One Week And One Day Since Midnight Died Options

[dihann]

Well it's been just over a week since my Midnight passed. I can't believe I wasn't awake when she was still alive just a short time before I got up. My son saw her at about 4:30 AM. I got up at 8:15 and just thought she was sleeping. I went to make my coffee, had it and then went to her. Once in a while she slept so no big deal. She was old, no need to jump around to greet me like she usually did in the past. So after a week of crying, crying, crying...to exhaustion...I now have awoken at about 5 am for a week. I am sorry Midnight, I wasn't there to comfort you. You looked thoughtful when I found you. I still wonder what you were thinking about when I walked over to you laying on your blankie waiting for me

You were born on March 13, 1995 at midnight, ergo your name. I had the honor of witnessing your birth at home. We found your mother wandering the neighborhood for months before we took you all in. We found her sitting about a block away so patiently in front of a home but never going in. We figured your mama, Kelly, was pregnant after a while after we finally coaxed her into our home. Proud Kelly, knowing she had another home and they not wanting her probably after finding out she was pregnant. How cruel. I couldn't believe it. We didn't plan on you and 6 brothers and sister coming into our lives. We made the commitment to Kelly and them,raised all of you and we happy when your brothers and sisters were adopted. I don't know why noone wanted you, but how could I give you away? So you and Kelly stayed and became a wonderful part of our family. Kelly passed away 3 years ago about this time at age 13 and I know how you cried when they took her away one last time. But you became as your mom before you a most protective, loving and funny girl...I will miss you guys forever. You were born in this home, and you died here, guess it can't get much better for a dog, but no matter how they go, it's horrible. Sorry for this being long, but needed to share. Thanks