Another Day Without My Baby Options

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I DID NOT WANT TO GET UP OUT OF BED TODAY. I AM STAYING UP LATER AND LATER, BECAUSE IT IS SO HARD TO SLEEP WITHOUT MY SCOOTER SLEEPING ON MY SIDE. iI STILL HAVE TO GET UP EARLY FOR WORK, BUT I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO DO THAT TODAY. I JUST DID NOT WANT TO DO ANYTHING. BUT, OBVIOUSLY, I DID GET UP, BECAUSE I AM HERE. I AM WONDERING HOW MIKE MADE OUT WITH HIS CAT SCOOTER AT THE VET TODAY. I COULD HAVE SWORN THAT WHEN I GOT UP TODAY, I THOUGHT I SMELLED MY PRECIOUS SCOOTER. (NO HE DIDN'T SMELL THAT WAY, BUT EACH OF MY BABIES HAS A SPECIAL SCENT) I HOPE YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN. ANYWAY, THAT BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES YET AGAIN. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. MY HUSBAND AND I HAVE BEEN LIVING ALMOST ON TAKEOUT, AND I AM FACED WITH THE FACT THAT I NEED TO GO GROCERY SHOPPING. I DON'T EVEN WANT TO DO THAT.I STILL AM NOT ANSWERING MY PHONE. THIS IS THE ONLY PLACE I CAN COME TO. HAVE ANY OF YOU EVER BEEN IN SUCH EMOTIONAL PAIN, THAT YOUR WHOLE BODY STARTS TO HURT TOO? PLEASE, CAN ANYONE CONVINCE ME THAT THERE IS A RAINBOW BRIDGE, AND THAT WE WILL SEE OUR BELOVED PETS AGAIN? THAT IS THE ONLY WAY I THINK I CAN FIND ANY PEACE. I KNOW THEY SAY WE WILL SEE OUR LOVED ONES, WHEN WE CROSS, BUT I NEED TO KNOW I WILL BE WITH MY BELOVED PETS WHEN I CROSS. I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM DOUBTING THIS, I GUESS I JUST FEEL EMPTY, LOST AND ALONE. WELL, I SUPPOSE I HAVE TO BRAVE THE GROCERY STORE.