I Lost My Baby, I don't know if I did the right thing Options

[violetsmama]

My beautiful burmese girl Violet was put to sleep today. She was 12, and had been suffering from arthritis for years. She still got around okay, until last Wednesday when she was limping badly. The vets did x-rays and found it in her front legs as well as her back and hip, and put her on the only medications she hadn't been on. The past few days she wouldn't sleep and her limp was getting worse to where she couldn't walk and she was incontinent. The vets said she wasn't going to have a quality life, so this morning I said goodbye.

I feel so guilty, I don't know if I made the right decision in letting her go. She managed to have her breakfast this morning, before I took her. She rubbed my face with the top of her head at the vets, like she always did. She got upset with the needle, and I wanted to tell them to stop. But I didn't, and all I want is her back. I had her for exactly half my life, I miss her 'talking' to me, and sitting in my lap. She always waited for me at the end of the driveway when I got home, and slept on my bed everynight. She was always spoilt rotten, my daughter has been crying for her all day and wants her to 'wake up.'

Does it get easier, I'm absolutely devastated and I hate myself so much for having her put to sleep.