Princess Our Dalamatian Has Been Gone For A Month Options

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Tomorrow will be 1 month since our dalmatian, Princess passed away. We are devastated with our loss. We've had her since she was 6 weeks old. She passed away at age of 11. She died of anemia. I am still crying and I don't know what to do to stop this pain. 2 months before she passed away she suddenly became lethargic. She stopped eating and drinking. She just lies on her bed refusing to get up. We rushed her to the Emergency Hospital, they pumped her with IV Fluids and steroids. After 6 days in the hospital she finally went home with oral medications. About 1 1/2 months passed, she started doing the same thing, lethargic, vomitting, stopped eating and drinking. Took her to the vet and they did blood work on her. Vet said that her bloodwork still does not look good. Took her home and she's still the same. Finally my wife and I decided it's time to put her to sleep. Friday I called the vet and made an appointment for Saturday morning. That morning about 9:30am I was feeding my 5yr old son. My wife checked Princess and she was still okay. My wife started to get ready for our appointment. When my wife got out of our room about 9:50am our Princess is gone. She died peacefully in our home without putting her to sleep. Unfortunately nobody was beside her when she passed away. We are all devastated and it it still very painful. We really feel guilty that nobody was there to comfort her till the end, my wife was in our room and I was feeding my son. We brough her to a Pet Crematory and had her body cremated. Her ashes are now in an urn on top of our mantle.

My son keeps asking where Princess is, we keep telling him Princess is in heaven. My son misses Princess, they've been best buddies since he was born. My wife and I did not want to get another dog. But we kinda felt guilty and seems unfair for my son that he does not have a buddy anymore. So 3 weeks after we adopted a dog from a shelter. She's a Keeshound mix and her name is Lila. Lila is very sweet and my son loves her. Lila is very affectionate and she kinda takes away the pain. But Lila will never replace Princess. Somehow I still feel that it was too early to get a dog. But at the same token it is unfair for Lila and my son. Whenever I see them play together, I feel happy. But I still mourn for my loss.

I am just so confused. I have mixed feelings, sometimes I just break down and cry. I guess time will heal my pain and sorrow.

Thanks for reading my post.