Getting To Know Rose, She was Axl's cat; not mine. Options

[Axl]

So, now that 10 month old Axl has been dead from being neutered for 3 days, I have a very confused Rose. Rose is a solid gray kitten spayed the same day Axl was neutered. She misses Axl greatly as they were best buddies, and I was madly, deeply and truly in love with Axl.

Rose is seriously neurotic. But I put up with it because Axl loved her so much. She knocks each and everything into the floor, even tryuing to get it out of your hand before you put it down! She will take food right out of your mouth while you are eating. She has lost SO MUCH stuff. If there is something irritating a cat can do she does it. But even the vet said she might be OCD concerning knocking each and everything to the floor the second you put it down.

Neither of us have been the same since the loss of Axl. Even writing that I want it to not be true. Rose reminds me every moment I see her of Axl and what they did together. part of me wants to give Rose away to help the hurt. Part of me wants to keep Rose because Axl loved her. And part of me wants to find her a new home because she is a crazy cat.

I don't know. I do know I hold her more gently and enjoy her purrs a little more right now.