Miss Mew, The pain of losing a 21 year old cat Options

[Miss Mew]

Reading your many messages of love and support made me realize that I was not alone in my feelings of deep grief. I said goodbye to Miss Mew October 1st 10.15 AM. It was a peaceful passing for her as she was already semi-conscious. Despite her long life I wondered if I could have done something else for her. On Thursday September 29th she went outside at 7.30am and did not return till 4pm. My husband who works from home spent hours looking for her and I was overjoyed when he called me at work to tell me that she had returned. However when I got home that night I realized that this was not just a healing crisis, she was not getting better. That evening , 2 of my other cats, Zoe and Emma got on the bed with The Mew and seemed to be saying goodbye to her and giving her permission to let go. Her appearance and demeanor that last night were kitten like. I put her on our bed that last night but at 6am on Friday morning she had disappeared. I searched the entire house and finally found her asleep , well hidden , curled up in an old planter in the basement. When I picked her up she felt cold and emitted a slight mew. I thought of letting her pass naturally at home but was unsure that she was not in pain so I called Marie Claude the Vet. During the half hour drive to her clinic I watched Miss Mew for any signs of rallying, there were none. In the waiting room I opened the carrier door and stroked her but she pulled away from my hand as if to say "it is time". She weighed just over 4 pounds then but her bravery was astounding. Even though a pet has lived a good long life the leave taking is not any easier . After all this time I started to beleive that Miss Mew was immortal! Then tonight I realized that she was immortal as she lives on in my heart and in the abbreviated story I have shared with you. As well as other cats we also have a beautiful 14 year old German Sheppard named Mik, whom we have been treating for Degenerative Myelopathy for the last year and a half. I dread the day we have to say goodbye to Mik but I hope that Miss Mew is there to guide him and ourselves. Writing this is the first time this weekend that I have not cried, maybe tonight I will rest a little easier. Thank you all for listening.
Nicole