Dealing With Loss Of Three Beloved Pets, Dogs Poisoned Options

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On Wed. evening someone poisoned (with anti-freeze) three of my beautiful dogs. Sam ( Great Pyrenees) and Buster (German Shephard mix) died in the middle of the night the third, Fred (collie mix) I had to put down Thurs. morning.
Sometimes the pain feels like it will never end. I have three small children who are dealing with it I think better than myself. I haven't been able to sleep in my bed because it reminds me of that night. I was in a fairly deep sleep and heard thrashing around which at the time I thought was just the dogs playing. I remember thinking it sounded really rough but I was tired and didn't get out of bed. They weren't playing they were dying. We offered a reward for any information. One of the tips we received seems like it might be the guy. Unfortunately, we aren't getting much assistance from law enforcement. I feel very alone. We went out yesterday and picked up another dog from the local shelter. I'm having a hard time bonding with the dog.
Basically, I am tormented over their deaths and miss them dearly. We never received a single complaint from any of our neighbors which makes it all the more bewildering.
Finally, I feel like there isn't anyone around me that understands the sorrow I am experiencing which makes me feel even more crazy. I keep thinking this is some kind of nightmare and I'll wake up shortly.
Thanks for listening,
Sam, Buster, Fred's mom,
kendra