Was I Responsible For Their Deaths, My 2 kitties dying within 2 days Options

[dlima]

Hi all,
It is me again, Debby, Mom of Millie and Tinky. Millie died suddenly Sunday night and Tinky was put down Tuesday becuase of severe kidney disease. As i read the posts on this site I know that I am not alone in my pain. But it keeps haunting me that maybe something in my house poisoned my 2 little babies. They were 9 and 10, and for them both to go so suddenly and within 2 days was either a horrible coincidence as the Vet put it, or maybe they were exposed to something toxic. They were indoor cats. My friend still thinks Millie had a stroke, she was fine the night before she passed. And well Tink hadnt been to the vet in years, she hated the vet, and she was always seemingly healthy, although she was starting to look thin lately. There was no doubt she was very sick the day I put her down after seeing the Vet. I thought she was just depressed about Millie her buddy until i got the blood test results. The vet said her kidney numbers were so high he couldnt believe she was still alive. I am trying not to focus on the guilt or anything negative. Why didnt I notice Tink was sick? She slept with me every night, with Millie too. It is just so devasting because of the suddeness of it. After finding my one baby gone and then putting the other one down the next day it is almost more than I can bear. My daughter keeps asking me why this happened and all I can say is no one but God knows.
Thank you everyone for all your support, I come to this site several times a day to read the posts and get some comfort. I always ending up crying but that is ok.
Thanks again,

Millie and Tinky's Mom
Deb