I Can't Do This Anymore, The pretending is killing me Options

[Lisa...NOAH'...]

I can't keep this up any longer. Every morning I don't want to wake up because I will just have to think about getting through another day without TJ. Everyday is spent running from my emotions. Everyday I think where can I go or what can I do to keep me busy and occupy my mind so I won't have to think about my loss. Tomorrow night will be one week since I lost TJ. It's really taking a toll on me. I am greatful every night when it's time to sleep so I can rest my mind and my emotions.
I didn't think life was supposed to be so hard...I have had more grief than I thought any person should have to bear in one lifetime. They always say that God will not give you more than you can handle. Well Lord...My shoulders are only so strong...I'm only human.

Lisa...NOAH'S ARK