My Jayjay Died, Coping With the loss of a pet (or not!) Options

[cdboogie]

Hi, I'm new to this forum and I want to say first of all that I'm so sad for all of your precious fur-babies that have passed on! I went looking for a pet loss arena to join because I know that I'm not alone in my grief and that there are many people going through the same devastating thing! I want to talk about my baby to those who know how it feel's to have this special type of love for a pet and to be so loved by them in return only to lose them forever! Other pet owner's can relate to what I'm going through right now! My boyfriend was sad but he's over it and my grief is only just beginning! I'm really the only one grieving over her. She was my precious girl!
My sweet beautiful JayJay died on Feb. 28th, 2004 after only a four day illness and my heart is shattered! I had never even heard of Cardiomyopathy, never mind experience it so tragically! She wasn't even six years old! I'm so sad I just want to die!
I don't want to stop crying, you know? I want to grieve for the rest of my life. I want to scream, kick my feet, and cry uncontrollably over her forever and never stop. It seems as if it would be disrespectful to her memory if I stopped being sad. Like how much I grieve equals how much I love her. If I stop grieving I stop loving and missing her. Does that make sense? I was wondering if anyone else ever experienced this?
Thank-you all !

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