3 Weeks Today Without Charlie Options

[beecherbabe]

TODAY IS THE 3 WEEK MARK WITHOUT MY LITTLE BABY BOY. I HAVE HAD A ROUGH COUPLE OF DAYS, GOING THROUGH THE GUILT STAGE AGAIN. I STILL FEEL LIKE HE STAYING SOME WHERE AND HE WILL BE HOME SOON. I TRY TO KEEP TELLING MYSELF HOW SICK HE WAS AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT UNTIL THE DAY HE DIED. I AM ALSO SECOND GUESSING THE DOCTORS. WOULD IT BE WRONG TO GET A COPY OF CHARLIES XRAYS, NECROPSY REPORT AND RECORDS JUST FOR A DIFFERENT DOCTOR TO LOOK AT?? I GUESS I AM JUST DIGGING FOR A DIFFERENT ANSWER. CHARLIE I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH AND STILL CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AT NIGHT BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT NEXT TO ME. I KNOW YOU ARE AT PEACE NOW WITH YOUR BIG BROTHER GIZMO. JUST REMEMBER HOW MUCH JOY YOU GIVEN DADDY AND I AND WE BOTH LOVE AND MISS YOUR HANDSOME FACE.

LOVE YOUR MOMMY,
MICHELLE