Missing Her., Oscar <3 xoxo Options

[doggydog23]

My pup was a very loyal, spunky, adorable girl. I had her for about 15 years. She was such a joy and happy dog. She recently passed and I am still very heartbroken over it. I just wasn't expecting it. I think even if I was, it wouldn't make it any easier. I know she had heart and kidney issues. But she was acting fine, up until the night when she got sick. I woke up to her coughing and she could not catch her breath. We got her to calm down eventually and rest a bit. We got her in the vet first appt. they had open. I took her in and he gave her a shot of lasix and antibiotic. He told me come back in a couple weeks. So I left thinking my puppy was going to be just fine. I kept an eye on her and she seemed fine, just tired. Then I left a little while because I had an important class to go to. When I got back she was acting a little disoriented and I thought it was just the medicine. By the end of the night she couldn't walk. I didn't know what to think. I thought there was no concern earlier because he said see ya in 2 weeks. Now she couldn't walk. She ended up passing away before morning : ( I was just feeling so many things. Like I wanted to know why this happened. I also felt like I should have taken her back to vet when she was acting disoriented. Or tried going to a vet when she couldn't walk. I could have tried a different one since mine was closed. I really thought it was the medicine when she was acting whooozy. I wish I would have not thought just because they say 2 weeks doesn't mean it will be just fine. I feel really heartbroken and sad over this. I feel dumb I didn't do more. I also miss her so much. I just hope she didn't suffer and knows how much we all loved her. It is so hard coming to terms with things and being able to stop questioning things.