My Best Friend Fayfay Has Died Options

[Remembering Fayf...]

I am new to this board. I want to share my Fayfay story with you. My dog Fayfay has died last week after battling with CHF and kidney failure. She was 19 years old, I have owned her since she was almost one. She was the sweetest thing in my life. Always slept on my bed, she can read my emotions and we are so attached to each other. It's been over a week, still so unbelievable that she's dead. Home doesn't seem home anymore. Letting go is so hard. I took her to the vet to put to sleep as I don't want to see her suffer anymore pain. During her last few days she has gone downhill so fast that it was so heart breaking. When she was diagnosed with kidney failure over 2 years ago, she lost her appetite, I have been hand feeding her and fed her with a syringe ever since. She was ok until her heart has gotten really bad, she had laboured breathing and even a small movement would take a lot of effort. It was such a painful decision to put her down. I can't stopped the tears, I know some of my friends and family don't understand why I grief so bad, must think I'm nuts. The only comfort thing is I know Fayfay is at peace now, no more suffering. It really hurts hell to see her parting, to be without her, holding her.....but I love her too much to have her stay. She was my best friend, my baby. RIP Fayfay.

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