Loss Of Shellie Options

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yesterday i had to have my dog, my friend, shellie put to sleep. she had an enlarged heart and the doctor said he had gone as far as he could with treatments. her rapid heartbeat and breathing problems were worse every couple of weeks. i knew the pain i would feel would be bad but i did not realize it would be this unbearable. i got shellie 8 years ago whenshe was 9 weeks old, got her for my wife...when i lost my wife, shellie and my mother became very close...when i lost my mother, shellie and i became even closer. i prayed that god would make her well as i know he could but that did not happen. now what should i think? i did not want to come home today knowing she would not be there. people will always say, it will get better with time but that is not very comforting. some say it is crazy to feel this way, after all it was only a dog BUT to me shellie was much much more than that to me. i have not felt this kind of agony since i lost my wife and quite honestly, i just don't know what to do or how to function. let my feelings show and to heck what people will think, or bottle it all up. i am usually a strong fella but the loss of my 4 legged, tail waggin little shellbell has put me down. talk about being depressed....what to do? anyone have any thoughts that could be of help to me, please..