have found out about the diabetes sooner and saved him. E and I were together for 16 years, almost 17.
I am very unsure about where to go from here. I haven't moved anything in my house because it all hasn't set in yet. I still come home and expect to see him waiting for me. I have another cat, whom I have had for about 13 years. She keeps looking for him and I have no clue what to do. I am at a loss. I know that what I did was the humane thing to do, but I can't help but wonder if I did the wrong thing.

I'm not sure what else to post, I just needed to get this out in what seems like a safe haven. Thank you for reading.


Oh, and this is the last photo I took of him. He was in my arms, purring, before we put him to sleep for the euthanasia.
http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m730zu2j...vxg9o1_1280.jpg